B!TC# IT OUT!

[SINicallyTwisted]

Some people are just assholes!! GOOD JOB for standing up to the bullies!!! It can be hard though b/c most people won't stand up and fight, so that when one person does, they get labeled the wrong one. All you can do is be honest, speak your truth, and dont take shit from anyone. Hang in there!!

**Also, they are cowards and not used to people standing up to them. I have dealt with people like that. Really watch your back!

Thanks! Right now they're attacking me but they're finding out really quickly that I'm not backing down and I'm not going to lower myself to their levels. Right now they are trying to spread nasty rumors behind my back and saying things like I "don't do anything but sit on my ass and do nothing".

Pffft! Pathetic. :rolleyes:

[shimmygoddess]

assholes!!!! I so believe in Karma, sometimes it takes a while. keep on being fabulous ...screw the haters!!


Thanks! Right now they're attacking me but they're finding out really quickly that I'm not backing down and I'm not going to lower myself to their levels. Right now they are trying to spread nasty rumors behind my back and saying things like I "don't do anything but sit on my ass and do nothing".

Pffft! Pathetic. :rolleyes:

[Little_Orca]

People on my friends list on FB keep posting that mermaid school link.... three times in the last two days. Nuff said. :eye twitch:

[Fun123joker]

good news is i fixed the game but thing is that in the game i saw in the chat someone had to type out gay as g a y apparently every time you type the word gay in the chat it gets cencored as a bad word and yet you are allowed to say damn with no censoring. who knew the site could be homophobic. but its only the word gay not gays lesbian or ect. BUT STILL

[Mermaid Wesley]

That would be to keep little homophobic idiots from saying lol ur gay

[SINicallyTwisted]

Day 3. 4 hrs of sleep today. Still getting attacked but still standing strong and firm. Not going to lie, even I shed a few tears of frustration and really doing my best to keep it together and not let it get to me.

[MarkF]

SINicallyTwisted- I can see you don’t realize just who you are.
You are incredible!
I’ve seen your work on the other sites, and wow. Costuming, playing characters so spot on. The reason you are attacked is because you do everything so very well. You’ve become a celebrity to these people and because of that these people are trying to fluff themselves to feel equal. They may have been like you in an early time, the problem is they see how you become better. Don’t let the noise get you down.
The problem with being great isn't people wanting to be with you, it’s the jealousy and how some people can’t handle themselves. This is just their latest realization you’ve left them in the dust in life. Amy it’s true! It’s a good night to call good friend and let these people suffer their inadequacy by themselves.
Their not going to change.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moSFlvxnbgk

[SeaGlass Siren]

Some people are like bad drivers. They will honk at you and yell at you and be negative toward you. YOu can either just cancel out the noise, or let it bother you.
You're better than those people. :hugs:

[Sammyantha171]

I have an ingrown toenail... It seems so silly because it's such a little thing, but I'm not allowed to get the bandage wet from when I had surgery on it, so I can't go swimming. :( And I can't do any running or anything either until it's healed up. Also now my toenail looks really disgusting because it's half the size it was before and I'd hoped that actually my toenails might look not-ugly again for once after getting the fungal infection dealt with. But oh well.

[Raayvhen]

Seriously dad. I'm recovering from major jaw surgery including having bone harvested from my hip and you're harassing me to find the duct tape. I'm having a really hard day with walking and my back got twisted from sleeping on the couch.

[SINicallyTwisted]

SINicallyTwisted- I can see you don’t realize just who you are.
You are incredible!
I’ve seen your work on the other sites, and wow. Costuming, playing characters so spot on. The reason you are attacked is because you do everything so very well. You’ve become a celebrity to these people and because of that these people are trying to fluff themselves to feel equal. They may have been like you in an early time, the problem is they see how you become better. Don’t let the noise get you down.
The problem with being great isn't people wanting to be with you, it’s the jealousy and how some people can’t handle themselves. This is just their latest realization you’ve left them in the dust in life. Amy it’s true! It’s a good night to call good friend and let these people suffer their inadequacy by themselves.
Their not going to change.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moSFlvxnbgk

:hug:

[MarkF]

:blush:

[PearlieMae]

Seriously dad. I'm recovering from major jaw surgery including having bone harvested from my hip and you're harassing me to find the duct tape. I'm having a really hard day with walking and my back got twisted from sleeping on the couch.

I think you are totally justified in telling dad to back the f*** off.

[Little_Orca]

My sewing machine is acting up.

I am trying to work on a tail for someone whom I cannot disappoint; it's a personal mission. Things keep going wrong though and it's starting to effect my moral over the project and fear has taken over my mind. I fear they will hate it. The right thread snapped so much that the colors I am using are not the right green so they do not match, the fins are not behaving like they should, and the dorsal is ... I don't know what it's doing.

I am really hoping the paint job helps this. This tail has my anxiety soaring.

[Little_Orca]

ug, just have to do the dorsal over. fml.

[MarkF]

I'm not a sew person. Does the thread still break?
Sewing machines teach me all the ways I can do it wrong. Sometimes the spool side is sticky and it stick to the machine, or I don't check the tension and later find it max'd out. I've even found the thread wrapped around thing it wasn't supposed to and sometimes I just have to stop and start anew the next day.

[AmbrGlows]

It could be a number of things. I had similar issues with my thread. In the end we found it was a tension and material issues.

[Little_Orca]

I've adjusted stitch size, played with the machine and so on. One thread is really bad and snaps after about 10 stitches. The one I am using now is a little better. It is still a bit of a pain, but I will work on it in the morning. I have to draw out a new dorsal fin pattern as the last one got torn up. Good thing I take progress pictures so I have the design and dorsal fin pattern saved.

[Kishiko]

Have you tried adjusting the tension? Also, there may be a problem with the threading, it might be getting caught on something that is making it break. My machine does that a lot too :P it also might be a piece of loose thread in the bobbin compartment, that messes mine up a lot too.

[Mermaid Crystal Shimmer]

Pff feel like shit. I just broke up with my boyfriend after being together for over 3 years. My heart tells me this is the best thing to do.. but still feel like crap.

[SeaGlass Siren]

aw crystal.. :hugs: you need a night out or just time to yourself to meditate.

[Isla the tropical mermaid]

I hate it when guys don't think before they act. Now granted i'm still a teen but it is still really annoying. They will say something to you and then when they finally figure out that your pissed off about it and then they try to cope out like You know i didn't mean that i'm so sorry. No your not! if you were sorry you wouldn't have said/done that (But that's just my thinking) and than try to back it up with flattery... Well i hate it when guys try to flatter me in front of there friends i don't know about you guys but that annoys me

[Raayvhen]

Pff feel like shit. I just broke up with my boyfriend after being together for over 3 years. My heart tells me this is the best thing to do.. but still feel like crap.
Lots of mer hugs your way. I've had my share of bad break ups so if you need to talk PM me okay?

[Mermaid Crystal Shimmer]

Thnx. It's hard... we had a fun time together, and I've grown so much over the years. And that's one of the reasons I broke up. We've grown apart.

[SINicallyTwisted]

Thnx. It's hard... we had a fun time together, and I've grown so much over the years. And that's one of the reasons I broke up. We've grown apart.

:( *lots of hugs & snuggles*

[Azurin Luna]

I can just cry about now. My bf and I are getting a registered partnership, which is almost the same as getting married. We did this because we get better financial stuff, and hope to get married when we get our house done when we have moved. Now we went yesterday to get everything planned and there was a spot free the 19th of august, so we took that one. I told me parents that they would be my witnesses' for the occasion, they knew we were planning this, but now they are all mad and stuff because it's so soon and that they can't get free because of the holiday period and stuff. And they tell it in such a way that it sounds like it's my fault suddenly that they can't come. Normally you can get a free day for such things. Besides that, we are close to buying a house, so we don't want to wait to long with the registering so that we can get our finances done without the extra hassle if we didn't register, or we had to wait till December...
It just pain sucks that they have to be like this, while they should fight it with their jobs and not me :(

[MarkF]

Likely your parents aren't comfortable with the Registered Partnership and not really with the dates. From a old person perspective it's kinda like your BF isn't making a real commitment and leaving himself with a out. He's wanting to keep you happy with a kinda-sorta live in relationship. Maybe the holiday timing is making that even worse.
So ask yourself if I'm not getting married what is my real reluctance. Marriage is serious? I'm not really, really - really convinced this is the guy? In the olden times you'd get married small and later have a big party for the friends if money was the issue.
These are personal question and I'm not your folks, just Merfolk - this is most likely what your parents are thinking. Tuff place to be.

[Azurin Luna]

I think my parents biggest problem is that it is in the holiday season. I've been living with my bf for 4 years together and know each other for 7 years, we are really serious about this. We are planning to get married later on, and here the registered partnership is 99% equal to getting married, we are mainly doing this so it is easier to get a mortgage for buying a house together. When we are all settled we will get married with the full party and stuff.

[MarkF]

On you big day we'll have a toast to you. Sounds like you've got it under control.

[Fun123joker]

in my MMO im playing i finally got enough gold to buy a mount but i cant ride it because i didnt unlock the skill for it yet D=
tomorrow is Otakon! but im scared that im getting strep. but i think its just a bad sore throat. im feeling better atleast

[Rivertee]

Oh my gosh I flipping agree word gets out you're a mermaid abd people go crazy! My church pastor even shared it to mine.

[AniaR]

So Mermaid Melissa is now tagging her stuff with "canada mermaid" and "canadian mermaid." She can't work here without a canadian visa. Are you kidding me? Time to start tagging my stuff "world's best mermaid" or some other lame thing. http://www.mermaidmelissa.com/tag/canada-mermaid/ I discovered it while updating my sites meta data and checking to see if my stuff after the update appeared under certain tags on google yet. Wow is all I have to say.

[AniaR]

actually looks like she steals a lot of people's tags when you look at the tags at the bottom of her blog http://www.mermaidmelissa.com/events/booking-information-and-background-checks-on-professional-mermaid-performers/

[Mermaid Octavia]

The sheer wall of tags she uses is enormous. "Africa mermaid", "Alaska mermaid", "London mermaid" are a couple I spotted just from glancing.

[Mermaid Octavia]

Also, I recently learned that the leader of the group I used to work with just kicked out their 60+ year old mermaid/jellyfish because she didn't want to sign a paper stating she would only work with that group. The older gal was so pleasant and wonderful and the kids loved her! I can't believe she was booted because she would be considered "competition". I just don't understand it. The older gal had such a great time performing for anyone who would have her, especially around children. And now they kick her out because she's "competition"?

=_=

[Kishiko]

I noticed American dad mermaid...that doesn't even make sense. Also ikan duyung and hableany. Like what?

[Kishiko]

No dad, spraying a skunk with WASP SPRAY is not the only way to get it out of the shop. Ugh.

[PearlieMae]

I don't know why, but I envisioned an antique shop with a skunk wandering around and your dad chasing it with a can of wasp spray!

:doh:

[Kishiko]

I don't know why, but I envisioned an antique shop with a skunk wandering around and your dad chasing it with a can of wasp spray!

:doh:

bahahaha no it's our like storage/boat/work/cat/various uses shop lol. He's done that to two of them.

[Raayvhen]

Kinda feel like the forum got a potential mervert.

[Seraphina Suds]

Agreed...

[Merman Arion]

Kinda feel like the forum got a potential mervert.

I find this one rather funny actually.

Obviously this is a troll "fishing" and you're playing his game.

Gotta admit tho, it takes balls to create such a thread here. The audacity made me laugh.

[Raayvhen]

I reported it even before I posted. And I kinda just replied out of habit.

[Ashley]

So I drive an 08 chevy silverado and the fuel system just went to shit, and now we will have to spend all of our savings to get it fixed. Whats best is it's Sunday so nothing is open!!!

[AmbrGlows]

"No good deed goes unpunished. " I don't know who said it. And I never understood what it meant until now.

I had many admirers of my tail at the water park today but this one little girl (about 14) and her mom were much more interested than the others. I decided to let the girl take a swim in just my monofin...she was big enough to wear it and we all went with her. She was a natural in the water. It was so awesome to see. But at some point during her swim the fin insert broke. No buggy, accidents happen, it would have happened eventually from wear and tear even just by me. And it's only a $20 replacement piece.

Here's the punishment park. The replacement insert is out if stock and I have a pool party the 16th & 17th.

[Mermaid Jaffa]

Sorry forgot who it was... Ikan is Malay for fish, duyung is mermaid.

Now back to the bitching...

[Blaze]

Did my first Princess Party in a while (and my first on my own! whee! I would really like to start a small company with this!) and was hired to be the little mermaid swimming in the pool. I arrived 15 minutes before my 'start' time as discussed with the parents and called as discussed to arrange for me to slip into the pool unseen while the kids were distracted.

No one answered the phone. I tried texting. Nothing. Called again and left a message. Finally 5 minutes before I was supposed to be in the pool and surprising the birthday girl I went to the door (without my tail) and rang the doorbell. Mom answered and asked me to come in and who do I see in the living room? A 'walking tail' Little mermaid playing with the kids! *facepalm*

Apparently the parents thought it would be a good idea to have two Little Mermaids there, one to play games and face paint and one to swim in the pool. Nevermind that we are both pretending we are the same person & kids (5 year olds) usually are a little brighter than that. :p

I immediately switched my name after hearing the other girl call me 'her sister' to Scarlet & it really only came up once while I was there when the other girl came out to the pool deck area while I was in the pool. She left about 30 minutes after I got there but yeah. Awkward!

[Mermaid Wesley]

Lol nice

[Echidna]

actually looks like she steals a lot of people's tags when you look at the tags at the bottom of her blog http://www.mermaidmelissa.com/events/booking-information-and-background-checks-on-professional-mermaid-performers/

uh-oh :jawdrop: lol.

Tags (minuscule excerpt):
20/20 mermaid, abc mermaid, ad mermaid, adult swim mermaid, africa mermaid, american dad mermaid, barbi mermaid, best mermaid, cartoon mermaid, china mermaid, cnn mermaid, commercial mermaid, company logo mermaid, company mermaid, darrel hannah mermaid, family guy mermaid, funny or die mermaid, zack merman


so, tag all and everything and add a "mermaid" after. Way to go, especially when misspelling the names :clap:

yep, and it's absolutely not annoying to look for something entirely different, like asian or african mermaids, or even a merMAN, and still get spammed with chubby blonde american ads.
:violin:

[Mermaid Melanie]

so apparently ads for mermaid Kat are coming up on my youtube videos :S is that just a ridiculous coincidence or can you control that sort of thing ?

[Echidna]

don't think so, if you watch mer-related (or even just ocean related) videos, you'll be bombarded with Melissa and Kat, probably because they boosted their videos or somesuch.

However, I never clicked any of them, and gradually they went away and only show up sometimes when they bought a new boost :p

[MarkF]

OK- I'm going to step in here for Mermaid Melissa.
If you have a company of Merfolks and have tanks, there is the convention industry. Your potential clients are not local to you, they are around the world and have different focuses and you have to get their attention at their home town about your availability at the conventions in your own home town "Florida"
If the marketing department at Canadian National Railway Co. typed Mermaid, the local Google spider would see Mermaid Toronto and would show it. They would see Melissa Mermaid in Florida does Florida conventions and hopefully consider her for their booth or after party.
A very good plan.

[Mermaid Momo]

Youtube tracks your interests and the interests of what other people who watch that video tend to watch and chooses the ads accordingly.

[PearlieMae]

The least she could do is make her tags the same color as her background. Imean, c'mon...how hard is it to type in the hex code 000000?

:doh:

PS: You can control whether or not 'suggested' videos show up at the end of your video. I think it's under monetization.

[Nana]

Youtube is also connected to Google and if you get your design by searching in google for things others made then it will notice your interests in mermaids.
I don't care about it since I have a very effective adblocker. I'm just here for the videos.

[AniaR]

Kat and melissa pay for ads so they come up before.

Melissa can't legally work here and I own Canadian mermaid (s). Also google search is diff for everyone based on your demographic.

In another thread we just discussed how lame it was mermaidsrus used mertailor tags. I think its lame she uses tags of name I have paid for and legally own the rights to. She's not even Canadian and as per our border laws she can't even work here.

[PearlieMae]

YouTube is OWNED by Google.

[Nana]

Not talking about the companies. I'm talking about the websites.

[Mermaid Melanie]

Lol I noticed she has uk mermaid on there too with a bunch of other countries too - seems a bit fame hungry ?

[SINicallyTwisted]

I'll just leave this here. I've done enough b*tching to make a fleet of sailors run home to their mothers and hug them. I am still quite PO'ed about it. On top of dealing with the authorities (BCC, head of building security and Boston PD) I'm also unfortunately dealing with internet trolls since this hit the net yesterday which is really frustrating. :mad:

https://www.facebook.com/nerd.lifestyle/photos/a.206360609390617.61646.126092037417475/914085648618106/?type=1

[Mermaid Galene]

Oh, Sin, how awful! That's a whole bunch of insult, fright, and stress (not to mention bruises) that you don't need right now. Big virtual hug coming your way! :hug:

[MarkF]

Our poor little Mermaid. :( I just don't get where guys head's this comes from, maybe if he were 13- Wow! I wonder if he assaulted anyone else?

[Raayvhen]

I'm so sorry Sin. That is such a horrible thing to go through. I hope they find that asshole.

[AniaR]

that happened to me too a drunk guy and the bruise lasted for months. I am so so so sorry :(

[Nana]

Oh my gosh! Didn't think performers live that dangerous.

[SeaGlass Siren]

HOPE SOMEONE CATCHES THAT MO'FO.
my god how can people be so stupid.

[SINicallyTwisted]

Thanks guys. I'm alright. Sore and fustrated but otherwise alright.

I don't know what's more infuriating. The fact that it even happened, that it was done by an employee of the setup firm that the con hired, the damn bruise that hurts like a mofo sitting down, the inability to do the rest of my work as a mermaid with my group because of said bruise, the lack of evidence to press charges, the ongoing investigating not being able to find the damn person wearing a freakin' employee tshirt, people that yelled that they saw it happen but aren't willing to step forward nor did they go after the guy or just the damn fact this asshole may just have got away with it so he can go do it to someone else.

:soap box:

OH! And the stupid internet trolls! :anger explode:

[Lostariel Telrunya]

That is really awful. Conventions like that are for people to get together and share in a passion, to have fun. When those guys show up it just ruins everything. I think it takes out the fun and makes everyone feel unsafe. I hope they catch that guy!

[SeaGlass Siren]

can't the police ask the people for a list of who was working the convention? they MUST have a list somewhere. otherwise how are they supposed to get paid to work?

[MarkF]

They likely have enough on video if they wanted to persue it. The guys union won't turn on it's own for hurting someone in this fashion. Likely the management isn't using the video because they are hoping it just fades away.

[Mermaid Wesley]

I'm so seriously upset by the events in Ferguson Missouri. You should google it if you don't know. It's like a scene out of the hunger games over there. Like the police force has taken over and is doing illegal shit. It's sickening. But I have to spread the word. If nobody finds out, it's not going to get better. And currently all media is being BANNED from the city. So social media is the only way.

[SeaGlass Siren]

Right like something like that is going to magically disappear for the victim of the harassment. Seriously what has the world come to.

[Kishiko]

I'm so seriously upset by the events in Ferguson Missouri. You should google it if you don't know. It's like a scene out of the hunger games over there. Like the police force has taken over and is doing illegal shit. It's sickening. But I have to spread the word. If nobody finds out, it's not going to get better. And currently all media is being BANNED from the city. So social media is the only way.

I am so ashamed that it's going on in my state, but unfortunately that is the mindset of a lot of people here. You know what's even worse? More than half of the rioters are people from OUT OF TOWN who are taking advantage of the looting. Wait, are you saying the police are the problem? Because holy crap no. Most of the town has gone crazy destroying stuff and burning stuff down and looting. And now they want the name of the policeman who shot the kid, like really? They just want to kill him. But I do agree, it's a horrible thing going on.

[Seraphina Suds]

He murdered an unarmed teenager who posed him no threat simply because he thought black skin meant suspect! Of course they want the name of the officer. He needs to be put on trial for his crimes instead of letting it get swept under the rug like so many other crimes the police have committed against the public. There wouldn't be looting and riots if the police weren't taking violent action against what was originally a peacful protest. All of this is a direct result of police brutality. All of it.

[MarkF]

Watching the news, they attached the press last night. Shot them with rubber bullets and launched smoke and bang grenades to prevent them from filming what the the solders were doing next as they marched on the citizens.

Sound like a lovely place to live.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnXnWB0AZgg

[Kishiko]

He murdered an unarmed teenager who posed him no threat simply because he thought black skin meant suspect! Of course they want the name of the officer. He needs to be put on trial for his crimes instead of letting it get swept under the rug like so many other crimes the police have committed against the public. There wouldn't be looting and riots if the police weren't taking violent action against what was originally a peacful protest. All of this is a direct result of police brutality. All of it.

actually, that's not entirely true. Yes what he did was horrible and wrong, and he should be put on trial. However, that does not give people of the town and out of town to come in an destroy the community. And it absolutely did not start out as 'peaceful'. The first night they looted a convienence store where it happened and then BURNED IT DOWN. that's not exactly peaceful. Oh and posed him no threat? The police officer went to the hospital after the incident for injuries. How did that happen if there was no threat? I'm not saying it's right that he killed the kid, but none of us were there when it happened. The police are trying to control the situation before more people get hurt and before the town is completely dress imaged.


Watching the news, they attached the press last night. Shot them with rubber bullets and launched smoke and bang grenades to prevent them from filming what the the solders were doing next as they marched on the citizens.

Sound like a lovely place to live.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnXnWB0AZgg

WHAT?! They did not attack the press. The rubber bullets and TEAR gas, not smoke, were used against the mob in an attempt to control it. 13 people were arrested last night, 3 of whom were journalist who were again, taking advantage of the looting!

Please guys, don't make assumptions about the police or anyone if you don't know the full story.

[MarkF]

We only know of events from the limited news we get. How far away are you?

[Kishiko]

Yes I know, I'm sorry I snapped a bit. Media coverage and story twisting in this country is infuriating. I'm about 3 hours away from them, but news travels fast around here. Plus most of the local media can get coverage out before they're shut down.

[Seraphina Suds]

3 hours away is pleanty of distance to get the information twisted. Just because you're in the same state as the issue doesn't mean you're the authority on it. And I'm not saying I am either, but our information obviously doesn't match up.

Personally, I don't trust media sources other than eye witness social media reports. For instance, here's a video of the friend that was involved and witnessed the whole thing first hand: http://flawlessxqueen.tumblr.com/post/94602988325/this-is-the-young-man-that-was-walking-with-mike They were doing nothing wrong and there's no mention of the police officer having been injured.

In fact, have this link too: http://clehmentine.tumblr.com/post/94588451614 It breaks down what happened and has links to sources backing it up.

[Kishiko]

3 hours away is pleanty of distance to get the information twisted. Just because you're in the same state as the issue doesn't mean you're the authority on it. And I'm not saying I am either, but our information obviously doesn't match up.

Personally, I don't trust media sources other than eye witness social media reports. For instance, here's a video of the friend that was involved and witnessed the whole thing first hand: http://flawlessxqueen.tumblr.com/post/94602988325/this-is-the-young-man-that-was-walking-with-mike They were doing nothing wrong and there's no mention of the police officer having been injured.

In fact, have this link too: http://clehmentine.tumblr.com/post/94588451614 It breaks down what happened and has links to sources backing it up.

Ah but thats the problem with anyone posting media anywhere. How do you know theyre even telling the truth? Maybe they were doing something wrong (Im not saying they were but IF they were), do you really think the friend would come out say something like "oh yeah, we were doing drugs in the street and then injured a cop who shot my friend" No probably not because then he would be turning himself in for that. Also, regardless of what happened, that doesnt give anyone the right to vandalize and start looting 12 Businesses in the first night and burn down a convenience store. Personally, I would rather trust a local media or police report rather than someone on tumblr claiming they knew what happened.

[Seraphina Suds]

The tumblr link is only there because it provides it's own links and I'm on mobile so it would be difficult for me to do it myself. Either way, the original point was the vandalism/looting wouldn't have happened if there wasn't a protest to invade. There wouldn't have been a protest if the police hadn't murdered an unarmed teenager. And there wouldn't be a dead teenager if the police didn't racially profile people. I'm done talking about it.

[Kishiko]

The tumblr link is only there because it provides it's own links and I'm on mobile so it would be difficult for me to do it myself. Either way, the original point was the vandalism/looting wouldn't have happened if there wasn't a protest to invade. There wouldn't have been a protest if the police hadn't murdered an unarmed teenager. And there wouldn't be a dead teenager if the police didn't racially profile people. I'm done talking about it.

Actually the police left the protestors alone during the first day when thats all it was; they stepped in when, as i already said, they started destroying businesses. And also for the racial profiling: How do you know thats even what happened? We do not know why that officer stopped the two young men. So i think its unfair to say thats why he did it.

[Raayvhen]

Obamas press statement just now felt so canned.

[Mermaid Momo]

Okay I'm gonna jump in here because I'm seeing that people are blaming the citizens for this. This is fully and wholly the fault of the police. The protesters did a peaceful protest at the police department and were met with violence. And then they started looting. and yeah, they had full reason to start looting and setting shit on fire. We've tried the peaceful protest shit and where does that get us? did it get us justice for any other black boy murdered on the streets by police? fuck no. So we done with that. We're gonna take what's ours, we want justice, we want there to be consequences for gunning down our little boys. And not to mention the police are shooting rubber bullets and giant as fuck wooden pellets at protesters who were sitting in the street on their knees with their hands up begging for them not to shoot. And they're shooting tear gas into people's backyards. So much anti-black hatred is coming out because of this, so many people are being hurt and tear gassed because we just want them to stop murdering us. And for other people (mostly white people) to stop making a mockery of ferguson (like how they took the hashtag #iftheygunnedmedown)


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GO1SKC6dK7o
detailed account: http://miss-momo-tan.tumblr.com/post/94699904649/what-the-fucks-happening-in-ferguson

Also, the police shot a woman in the head last night and tried to blame it on a drive by done by black men
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warning, pictures of open wounds at next link
http://miss-momo-tan.tumblr.com/post/94736067969/grilledsneakers-this-is-what-the-people-of

[Mermaid Momo]

more pictures from the scene:
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source: http://mic.com/articles/96242/intense-scenes-from-ferguson-capture-the-terrifying-militarization-of-america-s-police-force?utm_source=policymicTBLR&utm_medium=main&utm_campaign=social

[Kishiko]

Okay I'm gonna jump in here because I'm seeing that people are blaming the citizens for this. This is fully and wholly the fault of the police. The protesters did a peaceful protest at the police department and were met with violence. And then they started looting. and yeah, they had full reason to start looting and setting shit on fire. We've tried the peaceful protest shit and where does that get us? did it get us justice for any other black boy murdered on the streets by police? fuck no. So we done with that. We're gonna take what's ours, we want justice, we want there to be consequences for gunning down our little boys. And not to mention the police are shooting rubber bullets and giant as fuck wooden pellets at protesters who were sitting in the street on their knees with their hands up begging for them not to shoot. And they're shooting tear gas into people's backyards. So much anti-black hatred is coming out because of this, so many people are being hurt and tear gassed because we just want them to stop murdering us. And for other people (mostly white people) to stop making a mockery of ferguson (like how they took the hashtag #iftheygunnedmedown)


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GO1SKC6dK7o
detailed account: http://miss-momo-tan.tumblr.com/post/94699904649/what-the-fucks-happening-in-ferguson

Also, the police shot a woman in the head last night and tried to blame it on a drive by done by black men
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warning, pictures of open wounds at next link
http://miss-momo-tan.tumblr.com/post/94736067969/grilledsneakers-this-is-what-the-people-of

No one has the right to steal from and destroy other businesses in their community, thats just doing more harm than good. This only turned into a racial controversy because of people talking about it like that, like how you worded your post. Did the police use rubber bullets and tear gas. Absolutely. theyre trying to control the situation. What are you saying, the police should just let the people run ramped and destroy the entire town? That would be stupid for them not to mention failure of their duties as police officers. So no, this is NOT the polices fault entirely and its not the citizens faults entirely. No one know what happened for sure the day of the shooting. Simple as that.

[Mermaid Momo]

It was always a race issue. They gunned down an innocent black boy just because he was black. He did nothing wrong, his only crime was walking while black. and to top it off, the left his body in the street in his own blood for hours. Also, ferguson is such a racial hot bed because it is really racially segregated. And the police, and apparently lots of Americans see black people as nothing but a bunch of animals, our lives aren't worth much to them, we're nothing but animals. and in the words of the wife of the police chief : "Feral". I'm tired of people saying we have no right to loot, to be pissed off, but yet they look at revolutions in turkey and other places around the world and are in full support of them and their looting. We're getting more support from Palestinians then people in our own country smh.

And if the police can fire rubber bullets and tear gas at the peaceful protesters sitting down, hands in the air, BEGGING not to be shot at, then why aren't they firing at the KKK that showed up hmm?

[Kishiko]

Also, in response to your photos, heres some of the riots taking place
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This photo is protestors lighting a Molotov cocktail which they were throwing at police ("peaceful protest")

[Kishiko]

It was always a race issue. They gunned down an innocent black boy just because he was black. He did nothing wrong, his only crime was walking while black. and to top it off, the left his body in the street in his own blood for hours. Also, ferguson is such a racial hot bed because it is really racially segregated. And the police, and apparently lots of Americans see black people as nothing but a bunch of animals, our lives aren't worth much to them, we're nothing but animals. and in the words of the wife of the police chief : "Feral". I'm tired of people saying we have no right to loot, to be pissed off, but yet they look at revolutions in turkey and other places around the world and are in full support of them and their looting. We're getting more support from Palestinians then people in our own country smh.

And if the police can fire rubber bullets and tear gas at the peaceful protesters sitting down, hands in the air, BEGGING not to be shot at, then why aren't they firing at the KKK that showed up hmm?

You dont know he was innocent. you do not know why that officer shot that boy. NONE OF US DO. also, the 'left his body there', no one has confirmed if thats even true. Its all rumors and outside assumptions of what happened. Im also confused as to why you keep saying "we" have the right to loot. This isnt about you or any of those other protestors. In the words of the 74 year old veteran who made it through the police line

Despite the divisive racial accusations being thrown around in the aftermath of the tragic shooting, Hoech says “the only thing that matters in all of this is that mother who lost her son.”
So they are mad because a policeman shot a boy from their town, okay thats fine. What doesnt make any sense at all, why would they loot and destroy businesses, thats just hurting the community more!

[Mermaid Momo]

okay because I have to explain this "we" is black solidarity. I am black, thus we use "we" when talking about anything to do with black people. Also, coming from all of the photos, videos, TESTIMONY from his friend who was walking with him and neighbors who saw, HE WAS INNOCENT.
Why do people always want to try and find a way to make a black boy out to be a criminal? Like he stole something/did something?
If this was a white man (like all the schools shooters) the media and everyone else would be blaming it on mental illness, you'd see his family and friends talking about how "he was kind and didn't seem the type" on the news. Is that what we got? NO. We have to rely on social media because the actual news doesn't care. (and they're blocking reporters from getting in or out of Ferguson)
Would you like to see posts from someone on the ground right now in Ferguson? He posts in full time, everytime something happens.

[Kishiko]

http://www.theblaze.com/contributions/reflecting-on-the-tragedy-in-ferguson-im-tired-of-people-like-you-mr-granderson/

This pretty much sums up my feelings about all your racial points

http://www.thedailybeast.com/cheats/2014/08/13/officer-in-ferguson-shooting-was-injured.html
Also here is a link showing a different side of what happened that day.

[girlprince]

Well just saying, how can you even provide any actual evidence of what you know to be fact? Your sources and pictures are just as unreliable as anything else on the internet. Unless you are actually there and not "3 hours away" then you have just as much information as everyone else on the net.

Al Jazeera, an unbiased, well-respected news source was shot at during all of this.

Regardless if the original victim was innocent or not, people's rights are being completely thrown out the window.

Honestly, what authority do you, a 14 year old girl,have over the hundreds of primary sources coming from adults who are actually there?

I agree that it's a racial issue, but like I said, you have no authority to speak about it other than being a person with an opinion.

[MarkF]

There is a time and place for vengeance and retribution and this may be the place. My problem is the citizens attach each other instead of the police causing the race war. Why fire bomb your place of work or turn over your neighbors cars when the police are out of control, The police don't care or have any interest in your property or that business.. If your going to fight back - fight back.
There were incidences in the past where corrupted police departments were taken by force by citizens where they hadn't any trustworthy government to go to.

This sure seem like a odd place for such conversation. It's got to be said though.

[Kishiko]

Well just saying, how can you even provide any actual evidence of what you know to be fact? Your sources and pictures are just as unreliable as anything else on the internet. Unless you are actually there and not "3 hours away" then you have just as much information as everyone else on the net.

Al Jazeera, an unbiased, well-respected news source was shot at during all of this.

Regardless if the original victim was innocent or not, people's rights are being completely thrown out the window.

Honestly, what authority do you, a 14 year old girl,have over the hundreds of primary sources coming from adults who are actually there?

I agree that it's a racial issue, but like I said, you have no authority to speak about it other than being a person with a lousy opinion on black people.

As I have said countless times NONE OF US KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED. And excuse me? Do not ever attack me like that for being "a 14 year old girl" and assuming that I am some racist pig who has no idea what I'm talking about. Just because i am younger does not mean I am stupid.

[Mermaid Wesley]

I'm not saying every police officer in ferguson is corrupt. But some are. My dads a cop I almost always take Their sides. But there are eye witness reports of them firing at peaceful protesters, gassing people for recording them, and every single eyewitness report I have heard has said that there were no more than 20 looters in a crowd of over 200. People are calling the ferguson police department and being met with mocking, sarcastic replies or are just being hung up on. There is no reason that news helicopters should not be allowed to fly over the area. I'm not saying all the protestors are guiltless, but MANY of them are and they are being racially targeted by police. The "feral" comment was by the wife if the chief of police. She said that black people are feral, they murder their unborn children, they murder each other etc. So they aren't victims. Basically she called black people animals and barbaric on a public forum. There WERE news vans in the city until they were all ordered to leave under threat if arrest which is illegal by the way, and more recent reports are saying that police officers have taken off their name tags. Also not allowed. Now as a cops daughter, I know that there are probably plenty of decent police officers in ferguson. And this is the important part: But unfortunately the few who are racist, subhuman
cretins are not being stopped when it comes to their violence and brutality. This is because they are using the looting as an excuse to oppress and potentially kill black people just for being there. As far as the original case, there's a lot that points to the police officer being in the wrong. He is the only one who changes his story and he is the only one who says anything about him stealing or about him threatening. I understand that debates like this rapidly turn into an us vs them, but poc aren't turning against white people, they're turning against oppressors. And I know that I may not really know what's going on in ferguson, but from what I'm hearing, we all need to stand with the citizens. We have to make sure that the police response isn't far too excessive for the threat. That's police brutality

[girlprince]

As I have said countless times NONE OF US KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED. And excuse me? Do not ever attack me like that for being "a 14 year old girl" and assuming that I am some racist pig who has no idea what I'm talking about. Just because i am younger does not mean I am stupid.

I did you the solid by editing out the implication that you were racist but then you saw it before I editted it.
I got the idea that you might be a lil bit racist when you linked to an article that was clearly racist and was supported by racists down in the comments section in response to a black person's comment of solidarity.

To be honest with you, I don't really post in these forums a lot but I can't help but cringe when I see stuff like this going on which is why i even posted in first place.

Never did I imply you were stupid because of you're age. My implication was that you're not a legal adult and don't know enough about things yet -- you're young, which means you have plenty of room to learn. And it's good because you're thinking about stuff like this. But I always think that kids should look at both sides of the issue and observe rather than say anything.

I don't really feel like going further than what's already said -- we're going to have different opinions regardless, but my point still stands: there are hundreds of live accounts from people actually at the protest, uploading pictures and videos vs what you're hearing as an out-of-towner. This is probably gonna be my last post on the issue because the last thing I need in my life right now is unnecessary drama.

[SeaGlass Siren]

I don't have any other way to say this so i'm just going to put this out there. excuse me if i sound like a Neanderthal.

Police brutality = bad.

Police killing an unarmed kid = bad.

Looting = bad.

Peaceful protests = good.

police not abiding by laws = fucking messed up. what happened to serve and protect?

police abiding by laws and doing what they're supposed to = good.

People claiming to be peaceful protesters but end up doing the complete opposite = bad.

Racism = bad.

Randomly throwing tear gas at people and claiming to be protecting and controlling the situation = bad.

killing people= bad.

in short: this entire situation is bad. clearly nothing good is coming from this. both sides do not benefit.

it's true no one really knows what happened. but the fact of the matter is the officer attacked an unarmed person. murder is still murder.

[Kishiko]

I don't have any other way to say this so i'm just going to put this out there. excuse me if i sound like a Neanderthal.

Police brutality = bad.

Police killing an unarmed kid = bad.

Looting = bad.

Peaceful protests = good.

police not abiding by laws = fucking messed up. what happened to serve and protect?

police abiding by laws and doing what they're supposed to = good.

People claiming to be peaceful protesters but end up doing the complete opposite = bad.

Racism = bad.

Randomly throwing tear gas at people and claiming to be protecting and controlling the situation = bad.

killing people= bad.

in short: this entire situation is bad. clearly nothing good is coming from this. both sides do not benefit.

it's true no one really knows what happened. but the fact of the matter is the officer attacked an unarmed person. murder is still murder.

Well said :thumbs-up:

[Seraphina Suds]

I wish the forum had a "like" or up vote option because everything draggersprez said was on point as usual.

[Raayvhen]

People bitching about something after doing the exact same thing.

[SeaGlass Siren]

^ I am guilty of this.

[drucilla]

Some people just can't admit they were wrong and let it go.
Family frustrations over stupid things! So this all happened a few months ago and I haven't been able to let my frustrations on this out, and this seemed like the best place to do it.
My grandmother thinks she is dying so she keeps adjusting her will. She has dementia according to one doctor, I do not live near by so I basically just hear things from her and my mother who I talk to frequently. Well she kept asking me what I wanted from her estate, money, property, whatever, I don't want anything I told her I don't want anything I told my mom I don't want anything and frankly it makes me uncomfortable that she asks. My mother and paternal grandmother have NEVER gotten along! That is an understatement, but my grandmother told me she set up a college fund for my daughter which I appreciate, and was nice of her because I'm saving money for my daughters college fund but it is very slow. So I thanked her immensely and was done with it. My dad started claiming I'm trying to take his inheritance, which I wouldn't because I feel a loyalty to my family despite all the problems I have had with them, going into foster care and such. He said I'm on the phone with my grandmother so much because I want to get things out of her. Which is wrong and he knows it is because they listen to all of her phone calls, they claim its so she wont be scammed by people any more apparently there was an incident with her ordering a hundred pounds of frozen stakes lol. I still don't feel they should listen to her calls since she deserves privacy she is a person with legal rights after all! They discovered they couldn't keep an eye on her all the time so they had my sister move in with her to help her around the house. Turned out my sister talked my grandmother into giving her 10k in cash that she used for drugs immediately, then tried taking her back to the same bank the next day to get all of her jewelry!, and was trying to change her will so that everything went to my sister instead of equally between her and my parents, as well as trying to take my daughters college fund! Well that was stopped and she was kicked out but my poor grandma kept calling me asking me what happened why my sister wont talk to her anymore and I don't know what to say! Everyday it was like she forgot and calls me asking me why. Some days I told her the truth, some days I just told her I don't know. And now they are moved my grandma to a home where she has no phone in her room so I only get to talk to her when my dad visits her and lets her use his cell phone. I am so frustrated over this, before my grandmother and I never got along she was always mean and rude so I would ignore and avoid her, but when she was diagnosed with dementia she changed completely and it was like we were finally getting to know each other for the first time. I have a hard time talking to people in person and on the phone, especially people I don't know, so as you can imagine I don't really make friends. The only people I get to talk to all day are her and my mom. Now that she's unable to talk to me I feel a real loss I miss her a lot and I never know if she's ok I have to ask my mom for information on her well being. Which never goes over well. I am just so upset about this whole situation she at one time told me that my parents and sister actually went around her house with sticky notes putting their names on the things they wanted! I know my dad cares about her but that is not how you treat someone and I live too far away to put an end to it. I honestly don't know what to do my husband keeps telling me it doesn't matter because she was really mean to us until she got her diagnosis and to just let my family do what they want, but I honestly feel she has changed and I want to help but have no way of going there to actually do something about it, but even then I am afraid that nothing I say or do would matter. I hope she likes it better in the retirement home, but I would like to talk to her more often, to make sure shes okay. I'm just sick over the whole thing.
End of rant on family problems.

[Mermaid Kelda]

Hey Drucilla, this probably really belongs in the bitch it out thread - it's not drama! :)

[Mermaid Kelda]

Just going to link this:
http://www.reddit.com/r/pics/comments/2dhdre/weapons_of_war_have_no_place_on_our_streets/cjpr98a?sort=confidence

Obviously it's reddit so you should take it with a grain of salt, and also the comments about that comment are pretty contrary:
http://www.reddit.com/r/bestof/comments/2djg27?sort=confidence

No one really seems to agree. I do think those of us outside the state/country don't really have the place to comment with any certainty.

[drucilla]

Yea, sorry, I didn't feel comfortable posting it there since someone just recently made a post about me on there, and since it's been a drucilla hate marathon on this site today I felt this page would be more out of the way so they can post all their hate mail on the other one.

[AniaR]

Drucilla people criticizing your post isn't hate. People just disagreed with you. I feel like you're continuing to escalate it and now blown it out of proportion. Have you seen how often catluna and I actually argue? LOL or Pearlie and I disagree? But we don't hate each other. Its just the internet. No one hates you or is hating on you.

[drucilla]

I'm still being talked about on the other thread despite my apology for unintentionally offending people and for making people feel I judged them, someone even made a post that I know was directed towards me in the b-it-out thread. Yet I have received no apology from anyone that was judging me and actually trying to offend me. I did use a couple words that were judgmental towards one person but words were thrown at me too that were extremely judgmental as well. It's still going on even though I tried to ignore it, so it's being escalated continually. That post on the b-it-out thread is proof of that.
I understand that you have been through this a few times but I haven't and I don't have the social skills to understand how to make it stop.

[Raayvhen]

Did it have your name on it? Believe it or not I do have other things going on that have nothing to do with you.

[AniaR]

To make it stop you need to stop. If you feel you're being attacked take it to a mod. You'll notice from time stamps multiple posts went up the same time you were posting your apology and two of us ( teiri and I ) even made note that we didn't get to see your last few posts ( until after) because you put them up while we were responding to the initial post that instigated everything.

If you both just ignore each other everything will stop. And if you stop escalating it'll stop.

I understand first hand how frustrating it can be when you feel like people misjudge you or aren't understanding your point. It is a chip I get in my shoulder that really upsets me when I feel people are misjudging me me. But I have learned and I'm passing on to you: if you don't let it go and walk away you dig yourself a bigger hole and upset yourself enough it bothers you in real life. And at the end of the day no internet post or person you don't actually knows opinion of you... Just doesn't matter enough. People get in disagreements and arguments on here everyday in one thread and then congratulate each other in another. I think you hurt each other with words and it is very clear that because of the severity neither one is interested in resolving.

There's a guy on this forum who constantly accuses me of lying about something a few years ago. It used to drive me crazy because I provided enough proof to show I wasn't but members didn't really pay attention. Because there are new members now loads of people will see his remarks about me buy have no context. I felt like most of the posts he made in threads I was in were trolling me. It drove me nuts and all I wanted to do was argue him. By after some time I realized it wasn't worth it and in the end I can't control what every person on here thinks of me. I had to just put him on my ignore list and just trust that most people would still like me despite what he says, and cut my losses over people who believe him and still think I'm a liar.

This is what I think you have to do. Stop worrying about re clarifying yourself over and over or making your point. There's nothing else constructive to add it's just fighting at this point. So big breath. Walk away.come back and post in other threads. Put the person on your ignore list if you find them instigating.

[PearlieMae]

Drucilla people criticizing your post isn't hate. People just disagreed with you. I feel like you're continuing to escalate it and now blown it out of proportion. Have you seen how often catluna and I actually argue? LOL or Pearlie and I disagree? But we don't hate each other. Its just the internet. No one hates you or is hating on you.

We've disagreed? I thought you just hated me. :phew:

Drucilla, I am truly sorry for what is going on with your family. I know what you are going through and if I could offer helpful advice, I would, but the only thing I could do in the same situation was wait it all out and let everyone else in the situation fight it out. It's not pretty, everyone gets hurt, and in the end, it's just stuff and you lose a family member...and possibly relationships with other family members. Stay strong and remember to breathe. :hug:

[AniaR]

ggrrr lemme at ya lemme at ya pearlie!!! Punch you right through the puter!!!! (inside joke, I'd never really punch her)

;)

all my love. <3

[PearlieMae]

Because you know I'd kick your ass. :mermaid kiss:

Lahve yoooo!

[Rivertee]

Venting frustrations comment here, when others like you get your tail in a twist what can ya do than just sit quietly and wait for the storm to pass

[Lucinda]

I was snorkeling about happily and then completely out of the blue this middle-aged woman starts shouting at me, something about lanes... in the one area of the pool that isn't divided into lanes. D'uh! And she couldn't wait for me to surface first either, had to shout at me while I was under. She just came at me, barking. And then when I Ieft the pool, steaming, she kept on yelling at me that she didn't mean that I had to leave. Was that supposed to be an apology? Jeepers! She could have waited a minute or two for me to surface. Then approached me like "excuse me, but could you please stick to this side of the pool area" and pointed it out to me. No shouting necessary. I would gladly have listened to her if she had been polite and civil.

[MermaidMichelle]

When I was first monofinning I was worried about "getting in someone else's lane" too, and likewise the pool wasn't laned off in that section. Were you monofinning? Those things can freak out some swimmers....

[Morticia Mermaid]

That extremely frustrating moment when you try on the sequin tail you've been working on and realize it's to big because of suddenly dropping 30+ lbs (pounds) due to being extremely ill :(

Thankfully I'm still only in the ankle area. So I can still take it in really easily, but it's still as frustrating as trying to swim against a current. Now to decide if I'm going to take it in or leave it as is in case I put the weight back on when I'm fully recovered -insert frustrated sigh here-

[Lucinda]

No, just snorkeling. At the swimming hall, there's this big pool that's mostly divided into lanes. The area I was in is two lanes wide (without lane separators unlike the rest of the pool) but only half the length of the pool. It's this corner that is usually used for exercise classes (think aerobics in the water) with loud music and someone leading the class. But between the classes, it's mostly this quiet and empty pool corner. That's why I've been using it, to do my thing in peace. Then this other woman (another customer) shows up and starts imposing her own rules (if you yell at someone, it's not a request. You're issuing an order. In my book, only staff have the right to start yelling orders.) The funny thing is, in the absence of a class there are no specific rules regarding this pool area. People can just use it freely. I was there before her, and when she showed up I figured one more person can't hurt. I tried to give her space to do her thing, but I guess it wasn't enough. She had to invade my personal space and give me a freak out while I was head down in the water. Don't people realise how vulnerable you feel when you're under and somebody comes at you like a frigging fury?

[Mermaid Wesley]

I would say leave it. If it's too big when you're done I think taking in is still easier than letting out right?


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[Morticia Mermaid]

Kind of, not really. I'd have to pull a ton of sequins off to take it in, then re-sew them on

[Mermaid Wesley]

Ugh yeah. That's true


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[AmbrGlows]

I say leave it be for now. Wait until you're 100% again. You may not put all the weight back on but you will put some of it back on. Good lick and hope you feel better soon Morticia.

[Cordelia]

Ahhh! Can I add my own complaint to the thread? Bf left the empty glass fishbowl on top of the toilet seat after his shower this morning. So, of course, when I woke up needing to do my business, I smashed the bowl with the lid and cut my finger. :/ Cleaned up the glass already and sent a message to him, but have not heard back yet. Ruminating on all of the other stuff that (does not) get done around here, like cleaning out the garage. I am so in the "if you're not going to bother, why should I?" mood right now. Seriously. I'm thinking that I need a nice clean blanket more than he needs clean work clothes tomorrow.

[SeaGlass Siren]

do it. boy needs to learn a lesson.

[SeaMansa]

Its only the first day of school and yet already I just want to pull my scales off. I feel like I am the dumbest person in all my classes. And I've only had TWO classes today. You know how they do the whole introduce yourself on the first day thing? Everyone literally went all out, talking about their accomplishments, awards, and everything they've done and im just sitting there like "I like to play games...." :( then later on I find out that the class I was most looking forward to (it was another screenwriting class which is what I what to focus on) was changed and now I can't take it and have to drop the course. BUT the thing is, I literally cannot take another course in its place because every other class is either something that conflicts with my current schedule or something that I haven't done a prerequisite for yet and I HAVE to have a certain number credits for my scholarship to pay for my classes and...ugh. I really don't know what to do. I considered just withdrawing from all my classes and skipping this semester but im not comfortable with that. I just want to crawl in a hole melt into nothing >_< this isn't even half of all the problems I've experienced today. I am just sooooooo ugh right now.

[Raayvhen]

Does your school (sounds like a college?) offer independent learning contracts? If it does I'd say try to work out one of those. Or maybe an online course?

[Raayvhen]

I'm so tired of my pain. I know that it isn't anything compared to what others go through on a daily basis. I've had a severe muscle pain in my right rib for the past two and a half weeks. It hurts when I bend, twist, look down, breathe, sit, stand, roll over in bed, just all the time. The doctor gave me a muscle relaxer which as far as I can tell, helps me sleep but not much more, and a useless pain gel. She told me to stop taking oral painkillers, advice which I've ignored because I have no other choice. My chest X-ray came back clear so I know it's either muscle or a pinched nerve. I'm supposed to have a follow up on Wednesday. I might just go to the ER tomorrow.

Also, having all my stitches slowly unravelling in my mouth is annoying as hell. They come loose when I eat or brush my teeth and I have to trim them carefully without pulling on them.

[Cordelia]

Omg. Didn't hear anything all day. Just say sorry! Right? Well, he finally came home at about 10 last night after being out with friends all day (one of whom lives out of state). He brought me FOUR boxes of Dove double chocolate ice cream bars!!! Apology accepted! XD

[MarkF]

Why does everyone call the caudal a fluke? I haven't seen anyone yet make a fluke.
I'm not pushing for a change, just don't get it.
Sharks, Dophlins, Whales = Fluke Fin "Fiberish mated material covered with Skin. Fish, except sharks= Caudal Fin "Rays of bones spreading out from the tail to the Fin edge and covered with skin."

Caudal
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Fluke
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Humm?

[Mermaid Wesley]

I think it's a combination of fluke being a more recognized word, mermaids tails go up and down, and it's shorter to say.


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[AniaR]

Sorry but 90% of tail designs look like flukes to me. But you know since we make mers up I think they can be whatever the f we want ;)

[MarkF]

AniaR, it's that they have rays, everyone make such cool designs out of the rays. Flukes would actually be so boring.
Wesley's statement is most likely there.

[PearlieMae]

Caudal is so scientific sounding...when we say fin, it's mostly referring to monofins, and fluke became part of the popular vernacular when referring to a finished, covered monofin. Even though mermaids are depicted as half fish, it's obvious by our air breathing, breasted, hair growing upper half that we are more mammal than fish, not to mention our horizontal "fluke".

Or it's just the popular slang. I doubt I've ever said the word "caudal" out loud in my life.

[MarkF]

OK - Everyone together - Caudal -
K, it's our secret now, don't tell anyone.

[Merman Dan]

Just don't get folks started on the whole egg vs. live birth debate. ;)

[MarkF]

ooh! whole egg vs. live birth?
Ya know that would be pretty defining wouldn't it.
Humm?

[Lostariel Telrunya]

That should be a new thread. Hang on.....

[MarkF]

Dan- I didn't do it, Lostariel did it.

[Echidna]

OK - Everyone together - Caudal -
K, it's our secret now, don't tell anyone.

Dude, you got that wrong.
It's not about the rays, it's about anatomy.

Aquatic mammals have horizontal flukes.
Fish have vertical caudal fins.

You can put all rays you want on a fluke, but as long as it's horizontal, it's still a fluke.

There is not a single mammal on this planet who has managed to swim with a caudal fin.
(believe me, people tried.)

[MarkF]

And now were are getting picky.
Bones- It's in the bones or would that be a fluke. "Pun intended"

Hang on, gotta find more chips. got the munchies.

[Anahita]

Caltuna nailed it on the head. It's how it moves and what it's attached to.

We have flukes just like we associate and socialize in pods.

If we want to have the debate over other depictions of mermaids that might make sense, but as for us, the people who swim in tails.... We're mammals, we swim with an up and down motion rather than a side to side motion... So it's a fluke, no matter how fishy it looks (and some mers flukes don't look fishy at all)

[PearlieMae]

Hmmmm... Is ' anal retentive' hyphenated?

Get over it. Say caudal in the lab.

Btw, my FLUKE is based on an insect wing. Stick that in your wave and swish it! :rollover:

[MarkF]

:thinks:Geez, need a little more freedom here.
Who says mammals can't have boned and skin fins.
Bone Rays as a support structure don't mandate a fish. "I'm not a believer in the half fish and half person."
Seals to Beavers are close enough for imagination to make the difference. Though the horizontal flippers still stand true.
The anatomy of a fluke doesn't have bones, more like your nose.

[MarkF]

Insect wing?

[AniaR]

fluke fluke fluke. flukity fluke fluke fluke :D

[AniaR]

I throw my fluke up in the air sometimes, saying hey=oh, fish or mammal bro? Im gonna swim my way and live my life, cuz the semantics... no one cares ohh!!
(lol Im sorry I couldnt resist)

Seriously though I always think it's so dumb to debate things that aren't real. There's no standard for mermaids. I get really irked when people get jerky saying "real mermaids have long hair, real mermaids dont wear tops, real mermaids dont have knees." newsflash. Mermaids arent real. We portray a fictional character that we can make whatever way we want, because we are establishing it. If you don't like someone's version, move along.

[Odette]

Don't get me started on fish anatomy. I love it! lol. I studied marine medicine for a bit and still do sometimes. I call it the caudal fin because mermaids are considered half human and half fish. We have scales and multiple fins. The way fins are formed compared to the flukes of our awesome sea mammals, it's still a fin, BUT everyone can call it whatever they want.. These mermaid fins look nothing like flukes to me. I had to learn both for blood collection and they don't look similar to me at all unless you don't have any visible rays.
Let's just classify it as both for mermaids sake, yes?

[Merman Dan]

Fluke, fluke, fluke, fluke of pearl, pearl, pearl... ;)

[Anahita]

I throw my fluke up in the air sometimes, saying hey=oh, fish or mammal bro? Im gonna swim my way and live my life, cuz the semantics... no one cares ohh!!
(lol Im sorry I couldnt resist)


:lol ^:

[MarkF]

Odette, do we have spots on our blood cells? Just kidding ;)

[PearlieMae]

Fluke, fluke, fluke, fluke of pearl, pearl, pearl... ;)

HAHAHA! :lol:

Yes, my fluke is based on cicada wings, even though they are a bit truncated.

I read my last post and it sounds mean, and I didn't mean it spitefully, I was laughing when I wrote it. Then again, Pearlie Mae don't give a fluke! ;)

And I think Raina's cheese done slipped off her cracker. ;)

[Mermaid Galene]

What Raina said. We are a community built on imagination, and each person's imagined mer world is as valid as the next.

[MarkF]

Pearlie, I thought so.
As for me, if I'm not in trouble I'm being ignored and I don't like being ignored. :D

[Kaila Mermaid]

You have no idea how long I've argued with myself ​over this topic...

[Kaila Mermaid]

Sorry to double-post, but couldn't different types of mermaid experience different types of birth, much in the way that some sharks birth live pups and others lay eggs? Maybe we have different species and/or sub-categories (undine, nereid, melusine, siren) that the whole caudal vs. fluke and behbehs vs. eggs could work... just saying.. *tosses two cents into the throng*

[Echidna]

Maybe we have different species and/or sub-categories (undine, nereid, melusine, siren)
in mythology?
certainly.
within the community? hardly.

everyone here has a fluke.
if someone managed to swim with a caudal fin, please post a pic of your spinal cord, thanks.

[MarkF]

Some how I've always thought of Mermaids being live birthing.
I'm unaware of breast feeding egg layers.

[Winged Mermaid]

Lol Mermaid Cyanea has ranted at me about how it drives her mad that people call them flukes and not caudals :P She's a zoologist though, so I can see how it might bug her! She still goes along with it becuase it's just become mer-terminology more than a scientific thing at this point.

[Merman Dan]

I'm unaware of breast feeding egg layers.

Monotremes (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monotremes)

But, to be fair, the next time someone catches a mermaid in the wild be sure to ask her. ;)

[Merman Dan]

Lol Mermaid Cyanea has ranted at me about how it drives her mad that people call them flukes and not caudals


For me it's octopi. Whenever I hear that word I have to rant about Greek versus Latin plurals, importing words into the English language, etc. It's octopuses, people, unless you want to be snarky then you can say octopodes.

[SeaGlass Siren]

I call it fin or tail.

I whip hip my tail back and forth I whip my tail back and forth --

[SeaGlass Siren]

I'm sick.... I have a job interview with the Disney store tomorrow.... Fml...

[PearlieMae]

I'm sick.... I have a job interview with the Disney store tomorrow.... Fml...

Dress as "Sneezy"?

[SeaGlass Siren]

Maybe sleepy or grumpy lol

[Mermaid Wesley]

I'm so pissed at my work right now. They called me half an hour ago basically demanding that I work tonight. I told them I didn't think I
Could because it's my uncles birthday (a lie. I'm just exhausted and have homework) and they said I'm the only one who can do it and they need me to. I had no choice but to agree to it. Now my night is in the toilet, I'm gonna end up behind on my
Homework, and I was really looking forward to my night off too......


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[Carolina Mermaid]

Jerks

[Arella]

Had to see my ex for the first time in months. It was horrible I'm amazed I didn't have to leave.

[Mermaid Wesley]

Back from work. Guess who has to work tomorrow now too! Inconsiderate.


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[Anahita]

Someone stole all the cans my grandpa collects from the area on the side of our house where we keep our recycling, organic, and landfill trash bins. Like, that's what my grandpa does for his money. He collects cans (he likes to live like he did in Iran after the Shah was overthrown. I think the revolt kind of screwed him up and made him a little nihilistic about wealth) It was a good $100 worth too. Ugh. I mean, Sina said he'd just give grandpa the money, but grandpa's very proud, and I can tell it hurt his pride to have to admit he needed money. I could also see he was visibly distressed that his stuff was stolen in what my dad has repeatedly harked to him was a safe neighborhood, and it made me feel shitty. Even in Iran, no one stole his stuff, but he lives here, and people steal his stuff at least once every few years, and twice he's been stolen from living in this new place with my dad, and it's only been a year. :/

[SeaGlass Siren]

Why not leave the cans inside his house..?

[PearlieMae]

That sucks, Anahita! One feels so violated when thieves take your stuff! I understand how his pride was hurt and it's even more frustrating to have someone undo all the hard work you've done to earn that money.

[MarkF]

They have plastic trash containers which have a place for a padlock, would he lock it? Maybe that would help.

[BayouMermaid]

So sorry that someone stole from him. I've had my truck and my apartment broken into before and stuff taken, and it is such a scary thing.

[PearlieMae]

Back from work. Guess who has to work tomorrow now too! Inconsiderate.


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STOP ANSWERING YOUR PHONE!
:rollover:

[Rivertee]

Cans of that value can take a lot of room, trust me I've tried it.

[Seraphina Suds]

Just got off the phone with a debt collector who informed me that I have something like 13 unpaid student loans. Meanwhile I was under the impression that I had them consolidated into 3 and was paying towards all of them monthly. Really stressed, pissed, and upset... I wish I hadn't bothered to go to college at all. It certainly hasn't helped me get a "real" job so what was the effing point.

[AniaR]

Asus took 6 months to fix my computer. Sent it back with no battery or power cord.... Just sent me half of a power cord with the part that plugs in missing and still no battery. Lmao it is becoming funny at this point. Asus are you trolling me?!

[Anahita]

We tried getting him to lock his stuff up before, and sadly it's pretty hit and miss. It's very hard because he's not all there all the time, like, in his mind. He's locked himself out of our house a few times because he left his keys on his bed but locked the door behind him, likewise I've come home a few times to find that he left the door unlocked and his window open.

I also don't think that my dad would buy him the bin, just because my dad is like flippin' Spahani and Mashhadi combined. If he did buy him the bin, he'd give him a huge lecture about how he should have seen it coming, then make my grandpa feel like he owed him, which my grandpa hates (hence why he asked me for the money and told me about the cans and not my dad)

[SeaGlass Siren]

^ whats Spahani and Mashhadi? i tried googling it but nothing came up.

[Anahita]

They're referencing people from cities in Iran. I don't really know what the English equivalent would be short of "a mean cheap tightwad asshole"

But somehow more than that.

[PearlieMae]

It sounds like something to eat! ;) hehehe!

I want to use them in conversation, but I learned my lesson when I asked a Danish friend how to say "I'm very pleased to meet you" (so I could greet an artist my company was representing), and instead, and much to my embarassment, he taught me to say "You have p***y hair in your nose." :doh:

[Anahita]

It sounds like something to eat! ;) hehehe!

I want to use them in conversation, but I learned my lesson when I asked a Danish friend how to say "I'm very pleased to meet you" (so I could greet an artist my company was representing), and instead, and much to my embarassment, he taught me to say "You have p***y hair in your nose." :doh:

I must confess I've been THAT asshole before. To be fair though, the girl I did it to actually was trying to hit on someone I had told her weeks before that I liked. And she was trying to hit on him by lying to him and saying she was Persian. So... She got what she deserved. :neener:

I've never been such an asshole though that I've done it just out of the blue to a friend.

[Raayvhen]

Update on my pain.

Sprained rib. Such. Fucking. Fun.

[MarkF]

How did you hurt your ribs?

[Raayvhen]

Post surgery I had to sleep sitting up for like two weeks on the couch and the day before it started hurting I woke up upside down on the floor with my legs still on the couch. I was all twisted up,.

[Lostariel Telrunya]

Alright, you can ignore this comment if you want, it just feels better to type out frustrations.

So this week my church is running a little day camp at a park for all the elementary aged kids. It consists of 9 days, 8 hours a day of going on hikes, yelling at the kids, and getting dogpiled after yelling at said kids over (duriing which yesterday I got a concussion because one kid jumped straight on the side of my head with his knee). A bunch of people in high school and college like to help out and lead all of the groups. I was put with the Kindergarten group, which is great because I love hanging out with little kids.

Now is the point where I have to backtrack for context: I have extreme anemia, because of that I have a lot of problems with body temperature, specifically in my hands. So, when it's warm outside, I'm fine, but as soon as it gets a bit chilly, my hands will feel super cold to the touch. I can't feel it much, but they get, like, abnormally cold.

Okay, back to day camp. So, I met my group on Monday and they were all really great kids, and we all seemed to like each other (you can tell if they like you by how many kids try to get piggybacks from you at the same time). The first few days were really hot out, and we all had a lot of fun, but then Thursday we went on a little field trip to the zoo and it started to rain. It had already been pretty chilly that morning, and we knew that would happen. I have had a lot of kids kind of freak out because they will want to hold my hand, and then pull their hand away really quickly because mine is really cold, so I decided to wear gloves that day. It was fine during the morning, we all went to as many places we could while I had a kid on each leg, two on my back, and four of them all trying to hold my hands at the same time. Everyone had agreed to stop for lunch in the same place so we could do a headcount of the kids.

Now for a slightly smaller rant that sort of ties in with this. There is one kid who always volunteers to lead at the day camp. Let's call him Steve. He is technically too young to actually volunteer, but he is the kid of one of the pastors at our church, so he automatically gets to do it. Steve is 13 years old and, quite frankly, has the humor and attention span of a four year old. The rest of the leaders pretty much treat him as a kid at the camp because he doesn't actually take care of the kids, he just wants to boss them around. For example, at the little 'training' session for all the new leaders before the camp started, we were going around and saying what we were most excited for, and he specifically said he wanted one of his kids to get hurt and go to the hospital so he could fill out one of the long accident reports. He also said he was excited for all of the troublesome kids so he could give them time-outs. The next thing he talked about was all of the ways that he knows how to cheat at the games we play with the kids (things like capture the flag, scavenger hunts, etc.). He also likes to play 'pranks'. And by 'pranks' I mean stealing things from people and not give them back. I have literally had to drive to his house because he took my phone one morning, didn't give it back, and then went home with it. Okay, now back to the story once again.

So we were all eating lunch on the grass, and it was still raining out. Everyone had their umbrellas out so we wouldn't get drenched, and I had put on an extra few sweaters, as well as helped the kids get their sweaters and jackets on. Steve then came up to my group of kids and tried to convince the kids to put their jackets on upside down (to which my kids just ignored him, thank goodness), and then actually took a sweater from one of my kids backpacks without asking, and brought it over to one of his kids. I calmly went over to him and asked for it back, and instead of being a normal, sensible person and giving it back, Steve grabbed my arms and tried to push me down on the ground. I pulled away, but when I did, my gloves came off in Steve's hands. I then resorted to begging and bribery to get my gloves back, but he didn't give them back and instead took my umbrella and the jacket was sitting on and then told his kids they were finished lunch (which they had just started not even 5 minutes ago). So here I am with ten kindergarteners, six of which were just holding onto my previously warm-feeling hands. I had originally thought to find another leader so we could maybe have two groups together, so I could watch the older kids and she could take the six that were holding my hand, but then I noticed that Steve had left a kid behind. So, I took my group and went off to bring the kid back to Steve. Along the way, one of my kids asked to hold my hand. I told her it would be cold, and when she took it, she screamed and flinched back. All of them did that. I didn't find Steve (turns out he had taken them to a part of the zoo where our group wasn't allowed and nearly missed the bus).

I still have today left, which I am going late because I am sick (possibly from being too cold???), but yesterday none of the kids would talk to me or listen. The other days, we would always do piggybacks and they would always try to hold on to my leg or hand, but all of them seem scared of me now. I feel awful, but there's nothing I can do about it. I heard one of the older girls (grade 5 or 6) talk to their sibling who is in my group, and then she and all of her friends start referring to me as the 'vampire girl'. None of the kindergarteners really knew my name (which is fine, they're kindergarteners, and they always just called me 'teacher' anyways), but yesterday, I heard few of my kids talking to another leader asking where I was (I was walking towards them), and when the other leader asked who they were talking about, they all said 'the one with the cold hands!' and the 'vampire girl'. All of the kids look at me like a freak now, and when the director of the day camp (who I know quite well) found out about it,she pulled me over and said I might not be able to volunteer next year to be a leader if this happens again! Like, what the heck!! I told her about Steve and how he took my gloves, but she didn't seem very interested.

I don't really now what to do now. I have been a leader for the day camps for 5 years now, and just because an idiot took my gloves on a cold day, I can't do it anymore? Ugh, it just makes me mad.

Sorry about the super long rant!

[PearlieMae]

Lostariel, you need to sit down with this kid's parents and lay out this entire story. That kid sounds like he has some serious bullying problems.

How attached are you to this gig?



I must confess I've been THAT asshole before. To be fair though, the girl I did it to actually was trying to hit on someone I had told her weeks before that I liked. And she was trying to hit on him by lying to him and saying she was Persian. So... She got what she deserved. :neener:

I've never been such an asshole though that I've done it just out of the blue to a friend.

Hahaha! Did you teach her to say "I have a scorching case of herpes"?

The Danish friend was a friend of the artist, and I later found out he was in on the joke. :doh:

[ShyMer]

Your camp leader should be trying to help those kids understand, not keep you from coming back because they're calling you vampire girl. Did she know that you have trouble with anemia? Ours like she's saying it's your fault that those kids are being unkind.

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[Anahita]

Hahaha! Did you teach her to say "I have a scorching case of herpes"?

The Danish friend was a friend of the artist, and I later found out he was in on the joke. :doh:

Buahaha, sadly, no. I'm kicking myself for not having thought that. I told her to tell him she had two vaginas. The way Farsi is gendered in some ways, I made her say it in the rudest way possible for a girl, in a "sexy" voice and while she wrapped her arm around his waist like he was a girl and they were already dating/married. The guy was just so appalled that this girl came up to him and then touched him and said that... It accomplished my goal, he was so horrified he avoided her and I got him. :D

[Lostariel Telrunya]

Your camp leader should be trying to help those kids understand, not keep you from coming back because they're calling you vampire girl. Did she know that you have trouble with anemia? Ours like she's saying it's your fault that those kids are being unkind.

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Yeah, they do know about it. I've had to say something about it every year to them, and previous years there wasn't anything wrong with it.


Lostariel, you need to sit down with this kid's parents and lay out this entire story. That kid sounds like he has some serious bullying problems.

How attached are you to this gig?



I have talked to his parents and the camp directors about it. Literally every other leader except him and his brother feel the same way I do, but no one really seems to do anything about it. I'm just frustrated because they're keeping him on, and they want to kick me out because my freaking hands get cold. :gah:

[Naufra]

Lostariel, do these people realize the kind of legal trouble you could catch them in for discriminating against you because of your anemia? They are seriously building themselves a legal coffin and all you would have to do is put a lid on it.

[Lostariel Telrunya]

Lostariel, do these people realize the kind of legal trouble you could catch them in for discriminating against you because of your anemia? They are seriously building themselves a legal coffin and all you would have to do is put a lid on it.

Ah, see, I did wonder about that. However, they do have a right to pick out of the volunteers who they think is the best for the position. It isn't illegal, it's just stupid! :S

[Mer_Adella]

Ok here's something I need to bit*h about.

I was in charge of the mermaids at a FAMILY event. We were short on mermaids so we had to trust the judgement of the president of the event to bring in some people to fit the bill. He brought in a girl who he knew (apparently intimately) that was working down state with other mermaids. (I wont name any names). Everything was fine as I was there. I had to leave early for a family event and the other person in charge of the lagoon/mermaids would be there only two hours after me. Not a problem right? Well this mermaid that the president knew, took a 2 hour break! That was not allowed! she knew that. Then when she came back the president was kissing on her, rubbing ice all over her top half, and then picked her up and took her to the bar on the grounds. She was in tail and sitting on the bar drinking. She was even allowing people to do body shots off of her IN TAIL! Mind you this is a family event where all the little kids come to see the mermaids. And here she is in the bar, getting drunk, and acting inappropriately. I had to hear about this the next day. As this girl walked in she had an aire about her that said that she was victimized and made nasty comments about the people that confronted her with her performance.

I took it upon myself to email the other mermaids she was working with to discuss how she acted at a family event. If she were MY mermaid I would want to know if she acted unprofessional at a family event! I have not heard a word from them and I can only assume that when they confronted her about how she acted that she played the victim and they believed her. I just am so frustrated that I keep seeing her all over FB and people saying how good she is when all I have seen is the bad....

[Mermaid Wesley]

Here's my bitch. I jut did the math and I have approximately one hour per day (on average) of free time. That isn't accounting for meals or homework or getting ready to go to work/school. I'm working 40 hours this week and making a mere $365. Holy crap this is hard.


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[coral_sybil]

Okay. First:

F my landlords, and cuss cuss swear swear my roommates. They want to stay here a few more years. I'm sitting here trying to deal with working a lot had having a lot of health complications from mold. Mold that could've been prevented if people listened to me, and the landlords actually took my concerns seriously. I expressed worry about the carpet being wet, they told us it was ground water and that it'd be fine after the big thaw, lol nope it was a busted pipe from the water draining out of the tub in the bathroom next door. Now the landlords don't get it, there is now mold, in and under the carpet, the padding, and the wall may have mold ON it, but we're pretty sure that the sheet rock and everything inside probably has mold too. Wiping it off doesn't make the problem go away.

Secondly, I don't like ignoring a problem. Ignoring it doesn't fix it. You and a person can be pissed, you can throw garbage at each other, but if you decide to ignore it and pretend it never happened, that garbage will still be there. You're just stepping around it. Until the day you misstep and oops it's brought up again.

If I think a person is unfairly upset I say it, just because no one things it's worth discussing doesn't mean it isn't. A third party expressed their plans over a month prior. And just NOW that it's actually coming up is this person getting upset. And everyone has either been straight up angry at that person for being upset, or trying to soothe things out. No. Just no. If this was a big deal, you should've said something... oh I don't know... while it was still in the planning stage? Don't like the date? SAY SOMETHING. Don't like the plans for the event? Once again, say something! Making a bitch fit about it when the information had been there, available, doesn't make any sense to me.

I get it, sometimes people aren't aware ahead of schedule enough, at that point if that person and their stuff didn't matter then, why should it be now?

They just... gah!

Oh, and thirdly? Water spritz to the Shen-Kitty and her owner. Just because we have litter boxes for our cats, doesn't mean you shouldn't keep yours available and out. Yeah you'll have to clean it, but it's better than the cats getting territorial... like they are now. My kitty was doing nothing but trying to do her business. Drinking a scotch and going "well.. bad kitty" doesn't help.

[Raayvhen]

Um, I'm pretty sure if your landlord is making you live in a dangerous situation you can report them to the police for health violations.

And report them to the health dept.

[Lorelei]

Here's my bitch. I just did the math and I have approximately one hour per day (on average) of free time. That isn't accounting for meals or homework or getting ready to go to work/school. I'm working 40 hours this week and making a mere $365. Holy crap this is hard.

I suffer from this same exact thing! >.< It's the toughest thing in the world trying to balance everything out, then on top of it all, working your tail off at a minimum wage job and making not even enough to pay rent, let alone save for anything else that YOU actually want.
Hang in there, you're definitely not alone.:cry:

[MarkF]

Coral Sybil,
Get out of there. Forget your roommates, landlords, right or wrong.
This is your health.
Minnesota has lots to offer - go!
That's the great thing about renting.
Go!

[coral_sybil]

Um, I'm pretty sure if your landlord is making you live in a dangerous situation you can report them to the police for health violations.

And report them to the health dept.

That's sadly what I keep telling my roommates but they keep pushing how they don't want that, how they've done a lot of work on the house and how they want to rent here for a few years cause they're sick of moving. And I'm just over here screaming at them "but what if it doesn't get better. there has got to be better options out there. Who cares if we have to move?" Apparently they do. So if I want out, I have to leave my fiance aside. They most they want to do is send in health bills to the landlords, I have been renting a lot less than they have, but I'm starting to think I'm the only one thinking

[Raayvhen]

I say you just go do it anyways. There is literally nothing worth risking when your health is involved.

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[coral_sybil]

That's true... I think the scary part is. I could be seriously ill in the throat and lungs and not know it... since the surgery to remove an abnormal tonsil as preteen I haven't actually been able to tell when I'm actually sick.

[Raayvhen]

You should definitely check with your doctor. It could also help with getting your shitty landlord to do something.

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[MarkF]

your packing right?
Then for entertainment you could pick up a mold test kit -
http://www.homedepot.com/p/Mold-Armor-Mold-Test-Kit-FG500/100628956

ok, back to packing.

[Echidna]

Mold is a scary thing.
There has been a problem with mold in my parents' house for years, and convincing them to do something about it was as exhausting as rolling a millstone up Mt Everest by hand.

I'm begining to be severely affected by it now, but they still refuse to believe it's "that bad", and they don't want to move.
I had an expert test the mold spore concentration, and it's three times that which is already considered dangerously high and a health threat.
Ye, but no, they've lived here for so long, and nevermind the house is too big for them to handle.

Been looking for a place to move for a while now, but even a few small rooms anywhere cost up to half a million, it's crazy.
I hate renting, because I've seen too many greedy and shitty landlords :/
And it's really hard to find anyhing to rent if you bring little ones too.

I can only pray to the Tidelord something will turn the current :p

[SeaGlass Siren]

Okay. First:

F my landlords, and cuss cuss swear swear my roommates. They want to stay here a few more years. I'm sitting here trying to deal with working a lot had having a lot of health complications from mold. Mold that could've been prevented if people listened to me, and the landlords actually took my concerns seriously. I expressed worry about the carpet being wet, they told us it was ground water and that it'd be fine after the big thaw, lol nope it was a busted pipe from the water draining out of the tub in the bathroom next door. Now the landlords don't get it, there is now mold, in and under the carpet, the padding, and the wall may have mold ON it, but we're pretty sure that the sheet rock and everything inside probably has mold too. Wiping it off doesn't make the problem go away.

Secondly, I don't like ignoring a problem. Ignoring it doesn't fix it. You and a person can be pissed, you can throw garbage at each other, but if you decide to ignore it and pretend it never happened, that garbage will still be there. You're just stepping around it. Until the day you misstep and oops it's brought up again.

If I think a person is unfairly upset I say it, just because no one things it's worth discussing doesn't mean it isn't. A third party expressed their plans over a month prior. And just NOW that it's actually coming up is this person getting upset. And everyone has either been straight up angry at that person for being upset, or trying to soothe things out. No. Just no. If this was a big deal, you should've said something... oh I don't know... while it was still in the planning stage? Don't like the date? SAY SOMETHING. Don't like the plans for the event? Once again, say something! Making a bitch fit about it when the information had been there, available, doesn't make any sense to me.

I get it, sometimes people aren't aware ahead of schedule enough, at that point if that person and their stuff didn't matter then, why should it be now?

They just... gah!

Oh, and thirdly? Water spritz to the Shen-Kitty and her owner. Just because we have litter boxes for our cats, doesn't mean you shouldn't keep yours available and out. Yeah you'll have to clean it, but it's better than the cats getting territorial... like they are now. My kitty was doing nothing but trying to do her business. Drinking a scotch and going "well.. bad kitty" doesn't help.


call Holmes.

[coral_sybil]

call Holmes.

Tempted.

[MermaidCelesteFL]

Let me preface with this: I'm diagnosed with bipolar mood disorder. I take a ton of meds for it, and even then- it doesn't stop me from acting wonky from time to time.

When my boyfriend broke up with me back in April, I was a royal mess. We were together for a year, we lived together, we shared everything together. One day he discovered that I had self-medicated on 4/20 and knowing that I've had a history of substance abuse- broke up with me. Just like that. I had a therapist appointment scheduled for the next day, and I attended it, hoping that I would get some kind and warm words of wisdom from my therapist.

Instead, I was Baker Acted. For being sad (not suicidal).

So now I'm stuck with a 450 dollar hospital bill for being handcuffed and thrown in the back of a police cruiser all because I was sad that my boyfriend broke up with me. The bill collectors are after me, and I don't know what to do. I don't have money for this!

[Mermaid Kelda]

That's ridiculous! Can you fight it somehow?
Things like that make me so glad I live in a country with health care (that is, if our PM doesn't strip it from us before the next election...)

[MarkF]

Why is it we ( or I ) are self-conscious about what others think?
So my office’s mechanical drawings “Flow controls, drive systems, high speed separators” are slowly being replaced with scale pattern drawings, fin shapes, mechanics of tail motion and MerStuff like that. Customers and my Wife earlier after seeing them would make no comment or comments in a condescending tone “You like Mermaids?”, I liked how they go quickly quiet after I say “Yes!” Now they have seen the momentum to creation of a tail and have gotten the courage to say “You’re making a Mermaid tail?” Somehow it’s easier to say yes to like Mermaids than making a tail.
I couldn’t imagine what it would be like telling my wife “Oh I just spent $5,000 on a Mermaid tail from Merbella.”
Time to go buy some components to test some tail ideas.

[Mermaid Viktoria]

Why is it we ( or I ) are self-conscious about what others think?
So my office’s mechanical drawings “Flow controls, drive systems, high speed separators” are slowly being replaced with scale pattern drawings, fin shapes, mechanics of tail motion and MerStuff like that. Customers and my Wife earlier after seeing them would make no comment or comments in a condescending tone “You like Mermaids?”, I liked how they go quickly quiet after I say “Yes!” Now they have seen the momentum to creation of a tail and have gotten the courage to say “You’re making a Mermaid tail?” Somehow it’s easier to say yes to like Mermaids than making a tail.
I couldn’t imagine what it would be like telling my wife “Oh I just spent $5,000 on a Mermaid tail from Merbella.”
Time to go buy some components to test some tail ideas.

I'm sorry you feel like that! I've definitely been in an awkward situation before with answering 'yes' to my mermaid 'addiction'. When I first told my husband, he chuckled. Definitely thought I was joking. He figured out pretty soon that I was serious with this ambition. I recently put in my order for a silicone tail and I let him know. He knows the prices, and while he didn't seem completely thrilled about the idea of me getting one, he's finally ended the condescending tone he used to have.
I think eventually you'll find that people will ease into what you love. Because after all, if you love it that's all that should matter :)

[Vixy]

I did a whole week of work a couple of weeks back including a Saturday (where I got yelled out by both my coworkers and customers) and I asked for two days more to visit a friend before London MCM and was told that the other counter person who had more then a week off would kick up a fuss.

Shows who is favoured in my work.

[Mermaid Viktoria]

I did a whole week of work a couple of weeks back including a Saturday (where I got yelled out by both my coworkers and customers) and I asked for two days more to visit a friend before London MCM and was told that the other counter person who had more then a week off would kick up a fuss.

Shows who is favoured in my work.

I've had similar occurrences with my manager. She took a couple days off to go see an American football game in another state, so I covered for her (it's only us two in the office) and then on the days when I request off for family matters, nearly a month in advanced, she would say no because it would 'most likely be a busy day'. However, on a busy day she can leave the office early because 'she's bored and doesn't want to do the work' and leave it to me.
I may be the assistant, and I'm more than happy to assist on what I'm supposed to, but when she goes 'Oh. Remind me to shut my car windows before it rains.' I get a little frustrated hahah

[Vixy]

They asked for me to go in tonight five minutes before opening, I was busy and couldn't and they tried to bribe me those two days to get me to come in.

[Amphitrite]

$%&# Life.

[MarkF]

Thanks Viktoria, you've make so much from that simple investment, no one would think to question that decision your Mermaid likely shown before the tail. I suspect your husband is ready to buy you another if you wanted it. The magic you've given it shows.
For me only my oldest friends know my inner Merman. Frankly I'm excited in the process of the build I get to use most of what I've learned to build it. This group of folks is so wonderful and am more surprised with each story.
So paraphrasing PearlieMae, I remain undeterred by others low expectations.

[Mermaid Lorelei]

Ugh. I've been trying to get my camera to work, but it suddenly decided that I can't put photos on my SD card anymore. Hence, my photos are stuck on my camera. -.- Stupid thing. I can't load photos of my client's jewelry or even stock photos for my Etsy shop without it.

[PearlieMae]

Are you using a USB cable to offload your photos? If so, pick up a card reader and try to unload your photos with that. They are cheap, usually under ten bucks, but remember, you get what you pay for, so go with a brand name. Might be a couple bucks more, but usually worth it.

Get a back up SD card, too. Once you get your images off the one you have, reformat it. That might be part of the problem. Good luck!

[Mermaid Lorelei]

I'll look into that. Thanks Pearlie. <3

[PearlieMae]

No worries!

I just thought of something else...take your card to anyplace with a photo center, Walgreens, CVS, etc... and have them copy your card's content to a CD or DVD, then reformat the card. A lot of digital junk builds up, so it's good to reformat often.

[Mermaid Wesley]

I haven't gotten any work done on my tail for a month. And the only reason for that is because I'm too busy. I have all my supplies just sitting at home taking up space and I actually don't have enough hours in the day to get enough sleep so forget about any extra activities. Whenever I'm free I'm too mentally exhausted to do anything so my school work is suffering too. *headdesk* I'm spread way too thin. I need time off. I only slept four hours last night and I'm gonna get sick at this rate.


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[Starfrit]

I think I made a huge mistake.

So, since October of last year, I was a third-shift tillbitch for a gas station near my house. The pay sucked, but it was just enough to pay my share of the rent and bills... The last few months, most of my payments were late and I rarely had much left over for groceries or food of any kind, but I kept at it.

The job itself was utter shit because apparently, my employers believed that "Labor Laws" were more of a vague suggestion than actual laws, as I was frequently left in the store alone for 6-8 hours at a time by myself with no opportunity for even a bathroom break, much less a chance to sit down or eat, which started to lead to a lot of physical and mental health issues. At one point, when I was alone I lost all hearing in my right ear, couldn't see straight and suddenly could barely walk. I called the assistant manager to tell her "hey, serious shit is happening to me right now, I need someone to cover for me because I NEED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL"... And she flipped out, told me to deal with it and hung up on me. So I suffered through the remaining five hours of my shift by myself, barely able to function.

I was robbed earlier in the year, which was a horrifying experience, yet my concerns since then about working alone at night (I'm a quiet, nervous 5'2" and 120lb girl; I'm not exactly the most imposing cashier and I've been terrorized and harassed by customers looking to take advantage of this) have largely gone ignored or brushed off as me being "oversensitive"... And I'd still be scheduled by myself.

I spent the last few weeks job hunting, and finally had something lined up at Best Buy, right across the street from the gas station. Same five-minute walk to work, better hours, I'd be getting paid at least $2 more per hour, plus full health and dental coverage. I had two interviews, nailed them both like a freakin' boss, and was told that they'd get me in for my third and final interview; once they confirmed I had the last interview, I was basically guaranteed the job. I was ready to go.

Then a week ago, the gas station job went to absolute hell; I had a nasty encounter with a bunch of asshole customers that left me scared to go into work; my assistant manager ditched me alone, told me to do HER audit for her (which is her job, not mine; I'm just a cashier. I'm not even allowed to do that because technically I'm not trained/ not trusted by corporate enough, and she isn't allowed to leave for the day until her audits are done). Did I mention that she left the second a dozen suits from one of our major suppliers came in to expect the store, which she expected ME to somehow handle with zero warning of who they were and what I was supposed to do? Yeah. This was also right at the beginning of an 8-hour shift where I would be by myself without any opportunity for a break. Which is very, very illegal.

I got bitched out for not getting everything cleaned and stocked and ~*perfect*~ at the same time I had to deal with nonstop floods of customers BY MYSELF during one of our busiest weeks all summer, was threatened to get written up for declining sales on propane tanks and propane exchanges (propane is kept outside the buildinh and I'm not allowed to leave the cash when I'm by myself and there's customers around... It's a damned-if-you-do-damned-if-you-don't situation...)

Long story short, it got to be too much, and I said "Fuck it. This job is hell on earth, I've practically got that position at Best Buy, what happens here isn't going to affect any of my other job opportunities because corporate won't allow anyone working with this shit company to give out references anyway, so I have literally nothing to lose."

So at the end of my second-last shift of the week I went home, typed up an "as of now I am hereby quitting due to personal reasons" letter of resignation, delivered it to the store at 1am and put it somewhere where the assistant manager and my boss would see it first thing in the morning.

Then they got incredibly pissed off, spam-called my phone from five separate numbers so they could yell at me for not giving them two weeks' notice (not legally required to present two weeks' notice, that's a courtesy thing, and when I'm in a position that the job I'm doing has me constantly stressed out to the point of causing seriously harmful relapses in my mental and physical health, two weeks isn't an option anyway). So I was left feeling like shit, but figured "Whatever, Best Buy will get back to me any day now about the position, and I'll start working there and things will get better anyway."

It's been over a week since I quit— two weeks since I had my interviews with Best Buy— and I still haven't heard anything. I'm starting to think they may have changed their mind about hiring me.

Which means I'm fucked. Literally nobody else will look at me and I've been rejected from just about everywhere else I actually have transportation to. I'm dead broke, my phone bill and house bills are dur this week, and I have zero income. I'm going job hunting tomorrow but I'm honestly not feeling confident because I don't even know what else is around here that I'll even have a chance at anymore. I'm terrified and I'm desperate and I'm kicking myself for quitting before making absolutely sure I had another job lined up... I've been so stressed out over it the last few days that I've barely slept and when I do sleep, I get nightmares and old hags, which really aren't helping.

Can't even get in to see a therapist right now either, because I'm still on a 4-month waiting list to get in to see one.

Fuck my life. Fuck. My. Life.

[PearlieMae]

Fuuuuuuuck...

If you were here in the states, I could tell you exactly how to ream those fuckers, but I have no idea about Canadian labor laws! I would write to the corporate offices, though, and rat those shits out for the abuses your superiors are guilty of. Contact the labor department and report their violations against you and file an official complaint. Threaten to sue EVERYBODY.

Follow up with Best Buy and ask what the status of your application is, since the holiday season is approaching and you are considering other opportunities, but like Best Buy because they are a well known and respected company, and you like that they are close to home.

Good luck, hun! You'll get through this! :hug:

[AniaR]

I am so sorry it sucks but you did the right thing! If you're super stuck you CAN file your situation with unemployment and argue you needed to leave for safety reasons backed up with how they harassed you when you left. I have a friend who had a similar experience after being robbed and was able to do that.

Maybe give best buy a call and dont give up dear! <3

[SeaGlass Siren]

there's no HR to report to?

[Sherielle]

What about reporting that shit to corporate? Somebody up higher needs to know of those shenanigans

[Starfrit]

there's no HR to report to?

Unfortunately, HR is there to protect the company, not the workers. I'm not the only one who's tried to file a formal complaint about the work conditions, and I'm not the only one who's been met with silence. :/



What about reporting that shit to corporate? Somebody up higher needs to know of those shenanigans

Corporate is the one making these decisions. The one time my boss actually tried to get people working with me in the evenings so I'd stop complaining, corporate got on his case for using "too many hours" on the schedule. Also why HR is refusing to take action.


I'm going out in a couple of hours to meet up with my boyfriend as he's getting off work, so I'll stop into Best Buy then and see if one of the managers is around that I could ask about it (since I have to go by Best Buy anyway and, honestly, I'm a little weird about talking over the phone unless it's someone calling me :P) so I've got my fingers crossed. Feeling a bit better now that I've actually gotten some sleep and stopped stressing out enough to think about the situation more rationally, and tomorrow I'll be slamming everywhere within reach with resumes to see what'll stick. If I don't get the Best Buy job this time around, they'll be hiring a lot of people again in November for the Christmas season and I'm absolutely guaranteed the position if I apply then, so with any luck, even if I get another less-than-stellar job in the meantime, it'll tide me over until I can get into Best Buy or somewhere else during the Christmas season.

[SeaGlass Siren]

you could always try the disneystore :o

[Starfrit]

Disneystore? O.o We... don't have one of those here.

[PearlieMae]

NO DISNEY STORE????

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[MarkF]

when you apply to these places tell him that you want to be the assistant manager train to be manager and then they''ll explain you have to be your cashier first but you get you a little higher pay grade and you get promotions faster.

[Starfrit]

NO DISNEY STORE????

24045

No Disney Store. :( We don't get cool stuff like that in Newfoundland... I would be the happiest person alive if we had one here though! ;-; I once ordered a pair of Lady and the Tramp plushies for my older sister for her birthday from Disney's website and the shipping and customs costs came to more than the toys themselves (Toys were $30, shipping and customs came to ~$55). It was rough. :c I'd be SO NICE to have a shop like that here so I wouldn't have to spend so goddamn much on shipping!

(also if I could work there oh my god I'd be the best goddamn employee on the face of the planet)

[SeaGlass Siren]

acting singing and making a complete fool out of yourself is required for the interview (aka "roleplaying"). luckily enough for me, i am a former theatre student :D

[Starfrit]

OH DAMN, that is totally up my alley! :D Also a former theatre student (Theatre Arts and Musical Theatre) so the idea of doing that sort of stuff for a job interview sounds AMAZING.

[SeaGlass Siren]

migrate over to toronto! we've got a lot of disneystores!

[Vixy]

My friend's dad wanted to meet my new boyfriend but I didn't get to introduce them, I thought that they could meet next time Sean's down. My friend came to my work earlier tonight and told me that his dad died the day before. That he died of a heart attack. It was so sudden.

I regret it, and hate myself that I didn't introduce them. I haven't seen him for a few weeks, I wished I had a chance to see him the last time. I've known him for 4 years and we were close, I knew I was able to talk to him and he gave me advice and sat with me when an ex broke up with me.

I'm pretty broken up about it, and worried for my friend. :(

[Amphitrite]

*Swims up to Vixy and offers a hug* I'm so sorry to hear. I'll be praying for you, fishy. No one knows the future, including us. Focus on how many happy memories you have of him. It'll get better, truly. Just don't keep it all inside.

[Carolina Mermaid]

Okay, I really need to get this off. It's about 2:30 am here, I'm supposed to be asleep because I have to drive 3 1/2 hours back home tomorrow. Well, slight issue about that, I think my dorm ro is either haunted or my roommates are screwing with me through a locked door. Now I'm absolutely terrified of ghosts and such and something moves from where I put it I completely freak out.
Now, this has happened several different times but now I actually saw it happen. I have this little fan in my room to keep me cool at night, well somehow, it has been turned and either pushed or pulled to the back of the wall. I don't know how it has been doing that or if I'm throwing this way out of proportion, but I'm really f**king scared right now!

[Mermaid Jaffa]

Turn on all the lights and do a search for strings, footprints and peepholes.

[Anahita]

Maybe it's a djinn. *shrugs*

I actually wouldn't be scared at all. Either someone is pranking you or it really is something otherworldly, but either way, it's not actually hurting you, and it doesn't seem to be intent on hurting you, so there's no reason to be scared.

I'd kind of feel it's more irritating than scary. I used to live in a house where the taps would turn on and you'd have to get up and turn them off. It wasn't scary, it was just irritating. Although, the moving shadows and shadowy reflections in the mirrors were definitely creepy. But like my main point, if that stuff really is real, it's not hurting you, so don't be scared, be annoyed. Lol

[SeaGlass Siren]

Yeah. Ghosts sense fear so they keep doing it because it's fun to scare people. Just tell it to go away :p it works wonders.

also vixy..(hugs)

[Merman Dan]

I have small shadowy creatures in the house, here, but I simply assumed it was the fey folk finally working up the nerve to come inside. They are far easier to see, outside. Granted, there's also a ghost in the house but she hasn't started moving things yet. She only repeats knocked patterns, floats through people, and harmless things like that.

[Echidna]

Now I'm absolutely terrified of ghosts and such and something moves from where I put it I completely freak out.

are your roommates aware of this?
if yes, they *might* be pulling pranks on you, thinking it's the wittiest and funniest thing to do :rolleyes:

remember, in about 9999 of 10000 situations, there's a perfectly rational explanation for something ;)

And if there isn't (which I somehow doubt), don't be discouraged by comments like "just be tough and don't be afraid lol".
It's perfectly normal to be creeped out by something genuinely paranormal.
Reminds me of one of my friends, a "super tough afraid of absolutely nothing"-guy, who loudly declared how I was silly and he "just told all demons, gods or devils to go away, and voilà".
And then he spent one night screaming at the top of his lungs and threw a violent fit because he saw my little housespirit fly by.

>>morale of story: it's very easy to be confident when sitting on one's completely normal couch safe at home, and a very different story to actually see something for real. :p

[Merman Dan]

And then he spent one night screaming at the top of his lungs and threw a violent fit because he saw my little housespirit fly by.
LOL! My oldest son saw one of my guardians once but then again he and I channel the same sorts of energy.

[SeaGlass Siren]

yeah. it all really depends on the situation and how long it's been ailing you for. also depends on the person.

storytime: one night i woke up and i removed my cover because it was super hot in the room... and i saw a black shadow. i freaked out and put the covers back on but then decided to check if she was actually there. nope wasnt there. i freaked out and though oh maybe i was dreaming.

a week after that, same thing happened. i peeked out from under my covers and she was sitting on my computer chair beside my bed! and i literally screamed. i'm not making this up, i screamed and pulled the cover back up and didn't put it down until morning light came in. i think that's when i was talking on mernetwork about it. can't remember where tho or on what thread...
EDIT: FOUND IT! http://mernetwork.com/index/showthread.php?5070-I-think-I-m-becoming-schizophrenic/page2&highlight=ghost+girl

but anyway when it was daylight i made sure there was nothing on my chair because then i thought (maybe i left things on my chair, maybe it's just a silhouette

the next week after that appeared AGAIN but this time she was up close looking at me in the face. at that point i got really angry because she wouldn't go away so i screamed at her to go away. i was still scared but my level of anger surpassed my level of fear... i told my mom about it and she thought i was crazy or had sleep paralysis :s anyway after that she just stopped appearing.

who knows, maybe after a while you'll just summon enough anger and annoyance in you that you'll tell it to go away and it won't bother you.

[Vixy]

Funeral is this week, for the past couple of days I've sat with my friend and his feuding family. I'm hoping that his dad's death doesn't break the family apart but I can see cracks starting to happen.

[SeaGlass Siren]

my goodness... i hate when that happens. my husband is in that position himself where his grandpa is almost immovable and his family is fighting over who gets what in the will. disgusting. same thing happened to my mother AND my father when my grandpas passed away. irks me to no end like why would you fight over what's in the will and then get mad at each other become one receives more than the other, and then family breaks apart because of that. so. fucking. stupid.
vixy you have my sympathies.

[Yulia]

It's election here in Sweden today. The prognosis of the result shows that A FREAKING RACIST PARTY GETS 10% OF THE VOTES.
Right now they will be the third largest party in Sweden. It's so scary and wrong.

[Merman Arion]

Last Friday, I had a final job interview at H&M and it went very well. I fit the profile they were looking for and I have been told that they liked my personality. Finally, I just got the call I was waiting since a few days and my referent of the recruitment firm that handles my file was sorry to inform me that my application was not successful for the following reasons: "labor risks". That means they thought that the work pace might be too fast and stressful for me WITHOUT giving me a chance to prove them wrong! I'm upset! I worked four years as a hairdresser before and the work pace was just as fast, I do not see how I would have been unable to produce the tasks that they would have asked me to do in the stores. I do not see the point of creating test periods if you do not give a chance to the candidates. I'm disappointed but I will definitely not stop here! I will retry again. As of now, I'm going to turn the page and move on. FUCK ! :mad:

[SeaGlass Siren]

yikes.. good luck arion!!

[Mermaid Lilium]

argh okay. So here's my 'this is why I've been MIA for months' bitch-fit/explanation.

July in particular was hell on earth after graduation on the 10th. (graduated with a 2:1)

we moved into the rental house on the 11th, and then just since that point all the following happened:

- 15th - My grandmother died suddenly. and then in the days that followed....

- 19th - During a heatwave, I left the bedroom window open as ya do and was out the room for an hour, when I returned the whole bay window had a tide of grey polystrene balls that were still flooding in through the top of the open window. Closed it and spent the whole day hoovering and emptying the hoover. 5 bin bags worth. Week later the maintenance guy came and emptied another bin bag/refuse sack and sealed a huge gap at the top of the window which was letting the cavity wall insulation into my room. It had gotten into all the boxes and bags of fabric etc that I had stacked in the window. I am still finding the damn things.

- 22nd - 23rd Bearing in mind that my husband Doug and I were not doing any better (he took bedroom 9 at the top of the house - this house is usually staff accom with one caretaker and rooms rented out to seasonal staff, mum is down as caretaker and we have the house to ourselves... it's strange having two kitchens, 9 bedrooms, and a bunch of bathrooms lol) and basically his depression was just overwhelming him. He went to stay at a friend's house for two nights but came back after 1 night cause the friend had a family member go into hospital. When doug got in he told me he wanted a divorce and I agreed. Doug's friend dropped everything and got him to go stay over as planned for that 2nd night. I ended up crying myself to sleep, woke up at 5am crying again and then got up and continued trying to unpack stuff. He came home about 10am super agitated and such and long story short he was then asking me to give him his pills (that the dr had put me in charge of and so had them hidden in my room) so that he could OD. Ended up with me calling an ambulance, waiting for it for an hour while doug continued to beg and/or start trying to hunt for the pills. Then had to go sit with him in A&E until he finally got to see the mental health nurse at like 10.30pm. Then when we were done and waiting to get picked up by my mum (they wouldn't admit him as he wasn't bad enough) he was going on about wanting to reconcile. I said no and have stuck by that ever since. I'm in the process of filling out the paperwork. Everything's been fairly hard/awkward and painful since then with him, and for example in august he dissapeared off home to PA for a week, quitting his job and only telling us the night before he was due to fly. Luckily he starts a new job on monday and so should find his own place soon.

- 26th - On the last night of the heatwave, I had the windows open on my ground floor bedroom (at the front of the house where most people have their living room) in an attempt to stay comfortable. 5 mins after I switched the lamp off I suddenly realised there was a man climbing in my window and I screamed at him to get out at the top of my voice and he ran off. I probably scared him more than he scared me but I'm now left feeling unsafe in this house and paranoid about noises outside my window etc.

- I also lost my clutch bag during the move, that I'd had at graduation which had some of my favourite Mac makeup in it and my bank card, so had to cancel my card and get a new one etc. And I'm so broke I don't have the money to replace the lost makeup. We have searched everywhere and in every box, bag etc so can only guess that it got dropped somewhere or someone grabbed it off the top of a box or something while they were loading or offloading the removal van.

- Also, can't remember the date (it's all gotten kinda confusing, I had to reference my phone to get the dates to get everything in the right sequence here) but asshat Paul (mum's ex) struck again! This time preventing me, mum and my brother from going to my grandmother's funeral (paul is my dad's brother fyi). He threatened mum with prosecution for 'stealing' nanny's stuff (she went to help clear out nanny's room at the carehome as paul still hadn't bothered) and then the next day, the morning of the funeral was basically threatening mum with harm should she attend and pointing out that there would be no security there. In the end it caused so much angst and upset within my family that none of us got to go. Turned out that paul had organised the cheapest possible funeral, not followed any of her wishes like to have the service at her church of 60yrs rather than at the crematorium. He turned up to the funeral in his nearly black with dirt 'white' van, in jeans and a tshirt and nothing in the service was really about nanny. We still don't know what he's done with her ashes. He says it was 'nanny's wishes' that mum not be there. Paul is STILL texting mum, using whatever excuse he can find to try to force mum to see him. Such as photo albums of nan's and after that didn't work, he's now using another thing, can't even remember what he's using this time. He's really that fucking delusional. Mum ended things august 25th last year and kicked him out of the house the friday before xmas via a court-order.

There are two things that help right now. One is a brand new thing cause I got some promising news back from a local pool - a large pool too - that I should be able to train there, just waiting for confirmation. Then will go try it out, and find out the price plans and then gotta wait for the bit of money I'm getting from nan's will and will be investing that in tailmaking gear and a gym membership. I'm still looking for a job, and have £0 >_<

The other thing was that about a month ago, I thought I had a mouse in my room, I'd heard scrabbling in the walls and ceiling now and then since we moved in here. This one night the sound started in my wardrobe to the right of my bed. I moved stuff away to make sure they didn't get chewed and to see if I could find anything and saw two biiiig black eyes staring up at me and my phone-torch. It wasn't a mouse. I eventually managed to catch it and it turned out to be a chinese dwarf hamster that escaped last year as a baby from a previous tennant next door (she's now moved back to france) and survived all this time even though there's been a dog living in here til november, the company that owns this place put poison down regularly and there are tons of cats in the neighborhood. This house has been empty since november and all the doors are heavy sealing firedoors. We have no idea how the lil guy survived but he has.... we bought him a swanky cage and he now has lots of toys and food and healthy treats all the time (me and mum kinda spoil him). It took him 3 weeks to learn to use the wheel and I still don't know for sure if he has figured out the water bottle but have seen him drink from the water dish I give him. X_x He hoards his food in his cubby-hole like he must have done all this time. Meet houdini....

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He's super antisocial and waits til all the lights are out and I've gone to bed to come out and explore. But I cleaned him out today and in the process I managed to actually stroke him a bit without him freaking :D I just hope he knows soon that he doesn't need to fear me and I just care for him and want him to be happy and safe <3 I don't even care if I can never handle him, I'd just rather he be having fun and good noms rather than end up dead.

so yeah at least I now have some kinda fluffy friend to tide me over until we move into our own house in april or w/e and I can finally rescue a new kitty or puppy.

Other good things: finally getting a dream piece of black milk clothing (purple galaxy leggings) that fit and I can wear out (they look awesome on even!), I finally got my fabric training tail made in august for my first tail shoot and had my first public event last sunday raising money for the local cancer fund.

but yeah just generally.... mer-hugs would be much apreciated *falls over* X_x

[SeaGlass Siren]

Oh gosh lils you need more than a hug. You need some girl time and some alcoholic beverages. And a few of us to fly over there