Originally Posted by
Grey Gambit
I'm getting really frustrated with myself... Over the last few months my anxiety and gender dysphoria has been getting more difficult to deal with. Because of it I haven't been able to go swimming lately, I end up having really bad panic attacks.. my last swim ended up with me having trouble breathing after I'd just resurfaced and definitely needed to breathe. Being able to swim usually is very calming for me, but it's turned into something tricky because I usually bind my chest to feel comfortable around people (and even now it's gotten to a point where I can't bind for more than an hour before my ribs hurt, so I can't even do that all that often..) and I've been unable to do that for swimming, so I feel really anxious about swimming now. :(
That turned into more of a rant than I meant it to... bleh. I'm not sure what to do. Medication for anxiety hasn't worked for me before, and I don't have enough money to go on medication that may not work. I really wish there was a place I could swim alone around here, but there isn't.