B!TC# IT OUT!

[SeaGlass Siren]

It's not even the fact that it's Christmas and everything is chaotic. My life is usually pretty stable but for some reason yesterday and today is like :wtf:

[SeaGlass Siren]

(PS I'm still insanely jealous you get to see POTO, I wanna sneak to Toronto and like, smuggle myself into the theatre in your purse of something.)

Come visit in January :3 you can stay at my new place

[lulubelle]

So, I try to keep pretty quiet about this sort of thing, but I'm seriously just pissed right now and there's nothing I can do. I'm on a birth control device called Nexplanon that is inserted under the skin of the arm. It is the most effective type of birth control out there, but it's basically been hell for me. I have a literal laundry list of side effects that get worse daily and nothing works to stem the tide. I don't look, feel, or act like the same person anymore and it's awful. My poor husband has had to watch my anxiety and depression sky rocket, deal with my daily mood swings, and watch me basically spiral out of control. I've gained 65 pounds with MORE diet and exercise than before the stupid device went in, I've developed cystic acne, I have daily debilitating migraines, and I have the equivalent of morning sickness at least twice a week.

Honestly, the thing that pissed me off the most is that they don't warn people about these side effects. Sure, they half-heartedly list a few things, but nothing like what a great majority of users actually go through. If I had known that this was going to be my experience, I never would have gotten the little fucker put in to begin with!

I'm scheduled to get my implant removed in a few days, but I've been warned that it could be months before I'm back to my old self and that some of the effects, like the anxiety, could stick around for good. So, yeah, there's my little rant. Thanks for reading.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.

Years ago a coworker of mine ended up in hospital due to suicidal thoughts and nearly lost custody of her kids. She had been happy and healthy until she got the depo shots. It was an absolute mess. Once the shots were out of her system she was fine, but it was really scary for a while.

I had a bad reaction to the birth control pill, something changed in my body chemistry after having my daughter and I was so angry all the time. And I had zero sex drive topped with any time my husband came near me I accused him of treating me like a concubine. It was awful. We only clued in that it was the pill when I thought I had run out and couldn't get into my dr's office right away. Suddenly it was like fog lifted. Never again.

I agree that they do not do enough to explain the potential side effects. When I told my dr how I had been feeling she was completely unsurprised and was all "yeah that's pretty common."

I hope you feel better soon.

[lulubelle]

I don't get it.

As a guy, I feel it's totally normal to share responsibility. Like Sea Glass said, it takes two to tango. I'm gay so I might not be concerned but if I were straight, I would take it. To say that it's a "woman" thing is bullshit and a pathetic excuse.

In North America men are supposed to be free and enjoy sex and not have consequences because they are studly.

Women are not supposed to enjoy sex and only do it for procreation and doing it for fun means they are slutty slutty sluts and deserve to be punished with babies.

Awesome patriarchy we have here.

[PearlieMae]

I just found out today that my best good friend Robin died suddenly last night of a heart attack. We were the bestest friends for years and years before I moved to New Jersey 33 years ago. We painted our faces like tigers and crashed into the Kentucky Derby Parade on our sneaker skates, blowing bubbles and skating around and everyone thought we were part of the parade. We sat on my front porch summer after summer, teaching ourselves "The Beatles Made Easy for Guitar". We cruised through the park every weekend like thousands of other kids, looking for our crushes, yelling at cute guys, generally acting like asshole teenagers.

We grew apart, as distance and family raising will do, but chatted on Facebook, planned to get together over and over, assuming we would always be around.

Last night, she asked for prayers and good thoughts for her mom, in the hospital with the flu and pneumonia, and this morning, her sister texted me to tell me she was gone! I assumed it was her mother, but NO!

I can't believe she's gone.

Seems like everyone is dropping dead, left right and center, lately.

[Mermaid Lorelei]

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.

Years ago a coworker of mine ended up in hospital due to suicidal thoughts and nearly lost custody of her kids. She had been happy and healthy until she got the depo shots. It was an absolute mess. Once the shots were out of her system she was fine, but it was really scary for a while.

I had a bad reaction to the birth control pill, something changed in my body chemistry after having my daughter and I was so angry all the time. And I had zero sex drive topped with any time my husband came near me I accused him of treating me like a concubine. It was awful. We only clued in that it was the pill when I thought I had run out and couldn't get into my dr's office right away. Suddenly it was like fog lifted. Never again.

I agree that they do not do enough to explain the potential side effects. When I told my dr how I had been feeling she was completely unsurprised and was all "yeah that's pretty common."

I hope you feel better soon.

Unfortunately that doesn't sound very different from what I've been dealing with. The last few days have been especially bad, but I get my implant removed Thursday, so it'll be okay. I honestly just want to feel like a normal human being again.

[Mermaid Lorelei]

I just found out today that my best good friend Robin died suddenly last night of a heart attack. We were the bestest friends for years and years before I moved to New Jersey 33 years ago. We painted our faces like tigers and crashed into the Kentucky Derby Parade on our sneaker skates, blowing bubbles and skating around and everyone thought we were part of the parade. We sat on my front porch summer after summer, teaching ourselves "The Beatles Made Easy for Guitar". We cruised through the park every weekend like thousands of other kids, looking for our crushes, yelling at cute guys, generally acting like asshole teenagers.

We grew apart, as distance and family raising will do, but chatted on Facebook, planned to get together over and over, assuming we would always be around.

Last night, she asked for prayers and good thoughts for her mom, in the hospital with the flu and pneumonia, and this morning, her sister texted me to tell me she was gone! I assumed it was her mother, but NO!

I can't believe she's gone.

Seems like everyone is dropping dead, left right and center, lately.

Oh Pearlie, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[Saelyyia]

I just found out today that my best good friend Robin died suddenly last night of a heart attack. We were the bestest friends for years and years before I moved to New Jersey 33 years ago. We painted our faces like tigers and crashed into the Kentucky Derby Parade on our sneaker skates, blowing bubbles and skating around and everyone thought we were part of the parade. We sat on my front porch summer after summer, teaching ourselves "The Beatles Made Easy for Guitar". We cruised through the park every weekend like thousands of other kids, looking for our crushes, yelling at cute guys, generally acting like asshole teenagers.

We grew apart, as distance and family raising will do, but chatted on Facebook, planned to get together over and over, assuming we would always be around.

Last night, she asked for prayers and good thoughts for her mom, in the hospital with the flu and pneumonia, and this morning, her sister texted me to tell me she was gone! I assumed it was her mother, but NO!

I can't believe she's gone.

Seems like everyone is dropping dead, left right and center, lately.

Oh Pearlie, how awful. My condolences...

[Sabrina the Selkie]

Pearlie!!
That's awful. As Lorelei said: *hugs*

Dealing with that sort of loss is so, so, hard.

[SeaGlass Siren]

Oh no pearlie..

sending love and condolences

[Mermaid Lily_Pad]

I'm so very sorry Pearlie. It's been a bad month. We have had a few losses as well.

[Mermaid Mystery]

I'm so sorry for your loss pearlie. I know what it feels like to lose a best friend. My condolences.

[Mermaid Mystery]

I think I'm going to be sick. Two of my friends are hospitalized and another one killed herself. I can't believe this.

[Sabrina the Selkie]

Oh my gods, Mystery!

[Hydra1337]

I hate that my whole family resents me for not allowing my mother in the delivery room when I had my daughter (her first grandchild) in September. She said the experience was supposed to be for the mother and daughter not just the parents to be. She may be my mother but she caused so much stress and depression when my husband and I were forced to live with her that having her in the room would cause too kuch stress for me to handle her AND delivering my first baby. Her resentment and our refusal to go to church with her (we are atheists) caused events to snowball into getting kicked out not even two weeks after Evelyn was born. Also, she said because we wouldn't get Evelyn baptised something bad was going to happen to her and it would be our fault.

I actually had to change my phone number because she kept harassing us every day. At first she said she was sorry she kicked us out and didn't mean what she said. Then she changed her story to say that my husband said we were leaving before she shouted for us to get out. Because of her I now have no contact with my family and now that I've seen how shallow they really are I'm a lot happier with my life here in Florida.

[PearlieMae]

Mystery, I am so sorry! That's terrible news!

Hydra, I'm glad you found that you are happier without toxic people in your life.

[Sabrina the Selkie]

Wow, Hydra. That's insane. Well, at least her kicking you out had a nice byproduct: you're out and away from that source of stress.

[Aysun_the_Mermaid]

I may have to murder my cat.

I woke up this morning to discover that apparently he decided the cactus pot was a bathroom, perched on the edge of the pot, AND SHAT ON THE FLOOR

>:|

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[PearlieMae]

Oh damn! Are you sure he's not ill?

[Dancing Fish]

I may have to murder my cat.

I woke up this morning to discover that apparently he decided the cactus pot was a bathroom, perched on the edge of the pot, AND SHAT ON THE FLOOR

>:|

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I've got one of those stupid little furballs. He's lucky he's so sweet and cuddly. I just discovered (this morning, at work, too late to change) that he peed on my shirt.