I just need to vent

[MadisonTheMer93]

I was laying in bed trying to sleep. My thoughts got too loud. So I put my headphones in to drown them out. They got louder. It got to the point where I was grinding my teeth trying to ignore every single thought of “I’m not good enough” “I can’t do this” “what’s wrong with me”, every negative thought I’ve been burying over the last two months. I miss my friends in Virginia. I miss the life I had there. It wasn’t the best, but I had fun. Lately it’s been all work and no play for s*** money that I can’t even support myself on. When all I want to do is save up for my first tail. I'm starting to lose hope in being able to follow my dream.


-The curious new mermaid

[Mermaid Lily_Pad]

I have felt the same way. We just moved, I can't get a job and my husband rolls his eyes at my wish to be a mermaid. It is so frustrating and lonely at times but. It also gets worse when I can't sleep. I actually take meds that help shut the brain down or I would never sleep. Hang in there. I know all may seem horrid right now, but you never know what may be around the corner. You just have to take a deep breath, let the negativity ease up, and start trying to find positive things to focus on. Positivity breeds more positivity and who know, you may start feeling better!

Good od luck, and feel free to vent to me anytime.

[Coradion]

Your brain can get overactive when everything is swirling in your head craziness. Focus on a solution, not the problem. Even if it's not much start saving for your tail with a change jar. Just right "TAIL FUND" or something on the jar and put the days leftover coins in it. That way even if your day is rough you still know you're making small steps towards something special. If your job isn't working out maybe look for something easy on the side. Even babysitting on weekends can sometimes make a huge difference. Missing friends is natural and you might try praying with a specific intent in mind. I'm not religious but I am spiritual if that makes sense and in my Hawai'ian Herbal Healing class we did a lot of praying as a way of organizing our thoughts, a lot of the time it helped bring up or confront and deal with our root dilemmas. Try that, and maybe use a tactile outlet as a way to tire out the feelings and your body. Art is a great medium for this!

[MadisonTheMer93]

Thanks you guys. It means a lot to me.


-The curious new mermaid