Getting Cocky.

[TheSolitarySiren]

Today,

I discovered a fault in myself. Granted, in reality, I am a being, we are all beings and thus, we all carry faults. The most important and responsible part is to recognize that fault and to work at changing it for the better. To admit to yourself that fault and to strive to make yourself anew. A fault I came across today, I also discovered in others. I've realized how much this fault is in use, is developed, and is forgotten. This is the fault of condescension. A form of 'cockiness'. This fault I found is internal in myself, I don't display it, but I think it and I've begun to set my head straight.

Sometimes in our life, we lose track of the resource, the core, the purpose, the reason. Which brings me to all you lovely Mermaids out there. Remember why you are a mermaid, remember what inspired you, what your purpose was, why you decided to swim this current. If you are still striving for that purpose, then keep on swimming. If you have realized that you've started to veer off of it, then I advise you to set your tail straight and jump back into the tide. Because accomplishing your purpose and reason is much more satisfying than losing it.

Have a beautiful night.

Questions: What are faults you've recognized in yourself? How do you plan on subsiding that fault? What is your reason/purpose? Your inspiration? What type of person would you like to become? Is it for yourself or for others? (Keep in mind that doing something for yourself is not 'selfish', for we must have our own strength before attempting to assist others.)

[Lotus]

I'm the first to admit that I am not perfect. I have a TON of faults... my biggest one is my over developed sense of guilt. I won't go into why that is, but let's just say that I've been thru some right horrible shit in the last few years. In the beginning it was because I was being selfish, and in the end it's because of the fall-out that occurred because of my poor decisions. I've got a whole lot of shit I'm sick of living with, and I'm really tired of feeling like I need to explain to anyone why I am the way I am. I just am. I haven't put a lot of thought into what made me this way, but I have put a lot of thought into how I would like to be- thinner, more organized, less of a short tempered bitch.... I've let my thoughts and feelings of inadequacy rule my life, and it's lead to nothing more than self-loathing and a feeling of indescribable loss. Like I've lost my way, and I don't know who I am or ever was. But in all of that, I've learned some very fundamental things about myself: I like "freaks" and "ugly people". I like to look at them, and I love talking to them. I am a true rebel; it doesn't matter if I'm told I can't do something; I'll do it anyway. But I will do it in a way that doesn't get me into trouble so I never have to give up what I love. I'm resourceful- if there's something I need- I'll find a way to get it. I typically like whoever I meet, unless they are directly rude to me for no legitimate reason. Then I just hate them. I'm overweight, cynical and jealous. I used to think that I need to change these "negative" things about myself, but I've come to realize that if I go on striving to be more when I can't accept what I already am, I'll drive myself insane once and for all. So for now I just have to learn to accept myself and quit being so concerned about the acceptance of others.
I realize that we are all flawed. Every single person on this earth is screwed up somehow... maybe I'm wrong, but I feel like people who are striving to be a "better person" are really just trying to make up for something they feel they're lacking. Or trying to fix a mistake they wish they had never made. I really feel that it doesn't matter what you do or how you are as long as you can live with it and be content. That being said, I'm always really happy to see someone try to change things when something has gone wrong. It gives me a little renewed faith in others- like maybe I'm not really as alone as I feel. I think in the end, the reasons are irrelevant. We are who we are.
oh yeah, another fault of mine: I tend to wander off topic.

[AniaR]

I get sucked into drama easily- usually because I have this innate need to mediate and stick up for people. It usually ends up with me being manipulated a bit. I'm getting better at it, it doesn't happen in real life anymore just online. LOL. Online's so hard when it's so easy to say something. I also never stop to appreciate how things are going or have gone, I just keep go go go which leads to burn out etc. Like you said, it's helpful to just stop and give yourself a reality check to get back on your path! :)

[SeaGlass Siren]

My biggest fault was so let people push me around until i just kept getting manipulated. i could never really voice my opinion without being accused of something or being labeled something. "disrespectful, dishonourable, a bitch, a prick, self-righteous, hypocrite (despite having integrity and being honest), an over-exaggerating drama queen" what have you. so you know what i did?

i spoke out more. regardless if i knew i was either going to be labeled, if i see something wrong or am being wronged i am going to say it, even if i appear like a "bitch" or a "drama queen". my inspiration? Xena Warrior princess (well the actress anyway). she's strong, good head on her shoulders, tough. i want to be like her.

granted i wont exactly be her, but you know what? i'm not going to care about what people think. i refuse to retract statements, and i absolutely refuse to apologize for the truth. i will apologize for my behaviour, but the truth? no.