Originally Posted by
Merman Dylan
Whisper, I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling. I know what it's like to feel overwhelmed. I've never been in your exact situation, but my bipolar turn my life upside down. I know it's not the same, but I know what it feels like to feel powerless. When my bipolar hits, my emotions are so strong that they override all logic. I've felt depression, sadness, anger, and many other emotions. Not long ago, I unfriended everyone on Facebook except for family because I literally shifted from anger to tears while I drove home to feeling better. The shifting of emotions has always taken a lot out of me. My mood swings create rifts between me and everyone around me. My mood swings from last year turned me into a monster against the mercommunity, and I still can't forgive myself for that. There are literally tons of mers I may never have a chance to be friends with on Facebook because of how much I struggle. It hurts being alone. It hurts to feel isolated. Sometimes I'm afraid to be open about my disorder because people who do mass shootings like at pulse regularly get labled Bipolar or with a mental disorder. For people that have it, I honestly believe they do more harm to themselves than what they could ever do to someone else. I'm sorry you are having a hard time, but you will get through. Keep your eyes on a new day. Have faith that things will get better and take advantage of the calm when it comes. There are programs out there that I know can help you with this. I don't know what they are. If you have any friends you can bunk with, I would say give them a call. Remember to take care of yourself. You are stronger than what you are struggling with. Not everything will go well. You'll make mistakes as you find your way out of this. You will have a hard time from time to time. Just don't give up faith, believe in yourself and I know things will get better. I know it's hopeless, but you have to keep fighting. The best way to fight is to not feed into what is hurting you the most. I know you can do it. You are stronger than you know.