Random late night post: Work, Depression, Yoda life stuff
So I guess I like to blog but the Internet has too many websites to talk from. So I shall share this with you guys

I've also written it and I write a lot on my personal Facebook wall so to anyone that likes reading, send me a message and request me! I like to know everyone I add at least to an extent and stuff. Anyways, here is my sad turned happy day!
(Backstory: I hang around and work with food trucks for the time being because most are extremely nice people who are on the same level as I am when it comes to many things and it makes me feel good about myself. Plus they teach me a lot of things without letting me find out the hard way and they're usually older and wiser people.)
My back hurts, I probably need to go to the hospital but there's so much to do... I'm really passionate about what I do and I can't do things or work at jobs I'm not in love with as I've found out about myself. You either work for love or for money. I work for love, money is nice, but I truly believe in doing things I love. I've experienced it at a young age that when you truly do something you love, it doesn't feel like work and your mind and body will follow thus in time, you'll be happier in life. So I've been following my passion that I stumbled upon from a series of odd jobs in life for the last 5 years.
Been trying to improve my tea menu so I've made and drank a lot of leaf infused water stuff tonight.
I get my big ol 3 foot by 4 foot giant DRIVE UP THIS STREET FOR DRINKS! sign after work tomorrow. With something this big, I won't need a 15k light up totem pole that I can't afford . Still need to make a banner and possibly spend about another 40+ hours trying to improve my methods and get stuff together. Really excited and happy about my team of girls as well.
Almost fell back into depression again today with bad thoughts and sad feelings. But then some random people were really happy and nice and infectious and that helped picked me back up. Then I realized that I WAS falling back into that bottomless pit after it happened. I was thinking about just going to bed and quitting everything and curling up into a ball and crying for the first part of my day. Didn't understand our know why I would feel that way. But I just wanted to quit life and everything. Until a few college student's happiness and countenance as well as overall aura brought me back. And all I did was give them food. Like, wow, me just being there and being me seemed to have made them super happy and glow. I was then brought back to why I can't quit: because I have the ability to make a lot of people really happy just by being around them even when I'm sad inside. Like, I can light other people's fire without knowing what I'm doing and that makes me feel good about myself; that I make others really happy. And that's why I do what I do and why I love my job. Not because of the pay, but because I know that I am making a difference to others which in turn, I am changing the world and making it better for others even if it's on a miniscule scale, I'm still doing it. I love being in customer service within the food and beverage industry. It makes other people happy, therefore makes me happy too because I'm a people pleaser for the most part of the day when I'm not being a slave driver lol. So yeah, some kids were happy with my customer service skills today and it made me really happy knowing that I made them happy. So it helped me escape oncoming depression

I love what I do.
Bookmarks