Ok, I just need to vent right now. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have ulcerative colitis, which causes severe digestive issues and fatigue. When I'm in a flare, it is like my whole life is put on hold. I can't handle long car rides or being places with limited bathroom access. This past semester, I have been student teaching. While I love teaching, I hate that many days I have to leave class suddenly to run to the bathroom down the hall. I feel that it makes me look unprofessional or lazy. Even though the school is aware of my medical condition, I can't shake the feeling that I'm being judged. I'm afraid of my upcoming graduation with the university because I know that I'll be sitting for about 3 hours. Should I even go if I can't make it all the way through?

Also, just in the last few months, my illness has caused me to go from 117 pounds down to 100 pounds. I'm not a big person to begin with, so the weight change is noticeable. I am lucky that otherwise I'm pretty healthy. Right now, I'm just trying to put some weight back on. Because of the weight fluctuation, I'm thinking about making another tail for skinny days. Does anyone else have multiple tails for this reason?