Mermaid Izzy, I feel you. I was 100% where you were a few years ago. I had a friend that I started dating, the relationship lasted for 4 years, he too was my best friend, first love and first real relationship.
He also would blame me for some his choices "but you weren't available that day." though he was more of a narcissist and pushover.
We had good and bad times, I had also separated from and gotten back together with him, but at the end he just told me not to call him.
I frequently saw him with his girlfriend who I knew and previously tried to be friends with although she was just acting nice toward me while trying to get closer to my (now ex) boyfriend.
She would hug/kiss/cuddle him whenever I was around, it broke my heart so much I had to leave whenever she came by and it caused me to practically abandon my friends because my ex and I shared friends and therefore so did she.
I felt heartbroken, alone, betrayed, depressed and angry (at him, his girlfriend, one of her friends and myself).
I was depressed for so long after that, I had my strong days and my emotionally wrecked days.
Also I think that it was beyond nice of you to take a video for him.
Mermaid Izzy, you are way better off without either of them (even though it may not always seem like it). It may help to distance yourself physically from that situation and definitely from them while you heal. This will sound cliche but even though it may not be easy it is possible and there will definitely be better days ahead of you. If you ever want anyone to talk to I'm happy to lend an ear, just PM me.
Also, people aren't lying when they say karma's a b****, i just sat back and smiled myself as his new girlfriend cheated on him and then dumped him for another guy that I was a close acquaintance with. He then came to me heartbroken and wanted me back, though the one in my case doing the shutting out was me >
(I feel I should say this, I did try to speak with him years later and "just be friends" but he was only interested in using me to make himself feel better and offered almost nothing in return. People like that rarely change.)
Again, if you need a friend I'm here.
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