Depression. Again -.-
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Depression. Again -.-
FYI, there is a mental health issues thread, too: http://mernetwork.com/index/showthre...-health-issues
Personally, I'd like depression to stop being called a mental health issue, since if can often be quantified physically- but only after death, when the brains of people who lived with severe depression are studied and found to be lacking in the now well known serotonin and norepinephrin, which is how the medications for depression were designed. When a clearly physical illness causes mood and emotional issues, they don't suddenly call it mental. And since we know so much more about depression than we once did... well I'd like to see a lot of changes based on what we know now. Depression causes so many physical problems- I get a lot of muscle pain, super tender all over. The fatigue, insomnia or oversleeping... one could go on and on.
In any case. Just stopping in for a moment to update. My blood tests revealed exactly what I suspected.
The allergy I have developed seems to be causing me to have the migraines constantly. I finally got the allergen out of my system, stopped accidentally getting it, and my head was pain free for a few days. It was amazing. Then last night I started on a supplement to take its place, and I woke up with a bad headache. It might be that my system is still adjusting though, since I'm not covered in hives and my throat isn't really bad. Plus, paint fumes nearby are a possible cause, sucks that I can't really tell, because it's important.
But a deficiency in the particular vitamin I'm allergic to ALSO causes migraines.
In any case. I have to make a major change in my life that I never thought I would. It is extremely hard, very upsetting, and in ways only some people would get so I'm being vague. But I will say that after all the other health crap I have dealt with, I am very grateful that it looks like I can do this with minimal medical attention. As long as I proceed carefully, because I have got this ridiculously sensitive system and could find myself allergic to the new way of doing things.
Thank gods for my boyfriend. He is so supportive and understanding even though his paradigm is quite different from mine when it comes to all this.
I don't know how I'm going to make myself do what I have to, but I have to.
Know what? I realize this might already have been read, but I've changed my mind. I don't want to talk about it.
I know some of you ladies have endo like me, I am wondering if you experienced autoimmune progesterone dermatitis during your treatment for endo? it's where your body develops a sensitivity to the progesterone in treatments and it causes annoying symptoms like burning skin and cancor sores etc. I've been reading it goes hand in hand with endo treatments for some women who didn't know they were sensitive and I'm fairly certain I've got it. I'm on a wait list for a dermatologist which could take a year, ugh!
Even without endo, maybe some of you tried porgesterin based birth control and found out the hard way you were allergic.
I'm just scowering the net looking for solutions I can try while I wait to see a specialist! Thought someone here may have had experience.
3rd week with this stupid cough... It started out being a sore throat and a barking cough (I've had it twice before, it was pertussis aka whooping cough) so I didn't think anything of it. Then it got worse, and I kept coughing... A week later still coughing... I figured it was just persisting. So now in week three at the beginning of the week my throat was swelled up really bad but the swelling went down. So I thought I was fine (seeing a pattern here?) And now for the last few days it's not just barking, it's more like choking. My throat closes up when I cough and I physically can't breathe any air in between coughs. Feels horrible and hurts my chest like you wouldn't believe. I literally double over and have to sit for a few minutes afterwards just to breathe normally again. Oh yeah let's not forget the constant headache, fatigue, insomnia (although that's probably from coughing all night) chest and stomach pains and the fact that no cough medicine does ANYTHING :gah:Now going through that for three days I finally decided to go viisit the doctor so I'm going in tomorrow.... Sigh
We don't know what's wrong with me and my mom is really worried that I could be really sick. It all started when I threw up all day the day after my period ended in March. I had intense pain in my lower abdomen,so bad that I couldn't even sit up and this eventually led to me throwing up. For a whole month I had this pain in my lower abdomen and nausea but I never threw up again until the day before my April period was supposed to start. I couldn't eat or drink anything or else I would throw it up. Even water. Then I missed that period, I panicked a bit because I was worried that I might be pregnant but my mom took me to the doctor a week later and my test came out negative (she also bought me 2 home tests which also came out negative). At the doctor's I found out that I lost 5 pounds. I went from 118 to 113 in a matter of one day, so she said that the weight loss and the stress of being sick may have affected my period and that I was also so constipated that she could feel it when she pressed on my stomach. She told me to drink lots of water and that i'd feel better.
Here we are, 2 weeks later and i still haven't had my period (my mom's going to take me to get another pregnancy test, though she doesn't think it's that since I don't have any symptoms of being about 6 weeks pregnant). I'm not nauseous anymore, I don't have the pain either (mom bought laxatives after drinking water didn't have any effect) But now I have to gain back the weight I lost (I lost even more now. So much more that if I look in the mirror naked, my stomach dips inward under my rib cage now instead of swooping slightly out.) I'm eating more, my mom is forcing me to eat even if i feel full, and I'm drinking Ensure. But now I'm getting bruises . I had one on my knee and my knee hurt so badly whenever i put weight on it that i limped all day. Then the next day I had a huge bruise on my shin. And I always get so tired and my eyes water constantly (though these can be my allergies acting up.) I really hope I'm not really sick.
You should see a doctor. It could be appendicitis.
Well, this is a heckuva thing for a mermaid to have, and dang it, I'm 99 percent sure I do!
"Solar urticaria is a form of chronic hives that is caused by exposure to sunlight. People with this condition experience itching, redness and hives on areas of skin exposed to sunlight."
And now I know why my "sunburned" skin is driving me mad with itching. I thought it was weird that I got sunburn so quickly during our beach photoshoot, in spite of wearing a lot of SPF 30 sunscreen.
"It appears that people with solar urticaria make allergic antibodies against various proteins found in their own skin. These proteins' structure changes with sunlight, allowing the allergic reaction to occur, causing hives. It is possible for a person with solar urticaria to experience anaphylaxis if enough skin is exposed to sunlight."
Even more delightful.
I guess I'd better take antihistamines and use a parasol for any gigs that expose me to direct sun.
In the meantime, I want this burning and unbearable itching to go away!
Depression and panic attack....again... [emoji21]
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I will start my rant with this: I am intensly allergic to all traditional lubricants due to them containing vitamin E. I went to the OB for my first pregnancy checkup on monday. I had no idea they had to use lube (never been to a OB before). Walking out of the office, I suddenly felt like someone lit my panties on fire. I realized then that they must have used lube on me. I ran to a bathroom and tried to clean off as much as possible. Finally thought of heading to a gas station nearby, as they have the sink and toilet in a single locked room. I got all cleaned up, but I must have absorbed enough, because my chest started to close up and it became difficult to breathe. Later my heart decided to get in on the party and refused to beat with anything resembling a rhythm. Luckily I have several homeopathic and other remedies that are always in my purse, so I was able to avoid the hospital (if I went to the hospital every time this happened, I'd be there every week. Sometimes twice). The next two mornings my guts 'purged'. I wasn't sure whether to sit on the toilet or hug it. All this... because the f*cking FDA considers 'vitamin E' to not be an allergen. I really hope my little one is going to be ok.
^Ouch ouch! They didn't ask you if you had any known allergies before they treated you? Epic fail :(
I'm really annoyed with my chest, as the doctor I went to see last week took an X-ray and said my ribs weren't deformed and looked perfectly normal looking, yet agreed with me they looked a little odd when he was poking around feeling the ribs (which hurt). My friends think it might be stress fractures, which don't always show up on X-rays and I have been binding my chest for a few years now... and can't now as it's reached a point it hurts too much. I just want to figure out what's wrong so things will stop hurting.
Ack Azaria! That is seriously not good. You may want yo wear a med aleart bracelet while you're pregnant explaining your allergen. They use ALOT of lube when you're pregnant. Every time you get any kind of ultrasound or any internal exam they use lube. You need to pin your doc and techs down and make sure they know exactly what you're allergic too and never let them do Anything until they explain every step and you remind them of your allergen.
Hey Grey, does it hurt to raise your arms up above your head?
I once slept on a really hard mattress and when I woke I was in really bad pain. I thought I just pint he'd something but over the next few days if started to get worse and worse. We were on vacation and the flight back was hellish. I ended up at the doc who sent me to a physical therapist. It turns out I dislocated a rib! I didnt even know you could dislocate a rib LOL. My PT had to work the muscles that had gotten all screwed up because of the rib and eventually the pain eased up but let me tell you it was Agony! I couldn't breath, couldn't move, couldn't raise my arms up...it sucked. You may want to see a chiropractor who should be able to tell if something has gone all wonky in there. While the rib relocated itself on its own, the damage to the tendons and muscles from the displacement is what hurt.
I can still move my arms around and above me without pain, it's mostly my left side is really tender and sometimes feels like it's catching on something when I move around and stretch. But it mostly pains me when I lay on that side, or poke at it too much, or wear my binder (or pretty much anything that is tight on my chest.). And I think if it was dislocated it would have shown up on the X-ray? I have an old childhood injury in that area though, but when I saw a doctor about it way back they said it wouldn't cause me any trouble later in life.
Do you have a good binder? Is it safe? It sounds to me like bone bruising which can take years to heal but are otherwise not bad for you. If your binder is too right it can bruise your ribs
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On the matter of childhood injuries not causing trouble later on in life, my mum had an incident with her back when she was 16, and they said the same thing. Only in the past 10 years has it come to cause heaps of pain and required treatment which would have been quicker and simpler if it had been treated properly in the first place. Cannot be too careful with injuries, hopefully it stops hurting soon :)
Yeah, they actually did, but I told them 'gluten and wheat'. That's why I made the comment about the FDA, even though the vast majority of vitamin E is derived from wheat germ oil, the FDA claims that it is too 'pure' to have any allergens remaining. I can say from multiple personal experiences that is totally false. I actually get worse reactions from vitamin E sometimes, because like in this case, it took me several minutes to realize something was on me. If I had mistakenly come into contact with something obvious (like grabbing a bag of flour instead of a bag of sugar because they look so much alike) I would be running for a bathroom immediately to compulsively scrub.Quote:
Originally Posted by maressa
I always tell doctors every single thing for which I have an intolerance, even if they think I'm bonkers! That includes codeine, sulfa, gluten, FODMAPS in food, acidic foods, whey, lactose, and UVB (sunlight). That being said, no matter how careful you are, it's very easy in medical facilities for one or more of the many people involved in patient care to either miss or ignore the list. When my Mom, who is glucose, lactose, and and FODMAP intolerant, was in the hospital with hip fractures, I personally told every nurse, dietician, and food-delivering orderly about her sensitivities. I even posted a list in her room and on her bedside tray. And every single meal, they brought her stuff she couldn't eat! Great way to further debilitate their patient! That was not a fabulous hospital. =8-0
Wesley: The binders I've been using were supposed to be safe to use, at least from what I found out from researching different ones. But I just thought it weird that it was only after 3-4 years of binding that my ribs started looking a little funny to me; dipping down on one side, flaring up, and dipping down more as you go down the ribs. But only on that one side. And the doctor says there's nothing wrong with them. Idk what's going on with my body, but the pain doesn't seem all that bad some days, and then others the slightest movement sets everything off on that one side.
In stuck on my couch with an ice pack permanently on my face. I'm incredibly swollen from surgery and my nose keeps bleeding. I can't drink without feeling like I'm choking.
That's no good. I hope you figure it out! If you've done your research on safe binding then you know more than me, I've only got it on word of mouth. Maybe just rest and ice is all you can do.Quote:
Originally Posted by Grey Gambit
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A dislocation doesn't show up, usually because it relocates right away. Honestly I would check in with a PT or a chiropractor. Believe it or not I have had more luck finding out what is wrong with my body from them then from normal doctors. When I was 18 or so I messed up my shoulder. I went to the top orthopedist in the area and he said "there is nothing wrong, it's just a muscle spasm", then he sent me to PT, they took one look at me and sent me back to him (Same building) and he said.."oh it's just a strained tendon....back to PT...and again they sent me back to him telling him that there was more damage then he thought. After about...ohhhh 5 months of this I was working with a friend who happened to be a message therapist. I was rubbing my shoulder and he came up behind me and started to message my next and shoulder, then felt down my back and said "You know you tore your trap muscle?" I was like..."did not, my doc says it is just a pulled tendon"...he says..."Noooooo I can feel the space in the muscle where it is torn apart. Then he pushed on it..and ooowwwyyyy....I went back to PT told them what he said, they sent me to the doc who FINALLY really took a look at me and said. "Oh yeah, you tore your rotator cuff, your trap muscles, and damaged the nerves in your neck. When I asked him what I should do he says..."You waited to long, there is nothing we can do about it now"....If looks could kill that man would be dead.
The Second time a doc was clueless was when I injured my knee. They did MRI's and he said.."Oh it's just a strain, go to PT"... I went to a new Physical Therapist who took a look at the MRI and said..."You tore your minicus" NO I didn't! The doctor said it was a strain!...Then he pointed out the exact place, plain as day on the MRI where it was torn. Even I could see it. He then gave me a card to a new doctor. I learn right then that the best people to find a doctor from are PTs because THEY see the patents after the surgery's and they know which ones make full recoveries, and which ones have to do more surgery because the surgeon was clueless. The new doc had me in surgery ASAP and my knee is all better.
Could the headaches be cluster headaches? Clusters are WAY worse than a migraine, and cause people to not be able to do anything they're in so much pain. They don't know the cause of it, or the cure. It runs in my family, and as of right now I don't have them, but I have signs that it may happen in the future. My mom has them the most, and they tend to last a week for herQuote:
Originally Posted by Mermaid Celissa
~Mermaid Sirenia~
Sexy post surgery bruises...
Held off on posting in here just because I never really know what to say about my health, but it came up in another forum.
This month marks 4 years ago I was diagnosed with MS, and it's just been... weird. It's weird to be a young person with a health issue, because other people your age doesn't understand or know how to react when things come up. I was hospitalized last year because some of the effects of my flare-ups is the loss of the use of my legs, hands, and double vision... and everyone looks at you like a stray dog. Sometimes all I want is just a squeeze on the hand, a smile, and to be told that it's ok to relax and watch TV until I feel better.
It's also weird... and incredibly frustrating... to have an invisible illness, because I'm 5'11", energetic on good days, and 125lbs... which to anyone else looks like a healthy young lady. MS is sporadic, and hits at random times in random ways, in any form from sudden and intense nausea to headaches to tingly limbs... and when you SUDDENLY get sick, people get skeptical, especially when you were fine just moments before. It's hard to explain that I don't have nay control over it and even though I look healthy, I don't feel that way.
MS has changed my life in a lot of ways, some for the better- I wasn't quite so driven before being shown that I have an expiration date at a young age. It also keeps me from applying to dead-end jobs and wasting myself, because I MUST have good health insurance, or else. In order to care for myself I had to learn to be organized, schedule my life in advance and make sure everything is in place. I value the people in my life and the times when I feel good more than I ever had before, and before I was diagnosed I was always confused about why I felt the way I did. Knowing the reason and knowing that it was found early enough to be treated is a comfort to me.
Anyway. A judge-free zone to ramble in is very nice and refreshing. Thank you Raina, and strength to all you other strong mers dealing with the fun little things life throws at you. <3
First migraine today. FREAKING SCARIEST THING IVE EVER EXPERIENCED. Between the weird vision spots, inability to read think or speak correctly, and numbness in my hand face and tongue, I thought I was dying. Misery.
I can totally empathize, Wesley. I've had migraines for 27 years, and they can be pure hell. Preventives and treatments today, though, are so much better than they used to be. If this happens to you again, see a neurologist!
I did end up going to urgent care and now I'm all better (for the time being) why do people call them "migraine headaches" when that's hardly the half of it? I was crying my eyes out in the car after leaving work because I was scared and so confused. So to any future migraine sufferers out there: migraines can look similar to strokes. Yes you see things in the corners of your eyes etc. Your brain sortof actually stops hurting. And this can all be before the head he even starts. I actually went completely numb in exactly half of my face. Including half of my tongue. On and then I threw up five times. So yes if i get another one I'll be looking into preventatives. I was doing a lot of small, detailed, hand sewing yesterday and I'm thinking that could have triggered it. Unfortunately I was planning on using yesterday and today to finish the meticulous hand sewing. I have a meet up tomorrow and I wanted to have a new sparkley top.
I think I might wear it anyways. I've been sewing symmetrically do it doesn't necessarily look
Unfinished oh I'm going to stop typing my head is hurting a little time for some meds. WSH ME LUCK
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Originally Posted by Mermaid Wesley
I frequently suffer from migraines bad enough to make me sick, and have all the vision problem things before it even starts etc, but what you're describing sounds more like a small stroke.
I know some "migraines" can lead to (or be the aftermath of) a minor stroke.
I'm pretty sure I had one or two already (everything went black while I was lying in bed doing nothing, then it felt like I was rapidly falling down several meters, and simultaneously it felt like someone dealt me a blow to the head but from the inside).
It's also a common thing for people with my illness, clinics here run CT scans regularly on patients with the disease to see how many strokes they've had already.
It's scary stuff, especially as there is nothing one can do about it, but it's something to keep in mind-
maybe there are preventative measures you can take for your condition.
Apparently the numbness is a part of a specific kind of migraine. I asked my doctor and he did say not to worry about stroke since I have all excellent health and I'm young. He did tell me to call if it happens again etc but I feel almost back to normal this morning. Thanks for the concern girlie :) im on top if it (and I have insurance)
Wesley I hope you feel better soon. I get migraines but I don't get the halo. I get sensitivities to sound, smell, and light. I don't get sick but the pain can be so bad I want to chop my head off LOL.
On another note. I am going to my first Endo support group meeting tonight! I am really excited to meet other people that I can relate to, and who can relate to me.
This is a very good organization for migraine sufferers to join. They are a gold mine of information, including the latest treatments for migraines and other chronic headaches.
http://www.headaches.org/
I've been a member for almost 30 years, and I've learned a lot of things that have actually helped control my migraines.
Thanks!
The past 18 hours have sucked! In the middle of our first proper night out since my surgery I got horrible cramps. Like my uterus is trying to wage war on the rest of my body. They haven't stopped. I also developed a (tmi?) huge case of stabbing gas that kept me up all night in addition to the cramps. The gas hasn't gone away but it's improved. At one point last night I got up to go to the bathroom and ended up curled up on the floor clutching my stomach crying. Now that things are kind of better I decided to work on sewing my tail and after about 20 minutes my sprained rib decided to throw a bitch fit and be incredibly painful to the point of nausea. I'm now laying in bed waiting for my dad to get back from riteaid with a pain patch for my ribs.
So many problems ... you have all my support,mer-friends.
I have fibromialgya,and I suffer from a severe degenerative disease of the back: my back is still (by magnetic resonance) like a person of 80 years... I did to make a surgery,but the solving is uncertain. >-<
I've had migraine headaches since I was about 12 or so. Only recently started getting treatment for them. :( Propanolol is a godsend-- I take 40 mg a day and so far haven't had a bad migraine attack since taking it. I highly recommend asking your doctor about trying it if you get as many migraines as I was getting this summer. It's simply no way to live. I'm also on Sumatriptan as a pain killer to be taken at the onset (aura phase) of a migraine-- the only problem is that my insurance only covers 9 pills every 30 days, or they're like $250 for that quantity...so I need to ration them. :/ I'm currently out until I can get a refill on September 19th. The American medical system is so money-hungry and just...sick. I hope that the Propanolol keeps working for me in the meantime.
I'm blanking sick and tired of having a brain injury. Being treated as 'less than' and 'stupid' and 'helpless, hopeless, as a FRIKKIN child for goodness' sake! I'm 29 YEARS OLD! Figure it out retard! Stop degrading me by treating me like one of your little brats! >.< (ranting. Sorry).
If one more person assumes I just guessed about the allergies I have and makes a helpful suggestion about how it's probably 'this other thing or that', I'm going to snap.
I was diagnosed by an allergist. Blood and skin tests were done. I didn't just guess, so no, I do not have some other condition which seems to have every symptom on the planet as part of the diagnosis people are giving me.
I got away with eating a lot of things that fall under the should not eat category for a long time, but I did not realize, either, how many things I was eating that were part of the problem, which is probably why it got so bad suddenly. B12, vitamin D- just two examples of vitamins (when created in the lab and used as supplements) produced by fermentation processes, which if I eat in foods make me sick as the proverbial dog. Anything produced using acetic acid, anything with vinegar in it, anything with ANY thing produced by a fermentation process causes me an allergic reaction if eaten. Anywhere from achey the next day to isntant hives, sore, swollen throat, wheezing... always with migraines. It's scary, actually, and I'm glad I carry around an epi-pen.
My diet is boring as heck now, but I've minimized my migraines and that is awesome. Meanwhile, I've managed to level up my nutrients again, blood tests are good, and only one level of vitamin is really low, and I'm tackling it from all sides. Luckily I am really into cooking, so I can make my own home made, non-fortified versions of things I was buying in stores, but it is very time consuming... and harder than before I was a mom.
But seriously. When people say, "No thanks," to food, just let it go, people. Please don't ask why. And if they answer, "allergies," please let THAT go. I'm at this point where I just say, "I don't talk about it, thanks." Because of all the free advice from well intentioned people who have NO CLUE what they're talking about.
Hey, I'm with you there. What I get sick of is the well-intended pity. "Good grief, what DO you eat??" or "I would starve if I tried to eat like you do" etc etc. Shut up people, you're only making me feel like a freak. Worse are the idiots who say something like "Oh, you can't eat wheat? So you can have white bread instead?":headwall: Or the 'Marie Antoinette syndrome' "You can't have bread? Ok, have some cookies!"Quote:
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