B!TC# IT OUT!

[PearlieMae]

So today is my birthday...And I don't think I have ever been more sad in my life. I sit here, staring at a computer screen, crying. I have no friends, and no family..and no money. I can't even afford to go buy myself food for the day. I have never been so low in my life, and I just don't understand why. I have done so much good in my life, for others, and for the world, and yet it seems I get repayed by having everything taken away. I have been ripped off by TWO tailmakers, Had money stolen, been kicked out of where I am living for no reason at all, etc.... Karma hates me for some reason, and no matter what good I do, it never gets repaid.

Is this the world we live in? A world that just doesn't care.
If so I think I may just call it quits.
32 years of battles is enough for me...

I wish there was something I could do to cheer you up!

You do know that karma isn't 'tit for tat', right? It's about learning life lessons. Not being repaid, or paying for other lifetimes' transgressions. Ask yourself what you are supposed to learn from all this...once you learn the lesson that life is trying to teach you, you can move past it!

This also applies to the good times, too...when things are going well, ask yourself what you did right to get there, so you can do it again.

This probably isn't what you want to hear right now, but if you just take a little time to just be...be here, now...sit in a space where you can feel the weather on your skin, feel the rise and fall of your breathing, listen to your heart beating in your chest...Just let these things fill your consciousness and let everything else fall away.

You are here. You are loved by people you don't even know. You are alive and that's a good thing. Birthdays are meaningless, really, it's another day in the spiral. Relax.

It's up to you to rise above your woes, only you can do that.

Please keep breathing. Things will get better. I promise.

[Hydra1337]

Thank you for the support, guys. It picks me up more than you realize.

TheAutisicMermaid, I know this might not mean much right now but happy birthday. I hope your day gets better.

On another note, I have food poisoning and keep going back and forth between feeling better and wanting to remove my stomach. For all future festivals I am either eating at home before I leave or I'm pigging out on funnel cake. That was the one thing that didn't make me sick.

[Celaeno]

My mom passed away Sept. 30th, and I just want to lay down and fade out of existence. She had just turned 51 two weeks earlier. My kids are 3 and 1 and have to grow up without their grandmother. I feel like my insides are full of broken glass.

[PearlieMae]

I am so sorry to read this, Celaeno. You are in my heart and my thoughts.

[merstorm]

Sorry to hear about that lost my dad and grandma within two months it does get better

[Hydra1337]

I'm so sorry to hear that.

[Takahao]

Somehow I always manage to work myself into positions, beliefs, circumstances, and experiences contrary to my beliefs. And it's always the weirdest stuff, somehow I'm getting depressed over the fact I'll never be a legit anthropomorphic animal. Tell that to middle-school me, who was very withdrawn/bullied/depressed, and I'm sure he would have laughed at me.

[PearlieMae]

Somehow I always manage to work myself into positions, beliefs, circumstances, and experiences contrary to my beliefs. And it's always the weirdest stuff, somehow I'm getting depressed over the fact I'll never be a legit anthropomorphic animal. Tell that to middle-school me, who was very withdrawn/bullied/depressed, and I'm sure he would have laughed at me.

But you're incorrect! You already are! Well...in a way...you are a reverse anthropomorphic animal.

Believe me. I'm from the future and I know how this all turns out.

I hope this cheers you up a little!

[AniaR]

My mom passed away Sept. 30th, and I just want to lay down and fade out of existence. She had just turned 51 two weeks earlier. My kids are 3 and 1 and have to grow up without their grandmother. I feel like my insides are full of broken glass.

I am so sorry a few mers have lost their moms in the past few years. it's awful

[LouLouBelle]

Just came across this...

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?sto...55321054585136

Genuinely really disappointed in Diving Specials.

Celaeno - *hugs* I know things are really shitty right now, but just concentrate on one day at a time. Hug your beautiful kids and tell them how much you love them. Look at them and see how special they are. And let yourself grieve. I know the overall situation isn't exactly great... but just concentrate on what you have to.

Concentrate on yourself, your kids, and your mum. You've got enough there without anything else. The rest might be hard, but it's not really important at the end of the day - not in comparison to your family.

You will get through this, as hard and heartbreaking as it might be. And I think I can quite safely say you've got the whole uk merpod behind you. ❤️

I think there will be a lot of hugs all round at the December meet up.




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[MerQueen Nerissa]

Just found out that my boyfriend is graduating on time (he previously thought he had to take an extra semester), which is AMAZING! However, he's applying for an internship in Texas, which is over 1,000 miles away from where we are now. I've still got at least a year and a half until I graduate, which means we'll have to be long distance until I graduate and can move to texas with him.
This isn't for sure yet, because he hasn't applied for the internship yet, and it's not 100% that he'll get it, but I have a feeling he will since he has always gotten good grades and he's a really hard worker.
But the thought of only being able to see him every few months is KILLING me. We live together now so I'm used to seeing him every day, and I love living with him. We're so happy right now.
I'm just gonna miss him so much and I'm scared because so many people break up in these kinds of situations.

[Celaeno]

Thanks everyone. I can't believe she's been gone for a month. A month into forever without her. It's hard to not be envious when I see other people with their mothers, or when friends talk about getting to see or be with their mothers. She was the only parent I had, my kids have no grandparents on my side now. And my mom was the grandparent they spent the most time with and who was the most involved in their lives. It's so brutally unfair.

[Shimmer Mermaid]

Husbands wreck ended up totalling the car, so he drove the truck to work (think I said this already) for two days and the alternator went out.
He has been driving my car to and from work for a week or two now.
Tonight while at the store, we noticed my car was over revving and not wanting to shift up and having a hard time accelerating.

Probably transmission.

I swear, we have had the worst luck this year besides our son being born!

My dad, our horses, vehicles, hot water heater went out, dryer went out, water leaks, and our septic tank pretty much exploded underground.

How are we supposed to get ahead or get anywhere when every time we make progress to our goals, we get hit with something that knocks us so far back that it's like starting from scratch?

[BubbleNeon]

I am so done with school right now. My friends are trying to set me up with a date for sadies. Like;
1. The girl is supposed to ask
2. Last time they tried this they realised how many guys can't stand me, and vice versa.
3. Literally I have no guy friends I would like to ask, and I am NOT going with a stranger 😱

I don't want to have to fight with them on this again. I have no interest in the guys at my school, and it would be so awkward to ask anybody. I used to be super outgoing, and charismatic, but I've changed. I don't really like who I am now, I know if I was who I used to be, I would have a bunch of friends to ask.

I'm just so done with being reminded that the person I changed into is less than who I was. I just want them to leave me alone about school dances, and dating. :/

[MermaidCelesteFL]

So, my dad decided to surprise me with a visit from my mom with Borderline Personality Disorder. My day got ruined a little too early, if you ask me.




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[Mermaid Clara]

wow, what a great way to start out my day.... I walked into my dad's office to tell him something and what is the first thing that comes out of his mouth? "How much weight have you put on?" and he proceeds to lecture me saying that "No one will want to be friends with you because you're overweight and No guys will want to date you because you're overweight, that is just the way it is"
well fuck you too dad. My day was going fine until you started to obsess over my weight. I mean yeah I put on some weight after I quit the 1,005 calorie a day diet, But I am already obsessing over my weight and I don't need you to fucking tell me i'm a fat ass and i won't have any friends or get a guy because i'm disgustingly fat.

[The Water Phoenix]

My friend might've had her laptop stolen :/ Another laptop to have gone missing.

[Mermaid Alea]

Oh wow... Hey Pearlie you should link them to this:
https://www.etsy.com/listing/4702156...FYQxaQodeCoDAg

[PearlieMae]

HAHAHA!

[AniaR]

So, my dad decided to surprise me with a visit from my mom with Borderline Personality Disorder. My day got ruined a little too early, if you ask me.

I know that feeling, your dad sounds like an enabler. Sorry you have to deal with that