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we have pigs elle lol
Pigs are used because their internal organs closely resemble a humans organs. (though not exact)
Almost the same skin texture as well
I really need help. I'm homeschooled and I've been feeling REALLY lonely for the past two years. It's not like I can just go to a mall with some friends or go to a co-op, because where I live, I am the ONLY homeschooled teen (well, person actually). Plus, the malls here suck and have no great clothes and it's really expensive with no more than a couple pairs of pants and t-shirts that fit a 13 year old girl. And no, I am not religious, so I'm not going to go to a church. Plus everything is in French, so it's hard for me to communicate without getting a huge headache later. I take dance classes, but the girls there are actually really mean and hate me for some reason. I'm really at a loss here! I feel like I spend most of my time on the computer and that's not a good feeling. I get really good grades (103%/100% most of the time), so school work is not going to give me something to worry about. I pretty much live in the middle of nowhere, so it's hard to do fun things without having to travel a long distance or pay alot of money. I feel really angry and sad all the time! I have no friends, noting good to do, and nowhere to go! My sister is a real b*tch, so I'm not going to hang out with her, and my brother is always out doing something with his friends (they both go to school). I've tried exercising, but in the end I always end up sitting down and crying my eyes out after. I'm getting sick and tired of listening to music and taking walks and I'm also getting really sick and tired of feeling like this 24/7! I've cut myself a few times out of anger and boredom. I've tried new hobbies, but like I said, everything here is really expensive and most of the things I need to do these hobbies are non existent. I really just want to move back to the U.S so that I can start up school and have actual friends. I feel like I'm going insane! I'm constantly talking to myself and doing stupid things! I just don't know what to do anymore!
My dad got a job in Bucharest and we might be moving there next year, but I REALLY JUST WANT TO GO HOME. I can't take it anymore! Sometimes I just feel like I'd be better off dead. -.-
Summer is almost here! Find some summer camps for you to join! As a homeschooler, that's where I make a lot of my friends. I usually just go to their house to hang out instead of a mall (cheaper, too!). I do a swim team, a drama camp, a sailing camp and I volunteer at kid's art camps. :)
Yay!! I'm relieved to hear that the rat I dissect won't have been killed for me. It'll be interesting to see the real cause of death, which quite probably would be a tumor- rats are prone to them. It may seem weird, but I think that that would be interesting to observe.
To start I am sorry about the language but I just need to vent . Yesterday I took my family to our local YMCA for a swim. Now I have swam in the pool a few times before with my tail on an everbody said it was neet ,cool an a few other nice words. Now yesterday I was told to take my tail off if I wanted to swim. Now I am thinking WTF? I have swam here before with it on. I was SO PISSED An I really am still. Now before I even went to this place I called an asked if it was ok for me to swim in my tail. They said it was fine. An when I got there for the first time I asked again if it was ok ,an the said yes it was fine. Now when I went this time with my neoprene tail an they said to take it off. As far as I am concerned this place can goto hell an I will NEVER EVER go there again. They are a bunch of hypocrites. They say one thing then do the total reverse. It just burns my ass about the whole thing
So here's my bitchout. I'm so freaking frustrated. I've been talking with these people about getting a lot of shells from them for a great price. I'm talking about around 8 or 9 large mason jars fill to the brim. Plus 2 or 3 gallon ziplocks full of larger shells, plus a solid bag of sand dollars. Not quite Lion's paw large, but close. I've been keeping up to date with them, sending them an email about once a week. We were supposed to meet up sometime last week when they came down to my town. I didn't have any contact about that at all. So I sent an email, got a response a while later saying that they had sold them to someone else. They had me wrapped around their finger with me thinking that I was going to be able to buy this amazingly cheap lot of shells. ($15 for all of them) They never said anything like "Well if we find someone closer, or who can come to us, we'll sell to them." kind of thing. I didn't even get a 'Hey we sold these already, sorry" email until after I emailed them. I had the cash in my hand, waiting to find out when I could meet with them, and they knew this. I hate when people pull bullshit like this. It's like they broke a contract. I was promised first 'dibs' on these, and they sold them out from under me instead.
Am I just being unreasonable? Should I just be like "Oh well, maybe I'll be able to find 'Something' like this again." I just feel like I was ripped off.
Im sorry I know how that is, it has happened to me before at my Y with my equipment. >:/ Its extremely frustrating. I think you should talk to the aquatics manager, and if that dosent work then the general manager. You could also try taking in that contract that someone wrote up. Ill try to find it.
My mom is picking a fight with my dad and crying and bitching about a divorce because he didn't want to drink his drink she made. Wtf. Drama queen to the max.
The girls who whenever they look in the mirror immediately start saying they are ugly, fat, dis-proportionate, they have the wrong hair color, they have the wrong eye color, they wish they were skinnier, basically they just freakin say every single detail wrong with them just to hear a compliment. Just like b!tch if you want to get skinnier then stop eating chips,soda,fries, and cookies(all those things are delicious, just eating them as a pure diet is nasty)and go work out and eat a salad. Teenage girls nowadays are so stupid and true fishers of compliments(ironic how I'm about to turn 15). :mad:
Youre not better off dead! Don't say that! There are probably so many people that care about you! Don't feel like its the end! Remember that everyone on mernetwork cares as well! Find something you really love to do. Its figure skating for me. It really helped me get through a tough time when I lost all my friends. Talk to your parent(s), they always make me feel better. Maybe videochat with your friends from the US! Don't cut yourself please its not worth it. Maybe do a volunteer project! Even go pick up trash on the streets. Seriously, you've go your whole life ahead of you. Think of the future. Whenever I'm bored I look at colleges lol. Really talk to your parents and tell them how you feel. Tell them you WANT to go to school, and tell them how alone you feel. I'm sure they'll understand and enroll you! Another thing to do is read! I know it sounds corny, but you can go anywhere in a book. I like Henry David Thoreau if you'd like something a bit challenging to read (it is for me). And maybe hang out a library. Librarians are super nice! :) Feel free to PM me if you need to talk!! I try to be on every day but ive got so much homework to do!
A few things....
1: my best friends boyfriend broke up with her because of the pants she was wearing!! Like WTF? It's PANTS! Get over it!
2: haters! When I say "I dislike ____" they go all crazy and post like "bitch" or "go die in a hole" like really? I don't give a shit! And what's the worst they can do? Cap lock me to death?
3: this stupid boy kept hitting on my friend last night even when we kept telling him "she has a boyfriend" but he didn't stop! He followed us the entire night we had to go to mall security.
Well that's it for me! Thanks! Bye!
This is REALLY going to sound b!tchy, but I wish I didn't feel stuff so deeply. It's not something I can turn off, it's an illness, but DARNIT! I get too frustrated, and then there's no one online to vent to...so I end up getting drawn into the drama, even though I've scrolled past it a million times and told myself "DON'T get into it, leave it be. No, leave it! It's okay, just let it alone..." I guess I'm just mad at myself that it's happened again. I mean, why should people's attitudes on a screen bother me so much? WHY can't I just recognize that even though this person who doesn't even know me and that I'll probably never meet doesn't like me or my opinions, it's okay and it's just people on a computer? Why the heck does it have to matter so much?
Because the Internet is a magical and bewitching tool used to attract people into drama. I honestly have no clue :|
I think it's because we so desperately want to provide a solution to the drama/issue so out of nature we try to offer our opinion about what would solve/fix the problem ? Since it frequently happens so often I mean
I guess that's true. I think the internet creates both an anonymity that allows people to feel they can say what they wouldn't say in person, combined with a false intimacy. I mean, how many people do you feel like you're best friends with, even though you haven't met them in person? So when our "friends" present us with one side of the story we leap to use that anonymity to defend them, because we feel we have all the information and of course they're our friend. That, combined with the inability to hear vocal tones and see facial expressions through text...all of that makes for the perfect storm.
I think...maybe?
I just hate that even though intellectually I know that their opinion of me doesn't matter in the least, I can't stop feeling it deeply. It cuts me to the quick when I think someone's upset with me or something I do. Ridiculous, isn't it? I know it's ridiculous, which in turn makes me feel stupid for feeling something so ridiculous and being unable to control it...*ERGH*
It's ok I used to get the feeling. :hugs:
In the long run though.. On the grand scheme of things. It's not really important. We've got dolphins to save and garbage to clean, children to protect...
Ideally I'd like to see all our issues resolved too but it's only but a fantasy lol. I think if we all keep this in mind and had no care in the world about what was said ( to you, to other people, etc) whether it was meant to harm or be judgemental or if it was accidental and came off that way...
Well ... I think it'd be a lot more peaceful.. I think
Huh reading this over I think I don't make sense... Clearly past bedtime..
Must be past my bedtime, too, because it made sense to me. LOL And it helped. Thanks. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels to ridiculously. XP
Yeah. It's really hard to say who's being rude too. Youd have to read paragraphs over and over putting emphasis on different words. But I think we should all refrain ffrom using caps lock since it just comes off as angry and yelling. Even though it may be used for emphasizing. But then comes off like you're not calm .. Yeah
I'm glad it helped :)
Thalassa, I'm exactly the same xD I literally can't sleep knowing someone, somewhere out there in the world, doesn't like me or thinks my opinion is silly. It's a natural human reaction to want people to like you, even when you know it's probably not going to happen! It's infuriating xD
My rat Pepper was acting funny this morning, wouldn't climb up to the top of the cage with the others for breakfast. After some research, it looks like she might have a pituitary tumor. She still loves peas and cheerios, but she can't pick them up with her paws to eat them, so she needs help, and getting her to drink water is a challenge. I feel kinda bad about it, she's only a year a half old. One site talked about medication to help with quality of life, but it gets expensive.
She was climbing all over everything yesterday, now she can barely scoot around. It's sad:(
Old rant but UGH!
So yet another mermaid has surfaced with a name waaay to similar to mine ugh!!! UGh! uGH! Uuuuuggggggghhhh!
Ok done
Thanks
I think that's an issue you're always going to face when you go by a pre-existing name. Unless you make it up yourself, there's always the chance of people turning up with the same name.
But yeah it's a bit confusing that there's another Nerine, and a Nerin, Nerinae, and Nerenia... I always check member lists before I sign up to a site to make sure I'm not treading on anyone's toes.
Well thats the thing. When i did my search on names in 2009. no Nerines came up. In fact i found the name nereides. changed it up and came up with nerine. Its frustrating right now becasue im in middle of LLC paperwork and having similar names running around is complecating things
If they could change the spelling a bit more... since some are only one letter off.. it would be helpful ya know...
Oh well.. my tax lady will figure it all out for me I hope
Yeah when it comes to businesses it gets more complicated. Well, if you establish yourself as Nerine professionally, then at least you'll have gotten there first if anyone else decides to do the same, haha.
I didn't make my name up, it's originally the name of a Greek naiad (the freshwater versions of nereids!) so I don't really own it, haha. Hopefully when I do turn my mermaiding into a business, no one else will have thought of the same name!
Yea I think of it like celebrities.
Like how there can't just be another Katy Perry running around or she'll directly compete with the first one and shit will get complicated. I think some people on this forum don't realize it much because to them it's not a business name, it's just a name they thought was cool and wanted to be called by. A lot of our members are just people who are trying to have fun, not necessarily make the name into a professional thing. I think all the people who are concerned with making themselves into a business are the ones looking for original names?
Thanks, this helped! The funny thing is, I'm a former competitive figure skater. I started when I was 4 (now I'm 13) and was working on my double axel (landed it a couple times too) when I realized that I really didn't care for the jumps. Dance is a lot more social, but that doesn't really seem to matter, because the girls are all b*tches.
But yeah, I'm gonna try that stuff. Thanks for the support guys!
Ok, here's my rant. I was at the dance studio and we had just finished an hour and a half class. We were all tired and worn out because our teacher killed us with jumps today (I was the only one who could actually still jump at the end thanks to skating), but we still had a jazz class to go to. Now, I have a friend in this class named Alexa, and I think we were pretty much only friends because she was from Miami and was easy to talk to because she spoke English. So when we were in the dressing room, I was calmly putting my jazz shoes on when she comes up to me and starts saying a lot of things really fast, and after I just say "Yeah, great." and she (for some reason) takes it in offense and says "Why are you being like this?", so I say "Like what?", and she gives me this look and walks over to her friend, Lucie, and they both look at me and start talking. I KNOW that they were talking about me. You just get this feeling when someone is.
So, I got a bit angry, because first of all, the reason why I was "being like that" was because I was really tired and hungry. I had no grudge on her or anything! And secondly because, you don't just walk up to someone and start talking about the girl that you were talking to before RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. It's rude to do that in the first place, but right in front of me? Really? Nice.
So after, I'm sitting on these mats outside of the room that we have jazz in waiting for the class to start, and Lucie sits down next to me. We're ok friends I guess. She's always talking to Alexa though. Lucie starts talking to me about the previous class, and after a while, I ask her "Were you and Alexa talking about me?", and she goes silent and looks down at the floor. So, now I know that they were talking about me for sure. Then I explain to her that I'm not mad at Alexa, and that I'm just really tired and hungry. A bit later, Alexa walks up. I say "Hey, Alexa, it's kind of rude to assume that someone is mad at you and then talk about her to another girl right in front of her." And she says, "Well, you're being a b*tch." So there I am with my mouth open, just processing what she just said. I say "Excuse me?" and she said "Yeah, that's right. You're being a b*tch." I say "I am tired and hungry. That's the reason why I didn't feel like talking to you." And she gets up, glares at me, and walks away.
You know, if I had a burn book, than Alexa would have just earned herself a spot. You think that someone is your friend, and then they call you a b*tch for being tired and hungry and not wanting to talk. Gosh.
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Old rant but UGH!
So yet another mermaid has surfaced with a name waaay to similar to mine ugh!!! UGh! uGH! Uuuuuggggggghhhh!
Ok done
Thanks
I've also got a "Ner" name.
Just saying, Nerine, I didn't know about any other usernames like mine or yours. I just thought that my username sounded cool. Not all ideas are going to be 100% original, it's just impossible. I also agree with what Kanti said, it's not like a professional business name. I just thought my username sounded cool in my head and I went with it.
It's unfortunate, I guess, but it shouldn't be something to get upset about, and I certainly wouldn't go into business with my username, now knowing that you are going into business with your name. I wouldn't want to conflict. :>
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Just to add, a little bit about the thought process when coming up with my name to hopefully clear up any doubts about my origins:
1. Nereids
2. I've always liked N (Nicole, Nadie, Natalie, etc.) and -ae names (Danae, Fae, Desirae, or: Namine from Kingdom Hearts, I always felt, had such a pretty name)
3. I like how three-syllabled names roll off the tongue
4. "Nerinae" is born.
Apparently "Octavia" is a My Little Pony (that I didn't know about - now I have to look her up!) but I chose it because I was born in October, love octopi and I thought it sounded regal. Things happen. There's very likely always going to be someone out there with the same or similar username as someone else.
totally not name related, but- My younger two daughters (4 and 2) have been on the war path (together and apart) for about a month now and it's making me fraking crazy. I know they're just kids and going thru normal things. But it's still HIGHLY irritating.
@Nerinae - yea I assume not everyone is going to turn themselves into a business and honestly while your name is very similar it's different to an extent, so unless people don't know how to spell Nerine properly your name shouldn't pop up at all when searching it.
@Octavia - haha yea I totally though MLP xD
ok, my turn for a rant >_>
so, when i was in high school, i had two friends that i cared about very much, we were inseparable as we were the only people into sci fi and anime and cosplay.
when i left high school early they decided to abandon the friendship and become quite rude and disrespectful toward me. i never had an explanation, never had anything.
so after alot of going back and forth, i decided to reach out to one of them, she has a facebook fan page and i decided to like her page and send her a message. from what i saw of her page she seemed to have matured quite a bit and gotten over herself.
so i sent a short and sweet message, asking how she was.
she didnt come online for a while (from what i could tell, as her fan page had no updates and her personal page is set to private) so i waited and waited, hoping she would at least send me something back saying hi, if for nothing else to keep her number up on her fan page, as i know she is desperate for likes.
then i log on last night and see she has updated her fan page, yet no message back and no confirmation on my pending friend request. usually i would be devastated and spend hours making up excuses for her; she was busy, she didnt notice, she updated from a mobile and didnt see the request or message, and leave the message and request hanging for days on end. but last night i was quite drunk, messaged my friend who was staying in my spare room, told her that this girl was a skragg and she could go to hell. i then proceeded to unlike her page and cancel the friend request. i didnt send a message to her telling her to grow the F%#^ up, mostly because, it's not like she would ever respond.
waking up this morning, i reflected on the situation and i became very angry. exactly what had i done to this girl that was so offensive it wasnt a case of us drifting apart, she and the other friend actively spread rumors about me and basically trash talked about me to everyone who would listen. i extended a friendly gesture and clearly she is still back in high school, being an immature cow. im seriously considering sending her that message, getting it all out there, i feel like i might have held back so i could try again in a few years, or if i ran into her at a convention we could get chatting again that way. clearly i'm overly obsessed with my life from way back, as i keep stalking this nasty excuse for a human being. but as many people will know, and even more wont, it is so very hard to let go of someone you cared about, without the accommodating hatred that comes from that person being a partner or husband/wife. i'm left with nothing but uncertainty and emptiness.
this brings me to another situation. very similar.
i worked with two girls last year who i felt were very close friends, one of them was asleep in my spare room last night. the three of us had a great time, we laughed and chatted all night on more than one occasion.
while we still worked together the other friend was in a bind for money, her sister had borrowed $100 from her to scrape by until pay day, as this family very often does, but when pay day came, she didnt pay her back, she spent the money at the pokies (coin slots) and this friend needed the money for groceries and such. well i put my hand up and offered her some money to help out, i had a little saved up and i dont have children so it was not desperately needed. she was very grateful and paid me back three days later.
spin forward to late last year, i had a new job that payed a little more than the last one and she was in a bind again, this time she forgot her car registration was due and she was short, so, knowing that she was reliable i lent her money again, $300 this time. she was so grateful again and promised to get it back to me as soon as she could. time went on and no money was repaid, she messaged me on facebook often to let me know that she was doing her best to budget so she could pay me back, and i was fine with that, i didnt need the money desperately and she made sure i was always aware of what was going on.
then i lost my job, i was injured and unable to do my work anymore so they let me go. understandable. all of a sudden i needed that money, desperately.
she sent me a message when she found out, saying that she had better get off her butt and pay me the hell back, we chuckled and i said 'yes that would be great'
then nothing.
more nothing.
more nothing.
christmas last year rolled around and she put on facebook that she had bought herself and her husband iphone5's for presents, and each of her kids got an ipod touch.
by now this friend had stopped responding to my messages of 'how are you' on facebook, and stopped inviting me out when she had friends over. she would invite my other friend over and never drop me a line.
last week she put a message up saying that her and her husband just deposited the first amount into an account so they can buy a house.
last night was her birthday, and today she is having drinks out. not only did she not invite me, but she didnt bother to hide her plans.
every time i try to message her, either one of her kids have her phone so i cant talk to her, or she is pretending to be one of her kids.
im really sick of this crap. do i repel people or something?