Thank you, deepblue.
I'm actually currently in a depressive rut at the moment. Triggered by someone last night. He's pushed me to almost suicidal thoughts. :-( I'm too afraid of dying to try anything, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to be gone...
Like I said to my friend: (language warning)
I feel like shit and there's no point in existing. Nothing I do is ever good enough, I'm constantly wondering if I'll have a place to live. Or wondering if I can do something without pissing off my roomate's dad. I just ugh... I've been walking on eggshells for far too long.
I'm constantly wondering if what I'll do piss someone off. My roommate, her dad, her grandma, my uncle....... I'm just fucking sick of it. I want it to be done. Over. Gone.
The worst part is, I have no way of getting away.
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