B!TC# IT OUT!

[Mermaid_Kathrine]

I don't mean to throw my problems all over you guys but I don't really have anyone to talk to, to vent about this. So my only friend has been terrible to me lately. And I've never spoken a mean word to him ever. But I'm known to not stick up for myself and practically let people run over me,but the past week he has called me a Bitch, and other awful names. And when he was being rude to me and was hurting my feelings I told him to hush. I actually very politely said hush. And he said F**K YOU to me. Now this is when I broke I called him out on his crap. And he said sorry after wards but I absolutely hate when people take stuff out on you when you've done nothing wrong towards them. He said it was because he was in a mood. I told just because your in a mood does not mean you have permission to use me as a punching bag.


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[Mermaid Ellowyn]

I don't mean to throw my problems all over you guys but I don't really have anyone to talk to, to vent about this. So my only friend has been terrible to me lately. And I've never spoken a mean word to him ever. But I'm known to not stick up for myself and practically let people run over me,but the past week he has called me a Bitch, and other awful names. And when he was being rude to me and was hurting my feelings I told him to hush. I actually very politely said hush. And he said F**K YOU to me. Now this is when I broke I called him out on his crap. And he said sorry after wards but I absolutely hate when people take stuff out on you when you've done nothing wrong towards them. He said it was because he was in a mood. I told just because your in a mood does not mean you have permission to use me as a punching bag.


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Good for you for standing up for yourself, hun. Also, try not to take his words personally - they were most likely a reflection of his mood or character, not yours.

[Mermaid_Kathrine]

I know but still it was wrong of him to be like that with me when I didn't do anything to deserve it


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[PearlieMae]

I know but still it was wrong of him to be like that with me when I didn't do anything to deserve it

It is time to cut that fool loose. You might not see it, but you are on the shitty side of an abusive relationship. "It's not his fault, he was in a mood, he apologized, promised it would never happen again..." I can't tell you how many battered women I've worked with try and justify this kind of behavior. It doesnt have to be a spouse or significant other, friends and family members can be abusive, too. Verbal abuse is as damaging as physical and you need to put some distance between you and this person immediately. Don't worry about hurting his feelings, that is NOT your problem.

This is your life. People can't take advantage of you without your permission.

[Mermaid_Kathrine]

I know and I think I'll stop talking to him. Besides I can make other friends, friends who would treat me as they would want to be treated.


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[Mermaid Ellowyn]

I know and I think I'll stop talking to him. Besides I can make other friends, friends who would treat me as they would want to be treated.


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Putting my own two cents in here - friends should treat you the way you want to be treated.

[Mermaid_Kathrine]

You're right


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[deepblue]

It's been a month since my friend killed himself, and that's been hard enough to deal with. His memorial only made it harder, and had I known, I wouldn't have gone.

But why my mother is choosing to use this time to be a total nutter is beyond me. She seems to have decided to strike out at me, and I do not know why.

A few weeks ago, in front of my child, she responded to my happiness over how awesome my relationship is with, "Well it hasn't been long enough that he's serious. And when he decides he wants to have kids... he knows you'll be okay, because you have (my daughter)."

WTF. And now she's gotten personal, and her so called apology included mentioning that I'm being sensitive, and she's surprised because I've been strong and steady for so long.

That is some manipulative bullshit right there. And its' on top of stuff I mentioned earlier, and so much I haven't gone into.

So what do people do? She's a good grandma but as for being my mother, I learned a while ago I can't depend on her for anything. So what do people do? I don't want to hear from her. But my daughter loves her grandma, and she's been basically good to her. My mom is not seeing what she does as hurtful, and claims I'm responsible for my own reaction to her words, even though when my sister said that to her, she saw that's bs.

I'm so sick of my crazy family. I'm the only one who's made progress, gone to years of therapy to escape the cycle of emotional and mental crap that plagues us, and I'm not about to let my crazy, neurotic mother bring me down to her level.

But I'm at a loss. I want her to leave me alone. She calls anyway. She'll show up here, I guarantee it.

[SeaGlass Siren]

My mom is th same way. She's a manipulative bitch. And dad is the one who says I need therapy because she emotionally abuses me as says I'm a worthless good for nothing

Sorry mom I'm not exactly like you who's unemployed and depends on others for money. Jesus

[deepblue]

The thing that's hardest about this is that she hasn't always been this way. She was with my sis who is in another state now, so I get the feeling she's switched her focus to me.

I'm just so over it, I have a good life I've worked very hard for. People, I don't care who they are, who are focused on this shitty way of living, one that ruins their own lives, need not be part of it.

[Vixy]

I have tried to get over my ex, for a while I think I'm doing well and making headway until I have to see him again in training. Then my heart goes into overdrive and I'm right back to square one. I spoke to another of the group and he mentioned that their opinion on him has gone down, shocked and surprised at what he has done. Some are disgusted, most think he's scared as they mentioned he keeps glancing me, giving a smile before looking away when I turn my head his way.

Denying feelings, being a coward to admit them I guess but it causes me hurt.

[telzey.amberdon]

Vixy, it took time to be with one person, it takes time to be without.

[SeaGlass Siren]

i hate grown salesmen who act like spoiled princesses when things don't go their way because the female admin puts them in their place. geez. the sexism in this office is just TOO. DAMN. HIGH.

[Mermaid Adriel]

So, my grandpa is passing (he's almost 88) and my dad's brothers want to dialyse him. They must know that it's useless, because in his situation he can die right now. Dialysis is pain, so let him die with dignity!

[PearlieMae]

Claudia, I'm so sorry your grandfather is dying. It's hard to let someone go, especially if technology can keep them going...I'm sorry your uncles don't see that dialysis is destroying his quality of life when he is so near the end.

I hope things work out for the best.

[deepblue]

THANKS A LOT to my mom's doctor for making a racist remark while angrily addressing her very serious weight issue. That always helps someone who weighs twice what they should find the courage to make changes that she's been struggling with since a very traumatic event 30 years ago. NOT. Also, you got the race wrong, and while it makes it no better or worse, it certainly makes you more laughable.

My mom has her issues, she drives me crazy, but this will not help!!

[Starfrit]

You know that feeling like you're speeding downhill with your brakes cut and the only thing waiting for you at the bottom is a giant brick wall to crash and burn into? Yeah, that's kind of how I'm feeling lately.

Not only have my depression and anxiety been getting worse lately-- to the point where I'm starting to feel like it's getting out of control now and my doctor's sending me to a help clinic next week as an "urgent case"-- but I'm starting to realize that I really am just genuinely unhappy with where I am in my life in regards to my job, my education, and what feels like a total lack of a stable future. It's really overwhelming.

I do third-shift at a gas station. It's an alright job, I guess, I at least get 40-hour weeks and it's a fairly stable position, but I'm so done with this minimum-wage customer service tillmonkey bullshit. Even with the 40-hour weeks at this job I'm still having trouble even being able to afford my rent each month. I owe my boyfriend (who I live with) almost $400 because he's been covering for me the last couple of months on my share of the rent, and I feel like crap every time he does because I want to pay him back every cent.

The worst part is, all of my frustrations and anxieties lately all boil down to one thing: Money. I need to take time off to focus on my mental health, but I can't because I literally can't afford to take the time off. It comes down to either getting myself better, or keeping a roof over my head. How the fuck am I supposed to make a decision like this? Everybody says useless shit like "You need to put yourself first!" but how do I even do that in this instance?

I can't take any "mental health days" off work to keep myself from just jumping in front of traffic and ending it all, and because I'm in such a shitty financial situation right now I've barely eaten in the last two, almost three weeks, which is causing me to start getting physically ill, and the stress from being at work when I'm not really in the physical/mental condition to be there is only exacerbating my depression, which is sucking away all of the motivation and inspiration from literally anything I want to do. On my days off I'm functioning long enough to check MerNetwork and Facebook, occasionally LiveJournal, and then I'm back in bed, hiding under the sheets and just waiting for the world to end or for everything to just magically get better-- which it never does.

I want to find a better-paying job doing what I love-- I want to work with animals. Working at a vet, shelter, on a fuckin' farm shoveling out pens, literally anything. I want to work at a job where I can focus my attention on helping animals and not have to deal with stupid, ignorant, asshole people to the extent I've had to with every other stupid retail job I've had to put up with up to this point. I mean, at least when an animal decides to be a dick it's considered charming.

But I don't even get call backs from freaking pet shops because nobody will look at me because I don't have any sort of education in the field; I have some work experience helping out at my sister's grooming salon, but that's literally it, and I haven't even done that in years. So nobody will look at me because I don't have experience, I can't get experience because I don't have an education, I don't have an education because I can't afford to drop thirteen grand on a vet program because every cent I make goes straight to rent and bills, which I can barely afford as it is!

I stare at pictures and videos of mermaids and cosplayers and LARPers and all this other fantasy shit on the internet and despite how badly I wish I could do the same, all it does at the end of the day is just make me feel ten times worse because ultimately the only reason I want to do any of it is because it would give me an excuse to just... not be me for a while. I could be Starfrit the Mermaid or something and not have to give a single flying fuck about Tieri the useless gas-pumping loser. But in the end I can't do any of it because I can't afford the materials and lack the talent to do it myself, I'm an idiot for even thinking I can commission someone for things like that when I can't even afford to feed myself and even if I did go ahead with it, where would I go? The beaches here are fuckin' freezing pretty much single day of the year, I'd get maybe a month out of using a mermaid tail over the course of a year and even then I'd be too self-conscious to go out in public with it because as much as I wish I could do it, I crack completely under pressure when I do something to draw attention to myself.

Everything I want to do feels completely out of my reach. I'm stuck on this stupid island with zero opportunity to do anything and I can't leave because it requires money I don't have and can't get. I want to get out and hang out with people with similar interests as me, but I can't because they're not here and I don't know where to even start looking when it comes to this stuff. I can't exactly post "Hey who wants to be a mermaid with me?" on my Facebook wall without my friends and family thinking I'm some kind of a lunatic or telling me to just grow up and get a grip on reality.

IDK, IDK, I'm just really frustrated and needed a place to vent. I really wasn't expecting it to get this long, to be honest, that just kind of happened.

[Mermaid Dottie]

I really wish I was in Canada right now. I would run over to your house right now, and duct tape your legs so I could make you a tail. That sucks so bad, and I wish I could fix it for you.

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[Mirabelle le Mergirl]

Holy macarel! I hate it when girls say that my sense of style is stupid. Yeah, I wear green and blue lippie ALL THE TIME, but why you gotta be so mean?! And when they decide to buy the same things as me when I wear it, upsets me so ;(

[Mirabelle le Mergirl]

Just remember that someone, like your boyfriend, really does love you. Never give up! I LOVE YOU, for starters!!! EVERYONE IN THIS FORUM LOVES YOU!!! You are amazing, because you are coping with your life. Keep going!
Love, Mirabelle le Mergirl