B!TC# IT OUT!

This is such a silly bitch but I'm in the bed of a guy I've been seeing, I wake up at 6 am, and he is not here. It is now nearly 7 and I can't get back to sleep. It's such an awful feeling to wake up expecting someone in the bed, and then they're not there. He's also not on the couch in the lounge, but his car keys appear to still be here? So my educated guess is that he's in his housemate's room, who isn't here, but hell if I can tell you why.

I don't get to be mad, cause we're not dating. It's just casual sex. But gorram it when I come over for sex I come for the sex AND the cuddles after. Where are my morning cuddles :(

This is going to be a super long rant everyone, sorry in advance! I'm just so done with Doctors.. :mad::cry:
So about a week ago I wake up around 2am in the morning to go to the bathroom. Usually I wake up at least a couple of times during the night/early morning to go pee because I drink TONS of water. So I zombie into the bathroom to go pee and after I do I sit there a minute because my lower abdomen starts to hurt. It honestly felt like I had to poop at first, (Sorry a bit TMI). So I sit there still half asleep waiting to see if I do have to do anything else. All of a sudden I get this BAD stabbing painful pain in my lower abdomen. I thought that it was my IBS giving me troubles because I've had that kind of pain before when I was having bowl movements. The pain starts to really increase and it starts to radiate up my left side of my body. I'm in so much pain and basically paralyzed, I try to at least get off the toilet so I can yell for my husband because he was asleep already. He couldn't hear me when I was calling him when the pain started. I manage to get down on the bathroom floor and scream for him to come help me. He comes running in of course to see what's wrong. I'm in very very severe pain now. He tries to get me up but every time I slightly move I scream in more pain. He had to pick me up and run me to the E.R. I got there around 2:30am, got checked in, and had to bleeping wait to be seen. They knew and saw how much pain I was in and usually lower abdominal pains get seen quicker, nope not me I waited at least 15-20 mins just to tell a doctor what was going on. They ordered a ultrasound and it was the type that had to be up my hooha, great.. also blood & urine. Got all of that done which those types of ultrasounds are SUPER uncomfortable BTW! Had to wait what seemed like forever to get the results of the ultrasound. Turns out that I have a HUGE ovarian cyst on my left ovary. Even the Doctor was freaking out how big it is. She said that it's 8 centimeters big and that I need to go to the OB-GYN. I knew I had a cyst and been trying to get this dang thing removed for 5+ years. They never wanted to take it out because at the times I got checked it was too small and they didn't want to "destroy my ovary" they would take the whole ovary out because " I was too young". Now I have to go find another dang OB-GYN and hopefully this time they will do something about this cyst. I'm so tired of Doctors right now. I'm already having issues with my regular PCP and now I'm going to have to deal with this. I want this dang cyst out of my body so I don't have to be in pain or worry about it rupturing again! Sigh.... :cry::anger explode:

Ouch. That is no fun.

Ok. I just want to say this because the body issue subject issue keeps coming up. And if this is the wrong place to post it, sorry. Feel free to move it where ever it fits best.

You cannot judge a person's worth with a tape measure or a scale. And more times than not, when a person puts down someone because of their body type, that comment is more of a reflection on them than anything else. I am lucky to be married to a beautiful wife who isn't the supermodel impossibility. And I love all 225 pounds of her because who she is. So yes, the best way to be beautiful is to be who you truly are. Thank you.

Agreed cletusk!

So my computer has like barely any memory storage, which makes playing games like The Sims 3 very difficult. My mom said I could put sims 3 on her computer because it has much more memory than mine. I'm installing sims 3 and the billion of expansion packs and I go to the site called "modthesims" which I've used billions of times and never had any problems before. But a scam pops up onto the screen and it's one of the ones where the scammers encrypt the computer so unless you call the scammers and pay them a whole bunch of money to "fix" your computer, you won't be able to use your computer. My dad is SOOOOO pissed!!!! He told me that he wasn't mad at me just that he was mad at what happened. But my mom is probably going to go off on me because she's dealing with a whole bunch of stuff involving her health and it's making her temper really short. My dad said that the computer is going to have to be rebuilt and that's not going to happen until this weekend. I'm legit about to cry and extremely scared of both my parents right now.


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Originally Posted by cletusk20

I am lucky to be married to a beautiful wife who isn't the supermodel impossibility. And I love all 225 pounds of her because who she is. So yes, the best way to be beautiful is to be who you truly are. Thank you.

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While I appreciate the sentiment of your words, I do wish people would stop saying things like "supermodel impossibility." We don't need to shame one body type to build another one up. The people in my family are naturally thin (well, not me, but most of them) and I can assure you that they very much exist. ;-)

I know I comment here a little too much but I have to vent my feelings. I'm literally going through so much stress right now. My parents are now saying I have Asperger's and that its my autistic traits that make me "obsess" over things. Also they completely changed their mind and said that me wanting to buy a mermaid tail was stupid. They also said that in on the wrong track because I've had a rough year. I have not been completing my work and have been skipping study halls. Now dcf is after my dad because he hits me and I'm scared because i don't want anything to happen to my family. My family makes up a bunch of fake mental illnesses as an excuse for my mistakes and interests. Also everybody on here loves mermaids and it has nothing to do with having a mental illness even if they do have one. We are just a bunch of people who like to swim like mermaids.


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So my computer has like barely any memory storage, which makes playing games like The Sims 3 very difficult. My mom said I could put sims 3 on her computer because it has much more memory than mine. I'm installing sims 3 and the billion of expansion packs and I go to the site called "modthesims" which I've used billions of times and never had any problems before. But a scam pops up onto the screen and it's one of the ones where the scammers encrypt the computer so unless you call the scammers and pay them a whole bunch of money to "fix" your computer, you won't be able to use your computer. My dad is SOOOOO pissed!!!! He told me that he wasn't mad at me just that he was mad at what happened. But my mom is probably going to go off on me because she's dealing with a whole bunch of stuff involving her health and it's making her temper really short. My dad said that the computer is going to have to be rebuilt and that's not going to happen until this weekend. I'm legit about to cry and extremely scared of both my parents right now.


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Can you access anything in safe mode?

Sorry. Your probably right about a bad choice of words there. I was trying to add something positive.

Too many things are going on today I kinda really don't know how to function.


So after I got news of my cousins wedding, I found out not long after that my younger sister's fiancé's mother might be passing away from cancer tonight or tomorrow in the hospital. She never really let anyone know she was suffering. I guess she didn't want anyone to know that she was sick. Asian people are typically very prideful and don't want to let anyone know if they're going through hell because they don't want that kind of pity. I met her once and she was a really sweet lady. She was very caring for her son (all her sons are diagnosed with bipolar disorder) and she's done everything to care for them. I could tell she was a very good mother.
I hope she passes on to the afterlife with as little pain as possible.
Don't pray for me, I don't need it. But if you do pray, pray for my younger sister and her fiancé, his family, and most of all the mother. Both were really close to her and my younger sis hasn't really stopped crying (she called us and that's how we knew). It's already hard to lose your mum (who cared for you for two decades of her life, the whole existence for yours), it's harder when she was a cancer patient, but I imagine it must be especially painful losing your mother after Mother's Day. Pray for them. Send them good vibes.

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Can you access anything in safe mode?

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Unfortunately no, the computer had to be shut down and disconnected from the internet so it doesn't get to the other computers because our computers are all connected to the same network or something. I can still use my desktop computer or my laptop.

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Originally Posted by KellyMermaid

So my computer has like barely any memory storage, which makes playing games like The Sims 3 very difficult. My mom said I could put sims 3 on her computer because it has much more memory than mine. I'm installing sims 3 and the billion of expansion packs and I go to the site called "modthesims" which I've used billions of times and never had any problems before. But a scam pops up onto the screen and it's one of the ones where the scammers encrypt the computer so unless you call the scammers and pay them a whole bunch of money to "fix" your computer, you won't be able to use your computer. My dad is SOOOOO pissed!!!! He told me that he wasn't mad at me just that he was mad at what happened. But my mom is probably going to go off on me because she's dealing with a whole bunch of stuff involving her health and it's making her temper really short. My dad said that the computer is going to have to be rebuilt and that's not going to happen until this weekend. I'm legit about to cry and extremely scared of both my parents right now.


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I had a virus like that, and I used a program called Malawarebytes to fix it. Also used the same program to fix my grandparents computer. It's a free program but they also have a paid version with more features. I use the free one

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That's a shame... I was going to suggest using Hitman Pro 2 to clean it out if you could access anything.

I'm so angry at my mom! I started the Ted talk Hannah Fraser did to show my dad and around the first part Hannah says something about her dream being creating a world where all human beings love and respect everyone and everything. My mom says "gosh is this woman living in a lala land or what!" And then she continues to mock my idol. I called her a bitch and my parents got mad at me, I mean yeah it wasn't very nice but she didn't have to keep on mocking my idol.


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Generally a bad idea to call parents by swear words. To their face, anyway.

In my case, I tend to come off as a hard caustic so and so very much of the time, so my mermaiding tends to put people at ease about me. So I put it on my resumes talk about it in job interviews celebrate it with teachers and coworkers.

As for my parents, who know I'm a whimsical little shit with my head in the clouds and my nose in a book, well, they're whimsical little shits too, so they think it's cool. Thankfully.

But sending you guys hugs on the parent problem.


And SeaGlass. There will be a candle on my windowsill tonight. Orange, if I can find it.

Thankyou so much Sabrina. You're always so sweet.

Monday I took my new horse Trazon to the vet, because- number one his leg swelled up and he had a hematoma and he could barely walk.
Two, Sunday he had an allergic reaction to the medicine we've been giving him, he collapsed, was thrashing around, couldn't get up. I was horrified, crying, and trying to explain to my dad on the phone what happened. (the vet gave us a new medicine)

Anyway, yesterday morning, where the vet lanced and drained the hematoma was fine, just a slit, over a bubble, I have to run water in once a day. No big deal.

That afternoon I went to clean him (i have to have my husbands help) and all of the skin that WAS the hematoma is effing gone.
So he has a terrible hole in his leg now that is as big around as a softball.

I called the vet, he said it can happen and that he should have warned me.

Uh-ya think?!?

I dont know when he'll completely heal.
I don't know if he'll ever fully recover.
But the stress I've had to deal with from this horse Has caused me to be sick to my stomach, breakouts, and to feel tired and drained everyday.

It's not good for my baby for me to be so stressed 24/7, but this horse is too young and well behaved to get screwed over in life because of my sister's bitch horse.

I'll refrain from posting any pictures of the wound, because I know some of you would probably get sick at the sight.

Oh Shimmer! D:

I'm so sorry to hear shimmer :(


Brief update:
My sister's fiancé's mother passed away peacefully just moments ago.
She's had a pretty rough life for most of her life from what I hear. Her mother passed away when she was younger as well and took care of all her siblings on top of her two bipolar sons.
She suffered from a rare tumour for two years. I hope her passing was painless and I hope the family has the strength to carry on.
She told my sister she's always wanted a daughter and I guess she fulfilled that by being with her son. She's taking it pretty hard.

I'll be going to her funeral on Saturday.

Oh, at least she got a daughter. She sounds like she was a remarkable woman and mother

She's definitely a tough cookie.

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So my computer has like barely any memory storage, which makes playing games like The Sims 3 very difficult. My mom said I could put sims 3 on her computer because it has much more memory than mine. I'm installing sims 3 and the billion of expansion packs and I go to the site called "modthesims" which I've used billions of times and never had any problems before. But a scam pops up onto the screen and it's one of the ones where the scammers encrypt the computer so unless you call the scammers and pay them a whole bunch of money to "fix" your computer, you won't be able to use your computer. My dad is SOOOOO pissed!!!! He told me that he wasn't mad at me just that he was mad at what happened. But my mom is probably going to go off on me because she's dealing with a whole bunch of stuff involving her health and it's making her temper really short. My dad said that the computer is going to have to be rebuilt and that's not going to happen until this weekend. I'm legit about to cry and extremely scared of both my parents right now.


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Fixing a computer from a virus is actually really easy to do. All you have to do is wipe the computer back to factory settings if you are able to at least get into your settings in safe mode. If you can't get pass anything and if it's a Trojan then you have to have someone remove it. There are programs/disks that take care of Trojan viruses out there and it would be cheaper than trying to just rebuild a whole computer again. Does it come up with a virus code or anything? I'm really tech savvy and could help you out trying to get it fixed. :)

*hugs* SeaGlass. Another candle coming right up.

I had to give him his first shot of the new medicine last night and he saw the needle and he got so scared 😥

He started breathing hard and started shaking, I checked his pulse and it was through the roof.

The whole allergic reaction traumatized him and now he's terrified of shots. It breaks my heart.

I'm supposed to give him 14 ccs a day. I got 10 in him last night before he started moving away from me, and I pulled my needle to keep it from breaking in his skin.

I'm thinking taking some treats to give him after I'm finished might help calm him down.

All I know is i have to do something to make him less scared because I cant see him like this.

Freaking scamming a-holes!!!!!

So, because I thought some people were still decent I got sort of scammed today. But those buttheads aren't getting any money from me, although they sure freaking tried!

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Where do I begin.

SeaGlass I'm so sorry about your loss. I hope things are getting easier.

KellyMermaid I've had viruses on my computer too. It's a pain. Safe Mood should help, and I would recommend some antivirus software protection that you can pay for to protect your computer once it's fixed. I've been lucky with the virus's I got in the past, and I've been able to remove them myself. Check Bleepingcomputer.com for help.

Mermaid_Selene I just want to say that a parent should never hurt a child. Also, as someone that lives with two mental disorders, ADHD and BiPolar, I really don't like the idea of someone casually throwing them around without a clinical diagnoses. That is not okay.

Mermaid Ava I understand what that feels like. I'm too trusty, so I can get scammed really easily.

I personally don't have any issues right now aside from my mom never taking being a merman seriously and constantly suggesting I do something else. However, I'm learning to live with that.

I actually thought I'd try to offer some support to people since I've had my own fair share of issues in the past. I hope things get better for everyone.

Shimmer: is there some sort of blinder that could be put on him so that he doesn't see the needle? may stop him from getting scared as much. bringing treats along is also a good idea

Tonight went a lot easier with him. I cleaned the wound, looking a lot better btw, then gave him the shot. My husband held him while I gave the shot, and I have never been one to REALLY baby talk an animal, but I did tonight because he didn't shake before hand-just backed a little and was breathing hard- and he stood still while we were both petting the heck out of him and praise talking like crazy.

I fed him immediately after the shot.
Definitely getting better.

I'm glad he's getting better. What's his name?

Trazon. His previous owner said it meant brave. He's literally the biggest horse we've ever had on the place, but the biggest sweetheart

That's a cool name.

I'm just pissed that nearly every mer event is a weekend during the school term. My small bitch haha. I'm just getting tired of getting excited for an event and going to their website and seeing that I won't be able to go because it's during the school year and I can't just pack up and fly to another state during the school term, especially with my major. During the summer tho? Fyeah I can.

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I'm just pissed that nearly every mer event is a weekend during the school term. My small bitch haha. I'm just getting tired of getting excited for an event and going to their website and seeing that I won't be able to go because it's during the school year and I can't just pack up and fly to another state during the school term, especially with my major. During the summer tho? Fyeah I can.

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I feel ya! I missed a lot of meetups when I was in school. Also, there is upcoming Sacramento mermaid events and they are being held at the dive bar in downtown Sac, which i can't even get into because i'm not 21 yet. Which makes me very upset and disappointed!

Y'all are welcome to join us for the meet in Texas this July! :)

So my mom's cousin is experiencing liver failure. It's his own damn fault; he's completely ravaged from years of alcoholism.
Anyway, he's stopped drinking hasn't touched a drop since his first big scare, but that was only about two months ago.

To qualify for a liver transplant, you need to be six months sober and have insurance. He's completely unable to work, and therefore unable to pay for health insurance. His insurance is about to drop him.

So by the time he's six months sober, he won't have insurance. And he's deteriorating so fast he might be dead by then anyway.

And I'll never forget the voice of one of my mom's other cousins - "Auntie called me," she said. "Absolutely hysterical. 'I can't lose another son!' she told me."

Because of course, this particular cousin's older brother was murdered. And I just don't know what my grandmother's sister will do if she loses him too.

insurance sucks. mine was about to drop me from all treatment if I didn't discharge, and I sure as hell wasn't ready. I'm not religious but your mom's cousin will be in my thoughts.

Thanks

My best friend is too scared of my parents to spend the night at my house or even just hang out at my house. I'm always over at her apartment and I feel like I should have her over more because we are always at her place, but she's too scared of my parents. Whenever she would come over we wouldn't stay long at my place and she would always be super quiet and stuff. It just makes me sad that she feel so scared to come over just because of my parents.


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