Sounds to me like dumping this gig might be your best course of action.Quote:
Originally Posted by MermaidCelesteFL
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Sounds to me like dumping this gig might be your best course of action.Quote:
Originally Posted by MermaidCelesteFL
Honestly, the only reasons I'm still trying for this gig is to be with Joseph and to get paid.
Not exactly a b%tch or a vent but... Just some general sadness.
I'm strictly no-contact with my sister after 20 years of abuse and a series of expensive, preventable events that cost me every last penny to my name. I won't get into details but she did a lot of very abusive, destructive things. She ran me out of another online community due to the vicious rumors she spread (all lies, but she's very convincing) despite me being in there with a great reputation for 5 years.
Our mom still talks to her on occasion, but she's been abusive to mom too, so sister is kept at arms' length. I still miss sister sometimes, though. Her birthday is coming up and while I'd love to get her something, I know resuming contact would be toxic and detrimental to my fiance and I. :(
Just general sadness, I guess.
Maybe you could do some sort of service in honor of her birthday? That way you feel like you're still doing something, but you don't have to renew the toxic relationship.
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I'm really shaken right now and need to vent.
I'm currently sitting in the recovery room at the surrogate agency after getting several small polyps removed. The procedure itself went well minus the pain I felt when getting my novocaine shots. After I got into recovery I discovered that if the polyps hadn't been removed they most likely would have turned pre cancerous. Two people in my family had cancer (my bio mom had two kinds) so that combined with my shitty luck doesn't give me a doubt in my mind that I might have just dodged getting cancer. We still have to wait for the biopsy results but everything should be fine.
I'm just really freaked out and the reality of my situation hit me so hard I can't stop crying and snotting.
Hydra, I hope everything goes well for you. You're so amazing and strong. I know you can get through this! *hugs* All my love and light to you today <3
*super hug* Thank you, Whisper. I didn't know I needed that until I read it.
Oh Hydra. Hug hug hug hug hug
I got home from a nice time with my best friend, I was going to fill up the car but I don't know how, like I kinda know what to do but I haven't really done it before with the new car. I didn't remember if you just push the cover to open it or if there was a leaver to pull to open it. I also didn't know what kind of gas to put in, the old car took premium but I though my dad said regular a few months ago, I didn't want to mess up and ruin the car. He starts treating my like I'm a freaking idiot because I said I didn't know/remember what to do. My friend said she would come with me to help me but dad would kill me if I drove with a friend in the car. He just started treating me like an idiot and almost down right told me I was a idiot. I'm freaking sick of this. To make things worse before I got home I was with my friend and we went out as my treat to celebrate her new job and I told him that, but he texts me telling me that I need to be home at 8:30 and he freaks out when I told him that we were waiting for our food and basically he tells me that I can't drive at night on my free time, but it's okay when I drive home at night from work. I feel like I have absolutely no freedom!!!!! I just started feeling like he was giving me some freedom letting me drive by myself to my friend's house and to and from work. Now I'm feeling smothered and have him breathing down my neck and watching me all the time. He's always question/interrogating me over every little thing. I was hoping to get out of the house as soon as I saved up enough money and got a job with the state, but it looks like I won't be going anywhere for a while since my mom has liver cancer. It's not her fault but I don't want her being alone with my dad while she is sick.
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Well, it gives you some time to save.
And I'm so sorry your mom has cancer. A lot of my family is similarly sick: ovarian cancer, prostate cancer, bladder cancer, cirrhosis of the liver, heart disease, and diabetes all around.
So I have lots of empathy on that score. *hug*
Kelly - that sounds awful. Could it be that your dad isn't coping well with your mums cancer and so he's reacting like this? I know everyone's experience is different and people will react differently - my gran is currently dying from cancer and it's heartbreaking. Cancer sucks.
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LouLou! Hug!
And Kelly's dad's been problematic since long before the cancer.
I'm sorry, mers. :(
Thanks Sabrina. I live about 450 miles away from my family and every time I visit, I leave knowing that I might not see my gran again. I work in a hospital and getting cover for my clinics isn't easy. I also don't get much in the way of holidays, which makes it all the more difficult to get back home.
Kelly - Ah... In that case... As hard as it is, the best advice I can give is to try not to let it get to you (and yes, I do realise that this is A LOT more easily said than done!) It probably feels like there's no end in sight, but you WILL eventually be able to move out, and freedom will taste all the more sweet for the wait! Just take a deep breath and think of that whenever he's being too overbearing.
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So many health problems :(
It's heartbreaking to hear.
We have our fair share with all of this. Still waiting on the results for several tests from my parents and myself.
Good wishes to all.
Failed my driving test. How? Because the proctor told me i had to be straight for the parralel parking portion and i could change direction 4 times befire i fail. So i pull into the slot. But i'm crooked so i change direction and pull up to straghten out. She tells me to stop the car and that i failed because i moved more than 2 times and if i stayed crooked i would have passed. After she told me that i had to be straight AND i could change directions 4 times.
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That's so annoying. Not okay.
And good luck to you, Echidna. I hope the tests come out well!
Momo - I would not have been able to keep my cool over that. I really hope you get a fairer result next time.
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Momo- I had a similar issue with my drivers test, both times I took it. I failed my residential driving portion when I took the test the first time, because there were cars parked on both sides of the street, and I drove down the middle of the street (there were no other cars driving in the opposite direction) instead of weaving in and out of the parked cars. The second time I took my drivers test, some kids jumped in front of my car and started playing on the ice in the road. Because I refused to honk at them, I got a considerable amount of points taken off.
Why are they like that though? (the girl before me failed too, because she didn't pull out onto the main road right in front of a semi truck. The proctor told her she failed to follow instructions and failed her on sight)Quote:
Originally Posted by MermaidCelesteFL
This has set me back a bit too, i was counting on getting my license today because my work schedule is so crazy i have no other time to go besides today until i quit work and by then my permit will have expired and my plan was to buy a used car online so that i could get to and from gigs,get a job further out from campus, and got to night school (along with uni full time) for my MA so i could get a better paying job but now this little bump has slowed that down :(
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Sorry to hear that happened, Momo. The real kicker is that unless you live in a city, you basically NEVER have to parallel park. :rolleyes:
Update/Mini Bitch.
I just got the official call that the polyps I had removed were benign. Because of inflammation they saw I now get to add antibiotics to my daily medication.
Well. At least it was benign.
That's the way I'm looking at it.
Good luck! I hope the inflammation goes down quickly.
Thank you. The support from Mernetwork has really been helping my stress level. <3
I'm tired. I'm stressed. I hate myself all the time and I can't talk to anyone about these feelings. I can't conceivably see this getting any better, because it's all in my own head. I agonize over every mistake and possible mistake since I was 10, but can't remember where I put my kindle. I hate my face, my skin (color and otherwise), my body, my habits, my lack of style, my lack of skill in everything...I hate that I can't go along with a group opinion yet most times can't bring myself to say that I don't agree so I seem two-faced...the list just goes on and on. I guess I'm just complaining about myself? When I'm not just sad, I'm angry at myself. I've been trying to like myself, trying to be okay with who I am, but it's just not working. I feel like I am just lying to myself and others.
And today I have to go to a wedding, and smile and talk and pretend to be happy and answer questions about whether there's a boy on the horizon (nope, no one would love this but I keep my standards high) when all I feel is loathing that I am stuck spinning my wheels like this.
I'm tired of being me. Can I be someone else for a while?
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Oh hug. People need to come group hug Thalassa.
I hope the wedding isn't awful. Maybe people might understand? I have that problem too.
Thalassa: *hugs tight* I understand how you feel, and no one should have to go through that, especially not alone. I'm just a few clicks away if you need to vent or talk.
I think you're an awesome mer, and even if you don't like yourself right now, all of us certainly do! Pick out the positives, however small, and just focus on that. I mean, you're a mermaid! What's not to love? ❤️
Huge hugs and lots of (mer)friendly love.
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Sooo I woke up today, all happy and excited to put my deposit down on my silicone tail, and then BAM.....The company sends me an email and changes shit. Now they won't honor the promotion price unless I pay in full, and have jacked up my tail price if I cannot and have to do instalments. I am beyond frustrated as I spent a lot of time thinking about my design,saving, etc...
Sigh*
Aw, that sucks, Abby! Have you thought about a partial silicone tail? A neoprene/silicone hybrid would still look realistic and would cost much less! I think it would be easier to maintain, too!Quote:
Originally Posted by TheAutisticMermaid
*hugs* I got the message [emoji4]❤️
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:) Thanks, Just feel a little defeated but I will look into a partial silicone tail. Any recommendations on makers?
Keiris does some very lovely silicone hybrid tails!
Is there a website to view them PearlieMae?
No, but there is his thread... http://mernetwork.com/index/showthre...=keiris+hybridQuote:
Originally Posted by TheAutisticMermaid
Not a bitch so much as an observation. Ive been mostly ghosting the forum, reading updates, but there must be something in the water (no pun intended) because it seems like everyone is losing their flipping minds here lately.. its kinda sad.
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Thats a great idea! Thank you, Thalassa! :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Thalassa
No one is going to comment on this? On every thread? Is this something language related?Quote:
Originally Posted by duonua1s
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I mentioned it in another thread.Quote:
Originally Posted by Imogen Finnly
The member is new, 7/20, and male. I am quite certain that this is a spammer that somehow slipped through the cracks. I have learned to recognize about eleven languages based on syntax, accents, and letter construction, and that does not even look close to any one of them. I do not think it is a phone error, either, because there is no Tapatalk signature. *shrugs*
Yeah, I even ran it by some of my world language teacher buddies before you commented on it, Whisper, and no one caught anything recognizable. There are multiple symbols AND alphabets being used. Jibberish.
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