B!TC# IT OUT!

[suzanne86]

WHY is she scared of your parents?

[Mermaid Lunette]

hmmm, so i got some sudden and worrysome news.

the last few onths my husband, best friend, another friend and i have been living together and it has been good. however about a few weeks ago we decided to split up, my 2 friends are no longer single so each couple kinda wanted to pair off and have a apartment with their significant other. kinda sad but no hard feelings from anyone really, however, we established that we would all go our seperate ways at the end of june.

but tonight, in our room mate group message our friend (not my best friend) suddenly sent a message saying she had already moved out! apparently during the night she had slowly moved out her stuff these last few weeks.

her moving out when she wants? fine, she is an adult and is under no real obligation to stay. however, the thing that is upsetting is she moved out all her stuff BEFORE telling us. like she wanted to make sure she was already out which gave us like, no heads up whatsoever.

so, we were all suppose to be using the last shared month to save money before moving into seperate but more expensive appartments but now we have to make up for her part of the rent. and what is worse is that my husband and best friend have had a hint of tention when it comes to money since he pays the most living here (although she works at the sister complex of this apartment so because of her we get a discount.) so now, i am really worried this is gonna start an even bigger argument between them, because there is a chance my husband might be expected to pay for our ex-roomates part of the rent completely instead of splitting it between them. (i am a house wife so i do the chores to make up for not helpin with the bills.)

so now since i am the only one whom has seen her message so far, because my best friend is asleep and my husband works the night shift, i am waiting in light terror to see what will happen next.

i kinda didn't expect this from my friend...

[Sabrina the Selkie]

That is so not fair. Good luck!

[The Water Phoenix]

At school, I'm part of a drama unit and we have this production coming up where we make up our own production. We decided who we'll be as characters and I chose to be a specific character but theres this one girl who HAS to have her own way no matter what >: ( We all knew that if she didn't get the part that she wanted, then she'll throw a hissy fit. So annoyingly, she has to have her way. She thinks that the whole world evolves around her. It's so annoying how she always must have her way. The same girl is in my media class and in my group too Lexie, Laney, Sophie and I do all the work while she draws on the board. She NEVER helps contribute >: ( I quite frankly don't want her in my group if she's not going to be a group member. She doesn't even care, all she does is make hurtful remarks about my friends . All my friends and I are sick of her.
Sorry about the rant, it was something I needed to get off my chest.

[PearlieMae]

Lunette, the sneaky one should be required to pay her share of that last month. That was a dirty thing to do to you. Just because she got her things out doesn't mean she isn't still obligated.

[Mermaid Lunette]

Lunette, the sneaky one should be required to pay her share of that last month. That was a dirty thing to do to you. Just because she got her things out doesn't mean she isn't still obligated.

:'( honestly, we aren't very confrontational people, so i am gonna be honest and say she probably won't pay and I doubt we will try to make her. I mean, she paid for this month and she is gonna be out before next month so she would probably argue that she shouldn't have to pay for a month that she wonkt be there.

i am most upset with the rather cowardly way she did it. she waited to tell us, she could have easily let us know the day she realized she wasnkt gonna wait. it still would be upseting but we could have been more prepared and discussed it together as room mates.

it's just, like i get how, if we are speaking in a tactful manner? she did the 'smart' thing.this way she avoids an in person argument and the decision is final because it has already been made. so she did good as far as self preservation goes. But it was not kind, and it was not considerate, which hurts a bit.

i dunno, i don't feel mad, it's like, she is human, humans do these things...but i do feel, i dunno, i guess dissapointed might be the best word?

[Lexicious]

I was going to swim...but I got out of bed , looked at the pool and it's raining hard, temperature is 50f....
This is California damnit! Where the hell is the sun!?

[Mermaid Arabella]

I was going to swim...but I got out of bed , looked at the pool and it's raining hard, temperature is 50f....
This is California damnit! Where the hell is the sun!?

We stole it ~Colorado

[Saelyyia]

Its a week from June, of course we don't have any sun. June in Cali is a gloomy time of year.

[Lexicious]

We stole it ~Colorado

May we have it back for an hour or two? That's all I need

Its a week from June, of course we don't have any sun. June in Cali is a gloomy time of year.

It's colder than the UK right now. Oh well, I guess I could do housework instead

[Mermaid Arabella]

May we have it back for an hour or two? That's all I need

I'm afraid not, I'm going to the Denver Comic Con beer release party this evening, so I will need the sun until I've had enough beer to stay warm. You can have it this weekend, I'm gonna stay in and craft anyways.

[Lexicious]

I'm afraid not, I'm going to the Denver Comic Con beer release party this evening, so I will need the sun until I've had enough beer to stay warm. You can have it this weekend, I'm gonna stay in and craft anyways.

I guess that's only fair. Enjoy the con!
That's another thing on this year's agenda, I'm hoping to make a Togruta headpiece out of latex foam to wear to cons seeing as I'm now somewhere that has decent conventions.

[Shimmer Mermaid]

Was supposed to go on a day long ride this morning, but we couldnt find stormy (my main riding horse who is 19).
We found him.
He was gagging, and coughing, and saliva and bile coming out of his more and mouth.
We took him to the vet and turns out he's choking. And has something in his throat.
So we're taking him to ANOTHER vet, with a scope to maybe get it out.
When it rains it pours.
My poor baby

[Lexicious]

Was supposed to go on a day long ride this morning, but we couldnt find stormy (my main riding horse who is 19).
We found him.
He was gagging, and coughing, and saliva and bile coming out of his more and mouth.
We took him to the vet and turns out he's choking. And has something in his throat.
So we're taking him to ANOTHER vet, with a scope to maybe get it out.
When it rains it pours.
My poor baby

Oh no! I wish you the best of luck at the vets.

[Shimmer Mermaid]

$900 later-he's okay. My dad and husband are going to kill me.

[Shimmer Mermaid]

Update: I'm not dead? My dad (who raised the horse) actually thanked me for taking him to the vet.
"It wouldve almost been like losing a child. That horse helped me through a lot. That is the last horse I will ever ride."

Soooo I'm in the clear I think.

Sleepy baby. They had to sedate him to run a scope.


Home and able to breath, eat, and drink again. Obviously he feels better-His willy was out!

[Lexicious]

Poor baby. I'm glad he's doing OK and that you're not in trouble

[Little_Orca]

Depression is making my life harder. I'm overly stressed from having a ton of work to do to pass my finals at school: namely 2 portfolios and a web site that must be done in ten days.

I'm also not losing any weight at the moment; plateauing again after gaining weight, primarily stress related I believe. I feel powerless. Friends point out that I should remember I've already lost over 100 pounds.... yeah, I have... but I still have about 70 to go until I am where I want to be... or at least at a "healthy" weight based on bogus BMI.

I am exhausted from listening to people tell me how wrong I am for eating meat, wearing perfume, eating fish, doing the small things that bring me joy in my miserable existence, and trying to convince me through guilt that I'd be a better person if I didn't do X Y and Z. "I have to wear a mask when I go out in public because of people wear chemical scents, I wish they'd think of people like me!" I wear rose, jasmine, or lilac oils to calm myself down, to make being in public bearable, for my own aroma therapy. But, sure.... I am wrong. I need to "think of other people" like I do every single fucking day of my life at work, when I am out and about, when at school, when dealing with my family. So long as everyone else is happy, then I am doing this right, right? Fuck what I need or want or what makes me happy. I love how you have to think of others, but when you ask those who preach that to do the same, they get mad.

Work is stressful and we are penalized (mostly through guilt rather than an actual penalty) if we try to take time off because we are so short staffed. The stress is making people sick, too, so therefore people are calling out more. Everyone is burned out. No one wants to be there anymore. One of my favorite nurses is leaving. Thursday will be her last day. She told me in secret since she does not want everyone to know, but she pulled me aside to tell me. She then almost cried, hugged me and said, "You're going to do good things; big things. I know it. I believe in you." I wish I believed in me right now.

I'm so close to things starting to turn around, to things getting better, but I feel like just giving up because I cannot see the finish line. I don't see the friends and family cheering for me with the small reward of happiness. Things that I've told myself to wait for, that will happen and make me happy have been postponed (wedding) and who knows when things will happen.

I am feeling utterly hopeless and I'm leaning heavily on my supports (which I hate to do) just to keep going. I'm masking my feelings with dolphin smiles and stupid memes on Facebook to keep those who are not closest to me from knowing how I am really feeling, how bad I'm really doing.

I don't even have time to take care of myself. My self care is me getting more than five hours of sleep a night before I deal with a 16 hour day (school 9am-5pm, work 5pm-1130 pm.) Spending the $5 on Starbucks before work to try and breathe before I jump into the fray that is a mental health crisis unit.

I just want some ray of hope to focus on. Something to tell me it's all worth it. I am so far in the darkness I've forgotten what the light looks like.

[Lotus the Mermaid]

Depression is making my life harder. I'm overly stressed from having a ton of work to do to pass my finals at school: namely 2 portfolios and a web site that must be done in ten days. I'm also not losing any weight at the moment; plateauing again after gaining weight, primarily stress related I believe. Work is stressful and we are penalized (mostly through guilt rather than an actual penalty) if we try to take time off because we are so short staffed. Everyone is burned out. No one wants to be there anymore. I'm so close to things starting to turn around, to things getting better, but I feel like just giving up. Things that I've told myself to wait for, that will happen and make me happy have been postponed (wedding) and who knows when things will happen. I am feeling utterly hopeless and I'm leaning heavily on my supports just to keep going and masking my feelings with dolphin smiles and stupid memes on Facebook.

Depression is so hard to describe. It's like waiting for the sunrise when the blinds are stapled shut. It's feeling paralyzed inside but forcing yourself to move. It's so tough, but you're a survivor. I've struggled with it for more than a decade, myself, and I can say for certain that it's not something that words or hugs can fix. But I can tell you this: you are stronger than you can ever imagine. When you go to work, you're doing everything that everyone else is doing but with weights attached. When you love people, you love deeply and are more vulnerable than most. You've likely been hurt before, but you pulled through despite everything inside telling you that it wasn't worth it. You're a warrior, and an inspiration. You can do it. Just hold on a little longer. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here. And I'll be praying for you. ::hugs:: <3

[Mermaid Clara]

Having a super tough day today at work. A few weeks ago my mom told me that she had two cancerous tumors on her liver and she needs a liver transplant. The tumors are super tiny and they caught the early. But still today she came to my work to buy me lunch today and it just really got me upset that I might not have a long time with her. My department leader asked me what was wrong and I told him and it just so hard to keep from crying. So he sent me on my break. But fuck I can't handle this, because she keeps coming home early from work because she doesn't feel good and she's spending a lot of time with me.


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