Staying True to Myself

[Mermaid Cecelia]

So this is a rant :/

So recently I've been trying to be more involved with my merself. Doing this, I have, of course, come across some resistance and hate and bullying towards that side of me. The ignorance is so strong in the people who try to judge me, and that's bugs the crap out of me.


For example:
I recently have been more active on my mermaid Instagram account, @theukulelemermaid. I also have my personal account, on which I sometimes promote the other as to gain some more support mermaid-wise. A couple of my good friends followed my mermaid account, because they are good and supportive friends who wish to see me succeed. Yesterday, two random guys from the prep-clique at my school followed my mermaid account. I was like wtf, these people don't even know me, so I was contemplating blocking them already. Then at school this morning, I passed by that group in the hallway, and they were going on and on about it, not saying particularly nice things. I immediately blocked them on both of my accounts. I don't know what I did to have the eye of Sauron turn to me, I've never even talked to any of those people, and yet they still have the audacity to judge me on something they know nothing about.


People don't realize, I do this because it is fun. I do this not because I think I'm a real mermaid, since I don't. I don't believe in real mermaids, I don't wish I was a real mermaid. I do this because I've had a crappy life, as have many people, and am very stuck in reality. If I can play dress-up for a couple hours and make pretty decent money doing it, as well as bring a bit more magic and fantasy into this world which is so quick to stamp it out, then I will continue to do it.


I wanted to confront these people and tell them all of that, but I decided that if they are going to be so low as to go out of their way to try to cause pain, then they are beneath me and I will not sink to that level just to explain. They aren't worth my explanation, and I couldn't care less about what they think of me.

[PearlieMae]

You are wise, Young One. Don't waste your energy on those whose lives are so small.

(I didn't realize YOU were UkuleleMermaid!)

[-Annwyn-]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a sucky time... :(

Let me tell you a story. A few years ago, when Australia discovered I was a mermaid (http://www.news.com.au/travel/travel-updates/mary-shows-off-her-fin-tastic-skills-after-ditching-call-centre-job/story-e6frfq80-1226276562230?pg=1#comments), there was this one guy who had liked and followed every social network my mersona was a part of: twitter, facebook, instagram, youtube, etc. Plus, he had a blog and was saying some pretty nasty, hateful and hurtful things about me, using my real name. Not only that, he created a Facebook page just to mock me. He never took into account just how damaging his stunts were in my real life. It was stalky, and frightening and I ended up backing off the mer scene as a result for a really long time.

And that's the main reason I changed my mermaid name from Aela to Annwyn.

Don't let anyone dull your sparkle darling.

[Mermaid Cecelia]

Thanks Pearlie :) and yup, dats me :P

[Mermaid Cecelia]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a sucky time... :(

Let me tell you a story. A few years ago, when Australia discovered I was a mermaid (http://www.news.com.au/travel/travel-updates/mary-shows-off-her-fin-tastic-skills-after-ditching-call-centre-job/story-e6frfq80-1226276562230?pg=1#comments), there was this one guy who had liked and followed every social network my mersona was a part of: twitter, facebook, instagram, youtube, etc. Plus, he had a blog and was saying some pretty nasty, hateful and hurtful things about me, using my real name. Not only that, he created a Facebook page just to mock me. He never took into account just how damaging his stunts were in my real life. It was stalky, and frightening and I ended up backing off the mer scene as a result for a really long time.

And that's the main reason I changed my mermaid name from Aela to Annwyn.

Don't let anyone dull your sparkle darling.

Thats really scary, I'm glad you eventually came back though :)

[Mermaid Harmony]

Annwyn that's crazy, and Cecelia, trust in your gut, you will be made fun of, people are not going to like you even if your the nicest person in the world. I had someone choose not to hire me because they thought I thought I was a real mermaid, so sometimes you just got be like, well, okay, that person doesn't get it, but here are hundreds of other people getting happiness from what I'm doing. Keep going doll.

[Coradion]

So this is a rant :/

So recently I've been trying to be more involved with my merself. Doing this, I have, of course, come across some resistance and hate and bullying towards that side of me. The ignorance is so strong in the people who try to judge me, and that's bugs the crap out of me.


For example:
I recently have been more active on my mermaid Instagram account, @theukulelemermaid. I also have my personal account, on which I sometimes promote the other as to gain some more support mermaid-wise. A couple of my good friends followed my mermaid account, because they are good and supportive friends who wish to see me succeed. Yesterday, two random guys from the prep-clique at my school followed my mermaid account. I was like wtf, these people don't even know me, so I was contemplating blocking them already. Then at school this morning, I passed by that group in the hallway, and they were going on and on about it, not saying particularly nice things. I immediately blocked them on both of my accounts. I don't know what I did to have the eye of Sauron turn to me, I've never even talked to any of those people, and yet they still have the audacity to judge me on something they know nothing about.


People don't realize, I do this because it is fun. I do this not because I think I'm a real mermaid, since I don't. I don't believe in real mermaids, I don't wish I was a real mermaid. I do this because I've had a crappy life, as have many people, and am very stuck in reality. If I can play dress-up for a couple hours and make pretty decent money doing it, as well as bring a bit more magic and fantasy into this world which is so quick to stamp it out, then I will continue to do it.


I wanted to confront these people and tell them all of that, but I decided that if they are going to be so low as to go out of their way to try to cause pain, then they are beneath me and I will not sink to that level just to explain. They aren't worth my explanation, and I couldn't care less about what they think of me.

Go for a swim, it helps a lot. You're spending your time doing something creative and pursuing something you enjoy. They're spending theirs trying to bring someone down. You're the one whose winning :) if you don't feel like it throw your hands up in the air and say "Yes, I am winning." The act of throwing your hands up in the air is a psychological booster, doing it before a job interview or whenever you're stressed is proven to improve your state of mind and help you function. Same with hugs. Get a hug, get some chocolate, throw your hands up say out loud you're a bad ass and smile. Also check your IG today ;)

[Mermaid Cecelia]

Thanks everyone :) if there's one word of use to describe this community, it'd be "supportive", I can always count on y'all

[Mermaid Alea]

Everyone has already posted amazing, uplifting replies. :thumbs-up:

I just wanted to say, that when I was in high school, I remember how cruel some members in the popular group were. They thought they were so much better than everyone, but really they just stirred up trouble by gossiping so they were not better than anyone. Not all of them are mean, but in general they are all about being 'cool' and for some reason making fun of others is a popular activity to them. I have been made fun of, and ignored, and I have almost always had trouble fitting in. As you get older though, you realize you don't give a flip what those sort of people think or say about you. I cannot stand it when people think it is okay to pick on others because I have been picked on, so I know what it feels like and I do not wish it on anyone. I feel so terrible for people that commit suicide because they were picked on so severely by people. Never let people make you feel worthless or stupid, etc.

It is beautiful to be unique, and to follow your own dreams even if others think it is strange or not normal, etc. I was never much into talking to people in high school, but just today I was looking at one of my yearbooks and almost every person that signed my book said that I inspired them with my creativity and uniqueness. It is unique people like everyone here on mernetwork that make the world more interesting and less dull and help to inspire others. So what if you are into being a mermaid? Are the people picking on you making money with a unique hobby? I doubt it. I like wearing bright, colorful clothes and different colored jeans. In high school this girl asked me why I dressed the way I do. I looked at her confused. She had trouble understanding why I didn't wear the norm clothes everyone else wore. I like to be different. Different is fun and don't let anyone make you think being different is stupid or bad. I think it is the best.

Oh and if I was closer to where you are and wouldn't get into trouble, I would beat up those guys...Better yet I would get my boyfriend's creepy, strong friend to beet them up and I would get my Indian war club and...Just kidding! Violence is not the answer of course, but still...Very tempting. :p

[QueenZero]

I do not see why people can't mind their own bloody business. World would be a better place.
You keep doing what you're doing, mate. Being yourself is a grand thing, so don't let naysayers get you down. I came from an abusive household; I know how it feels to want to escape to a fantasy world. If you enjoy it, do it. Little sh*ts can take a hike.
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[Mermaid Cecelia]

Everyone has already posted amazing, uplifting replies. :thumbs-up:

I just wanted to say, that when I was in high school, I remember how cruel some members in the popular group were. They thought they were so much better than everyone, but really they just stirred up trouble by gossiping so they were not better than anyone. Not all of them are mean, but in general they are all about being 'cool' and for some reason making fun of others is a popular activity to them. I have been made fun of, and ignored, and I have almost always had trouble fitting in. As you get older though, you realize you don't give a flip what those sort of people think or say about you. I cannot stand it when people think it is okay to pick on others because I have been picked on, so I know what it feels like and I do not wish it on anyone. I feel so terrible for people that commit suicide because they were picked on so severely by people. Never let people make you feel worthless or stupid, etc.

It is beautiful to be unique, and to follow your own dreams even if others think it is strange or not normal, etc. I was never much into talking to people in high school, but just today I was looking at one of my yearbooks and almost every person that signed my book said that I inspired them with my creativity and uniqueness. It is unique people like everyone here on mernetwork that make the world more interesting and less dull and help to inspire others. So what if you are into being a mermaid? Are the people picking on you making money with a unique hobby? I doubt it. I like wearing bright, colorful clothes and different colored jeans. In high school this girl asked me why I dressed the way I do. I looked at her confused. She had trouble understanding why I didn't wear the norm clothes everyone else wore. I like to be different. Different is fun and don't let anyone make you think being different is stupid or bad. I think it is the best.

Oh and if I was closer to where you are and wouldn't get into trouble, I would beat up those guys...Better yet I would get my boyfriend's creepy, strong friend to beet them up and I would get my Indian war club and...Just kidding! Violence is not the answer of course, but still...Very tempting. :p

haha your description of yourself actually reminds me a lot of how I am and act and think and dress :P my friends always say I'm the most colorfully dressed person they know haha. And I think I'll avoid the violence too, don't wanna get kicked out of school (although I could probably convince my boyfriend to scare them a bit, he's the over-protective type, but in a good way)

[Mermaid Alea]

Yeah I was just joking about that last part! All 100% joke I wasn't being serious. I don't want to get you or your boyfriend into trouble. Just like I joke to my boyfriend that if I met Justin Bieber I would punch him. If I met him I wouldn't punch him. I just like to sound tough. :lol:

[Mermaid Cecelia]

Yeah I was just joking about that last part! All 100% joke I wasn't being serious. I don't want to get you or your boyfriend into trouble. Just like I joke to my boyfriend that if I met Justin Bieber I would punch him. If I met him I wouldn't punch him. I just like to sound tough. :lol:

haha yeah I gotcha :P