I kind of feel like I don't have a right to post in this thread because I don't have any "major" health problems but... here goes anyway?

While I'm relatively healthy (in that, I don't get sick very often, exercise regularly and try to eat healthfully), I do have some medical issues that I cannot "solve", necessarily: clinical depression, acne and the nagging sense that there's something psychologically wrong with me beyond the depression. But I'm still figuring that out.

I did manage to overcome a debilitating condition: chronic and severe constipation. I know it's gross but from birth to about 16 years of age, I was almost always constipated and for 3+ weeks at a time. The "clear" or "normal" days were few and very far between to the point where I couldn't remember what it was like to feel empty. I was immune to laxatives, my colon was blocked and my organs were being pushed around in my body. X-rays scared the doctors, revealing my colon had ballooned so much that it was appeared behind my lungs. It was that bad. Finally, after years of doctors being unable to help, I decided to drastically change my diet and exercise like crazy. That problem cleared up and I haven't had it since. I'm now 26.

The stuff I can't fix, well... my skin is very reactive to the point where if I scratch an itch, it looks like I've been whipped. It's a problem when I try to do my best to look nice for the camera. My acne flares up and I look like a beet sometimes but I do my best to overcome that too. Reducing my caffeine, salt and sugar intact has helped some. I do wish I had clear, non-Exon-Valdez skin. Seriously, I have to blot my face every hour or face oil dripping into my eyes and stinging like crazy until I was my whole face. My sister says I could lube three cars and fry a chicken by the end of the day, I have that much oil on my face, shoulders, chest and back.

My depression is treated with therapy and medication, but the medication gives me odd facial ticks around the lips and eyes from time to time. It's more annoying than anything else. The big issue with me is the weight gain. I've managed to lose three inches since starting mermaiding but it still bothers me that I'm 20 pounds heavier than I used to be. I keep telling myself it's muscle (which is true, really) but the number still wigs me out.

And I think that I may have the inability to love a man because I've been dating people since 16 and never once fallen in love. I know I'm not a lesbian and I'm not asexual so... is there something psychologically wrong with me, preventing me from feeling attracted to a man? Is it because my father abandoned my sister and I and we can't form a connection with a man because of it? I dunno. I'm seeking counseling to see if maybe I can suss out the answer to that one.

Bleh.